Title: The Wrong Path
Author: White Wolf
Genre:
Angst/Action/Adventure
Rating: PG-13
Timeline:
Pre-FOTR
Summary:
After
apparently taking a wrong turn in a mysterious forest, something happens to
Legolas. Aragorn doesn't know what's wrong or what to do, so he takes the elf
to his father in Rivendell, however Elrond has no answers either.
Disclaimer: Alas, I don't own
anything J.R.R. Tolkien created. I couldn't compete with him even if I was
silly enough to try. All I can do is borrow some of his creations and write my
own pale imitations. I'm certainly not making any money from this offering.
It's just entertainment (hopefully).
Chapter
One
Elrohir,
youngest elven son of Elrond, the Lord of Imladris, stood at the window of one
of the libraries in his family’s home. From this window, the elf could see the
courtyard. His mind was on nothing in particular, when he saw two horses on the
far horizon. He squinted, trying to make out who might be approaching
Rivendell. When the horses got a bit closer, his elven eyes made out the fact
that one horse was dark and the other was gray.
The elf
smiled. Estel and Legolas were finally returning and only four days late. That
had to be some kind of record. He continued to smile and watch as the horses
got closer still, moving at a fairly quick pace. He then noticed something that
wiped the smile from his face. It was replaced with a frown of concern. There was
only one rider. There was no one sitting on the horse that followed. Elrohir
was just about to turn away, when he realized that the gray horse carried two
riders, not one. He stood and stared a moment longer to confirm that fact.
Elrohir
quickly crossed the carpeted library and ran out into the hall, yelling for his
father. His heart was racing. Had he stopped to look, he would have seen his
hands shaking. His long black hair flew out behind him as he raced down the
corridor.
Elrond and
his eldest son, Elladan, were in the elf Lord’s private study, going over a new
book of healing that Elrond had just acquired from the Lady Galadriel of
Lothlorien. They were deep in research and discussion, when they heard the
shouting. They both looked at the door simultaneously and then at each other. A
look of foreboding passed between father and son. Elrohir’s shouts were
bordering on panic.
Elrohir was
running past the study door, still yelling, when Elrond and Elladan hurried out
into the corridor. “Elrohir,” Elrond called out in a stern tone. “What is all
the shouting about?” Were they under attack?
“Ada,
Elladan, they are back, but...” his previously excited voice trailed off into
silence. The look in his eyes made his father and twin brother cringe. It was
not the first time they had seen that look. They knew what it meant; something
was terribly wrong with either Estel or Legolas.
Elrond knew
he didn’t want to hear what his son might say, but, he had to hear it, so the
elven Lord squared his shoulders and asked, “Which one?” He knew Elrohir
understood perfectly well his meaning.
Sadness had
overtaken panic for the moment, and Elrohir’s breathing was a bit rapid. It was
then that he did notice his shaking hands. He put them down and pressed his
palms tightly against his thighs, but it didn’t help much.
“They are
both on Legolas's horse,” Elrohir said at last. It’s all he could manage to
say.
“Then, it
is Estel,” Elrond breathed. “Come. We must hurry. He will likely need immediate
attention.” He started off down the hall toward the courtyard, his blue silk
robes swishing, and his twin sons in his wake.
All three
elves were standing at the foot of the steps that led from the courtyard into
The Last Homely House. All three were staring toward the open gate and the
small section of road leading to it that was visible from where they stood.
Elven eyes
went wide in surprise, as the first horse came in to view. It was Legolas
sitting in front, not Estel. The human had his left arm securely around the
elf, whose head was hanging forward and swaying slightly with the motion of the
horse.
Elrond let
out a sigh of relief that his foster son was apparently not injured or ill.
However, his heart clenched to know that Legolas was clearly in dire need of
attention. *Just once, why could they not both return whole and healthy?* he
thought.
After
Aragorn pulled his horse to a stop, Elrond stepped forward. He shuddered to see
the limp body of the elf and the haggard look on his son‘s face. Aragorn looked
exhausted. “Let Elladan take Legolas,” Elrond instructed gently.
Aragorn
shook his head. He slid from the saddle and pulled Legolas down into his arms
and began to carry him up the steps. He said not a word nor was he in the kind
of rush that usually accompanied the two friends’ return from one of their
adventures. This fact alone did not bode well.
The three
elves left behind all looked at each other. “Estel?” Elrohir called after his
foster brother. Then, he looked at his father, “What has happened?” he asked,
though he knew Elrond didn’t know any more than he did. With a look of horror,
Elrohir suddenly started shaking his head rapidly. “No. No. Tell me Legolas is
not dead.” There was a stricken look on the younger twin’s face.
“I do not
think so. Estel looked grim but not grief-stricken,” Elladan said, trying to
convince himself as much as his brother. There had been no sign of tears.
Elladan only hoped he had analyzed the situation correctly. He spun on his heel
and began to run after his human brother.
When
Aragorn turned down the corridor to the left, Elladan, who had just caught up,
asked him, “Why are you going this way? The House of Healing is that way.” He
was pointing to the right.
With a flat
voice, Aragorn said, “He isn’t wounded.”
Chapter
Two
Aragorn
continued down the corridor with his best friend in his arms. He mounted two
more flights of stairs toward the family’s private wing of the house. His
father and brothers were keeping pace behind him. They each knew they would all
have to wait until Estel was ready to talk to them before they would get any
answers from him.
When
Aragorn reached the room Legolas always stayed in while in Rivendell, Elrohir
rushed ahead and pushed down on the gold handle of the large oak door, which
swung open on silent hinges. He then ran across the room to the glass doors
that led to the balcony on his right. He grasped the hunter green velvet
curtains and pulled them aside, flooding the room with bright sunlight.
The elf
then pushed on the balcony doors, opening them until they lay back against the
wall on either side. Legolas couldn’t stand being closed in even by curtains
and clear glass doors. He was only comfortable when he could not only see the
sky, but listen to the trees and feel the breezes as they blew into his room.
Thus, both curtains and doors were only closed when the elf prince was not in
residence.
There was a
light breeze blowing inward just now, and the room was soon filled with the
fresh scents of Spring.
Meanwhile,
Aragorn lay Legolas on top of the bedspread, whose leaf-pattern was the same
color as the curtains and the carpet. The room had been decorated with the leaf
pattern and dark green color especially for the woodland elf.
Aragorn
carefully made sure the elf’s legs were straight, and then with his hands
behind Legolas's head, he gently lowered it to the fluffy feather pillow that
rested at the base of the ornate wooden headboard.
Elrond
noted with trepidation that Legolas hadn't made even the slightest movement nor
did any sound escape his lips. He was totally limp and unresponsive. Elrond
moved up beside Aragorn and put his hand on the young man’s shoulder.
It was then
that Aragorn turned the saddest expression a human is capable of making toward
his father. With the shake of his head he repeated the words he had said to
Elladan just moments before. "He isn't wounded."
Elrond had
already noted in a quick visual inspection that there was no blood on the
archer. Nor was there any other mark that he could see without a thorough examination.
Aragorn was also a healer and would have checked Legolas before bringing him
home. He would know if a wound was present. Elrond trusted both his foster
son’s skills and his judgment.
Very
softly, he asked, "What ails him?"
"That's
just it, Ada. I don't know," Aragorn said helplessly. With that he turned
toward the bed and removed Legolas's belt. Then, he began to undo the elf’s
outer tunic. There was a gentleness in his movements, but at the same time, he
seemed to move almost too deliberately. It was painfully obvious that he was
working very hard to keep a tight rein on his emotions. One crack and they
would all come flooding out. He couldn't afford that indulgence right now. His
best friend needed him.
Elrohir
pulled Legolas's soft suede boots off and set them together on the floor at the
foot of the bed. Then, he stood silently and watched his two brothers undress
their friend.
Elladan had
crossed to the far side of the bed, with his back to the balcony and was
helping Aragorn pull Legolas into a sitting position. Together they removed his
tunic. Elladan had to put one hand under Legolas's chin and grip it firmly to
keep his head steady. They then pulled his leggings off, leaving him wearing
only his long silk shirt. Aragorn lifted the elf up while his oldest brother
pulled the bedding back. When Legolas was lowered back down, the covers were
pulled up to his chest. Aragorn pulled Legolas's arms from under the cover and
crossed them gently over the elf's stomach.
Aragorn
still held onto one of the archer's hands as he sat down on the side of the bed
and leaned forward. "I'm sorry, mellon nin. I'm so sorry." There was
both infinite sadness and a large measure of guilt in those words.
Elrond
picked up on the guilt he heard but decided that now was not the time to
discuss it. He would have to ask about that later. "Estel, let me look at
him. Perhaps, I can find what the trouble is."
Aragorn
didn't move or say a word at first. He just stared at Legolas's face. Then, he
slowly nodded his assent and stood up. He knew if anyone could help Legolas,
Elrond could, though he had the deep-seated feeling that even the power of the
elf Lord would do no good in this case. It had nothing to do with his father’s
abilities, it was.... He didn’t know what, and it was that lack of knowing that
scared him as much as anything else.
After half
an hour, Elrond had made a thorough examination of every inch of the elf’s
body. He even undid Legolas's braids and examined his entire scalp. Finally,
Elrond stood up and faced his three sons. "I know not what is causing
this." There was a note of apology in his voice and a look of heartbreak
on his ageless face.
Aragorn sat
back down on the bed, gripping the elf’s hand once more, and then he closed his
eyes. Those words from his father confirmed his own feelings of despair. All
along he had the feeling that there was something evil involved that was behind
what was wrong with his friend. If his father couldn’t find a physical reason,
then Aragorn was terribly afraid he was right. But, he wasn’t ready to speak of
that just yet.
Aragorn was
pulled out of his thoughts, when Elrond said, “I will find out.” The elf Lord’s
firm voice reflected his attempt to be as reassuring as he could. It was far
too early to give up hope. To continue, though, he needed details.
“What can
you tell me about what happened? Was he attacked by someone or something?” That
seemed the most logical place to start.
“I can’t
answer any of your questions,” Aragorn said somewhat harshly. He shook his
head. “I’m sorry, Ada. I’m just so worried.” He kept to himself that he was
also so tired he could hardly move. That fact, he knew, they were all very
aware of. An elf was much better at hiding weariness and much better at
detecting it in others than any human. The look of concern in his father’s eyes
was also for him, as well as Legolas.
He looked
up at Elrond. “I have no idea what happened. We were setting up camp for the
night. Legolas tended the horses, as usual, and went off to hunt for dinner
while I set up the camp. When he didn’t come back in a reasonable length of
time, I went looking for him. I found him lying in the grass just as you see
him now. I couldn’t rouse him, but I couldn’t find anything wrong, either.” He
laughed bitterly and waved his hand toward Legolas. “Unless you consider this
condition as being nothing wrong.” More softly he said. “There’s no physical
clue as to why he’s like this. You saw that for yourself.”
The tears
that Aragorn had been holding back threatened to spill out, but he managed, with
a great deal of effort, to keep them from falling. “What can we do, Ada? How
can we help him, if we don’t even know what’s wrong with him?”
Elladan
wanted to know the answer to those questions himself. He came around to the
side of the bed where his foster brother sat. He steeled himself for the
argument he was sure was coming. “Estel, Legolas is safe. He is in no immediate
danger. You need to get some sleep before you collapse.”
“I have to
stay with him.” Aragorn whispered tiredly.
“ Not if it
means you make yourself sick,” Elladan replied firmly. “I promise that Elrohir
and I will not leave this room until you wake and return here. I am sure Ada
will be hard at work, looking for answers, in his books of healing.” He took
Estel’s free hand. “Please, for all our sakes, if not your own, get some rest.”
He looked toward Legolas. “He will need your strength later.”
Everyone
was surprised when Aragorn nodded. It was proof that he was too exhausted to
argue. Aragorn reluctantly let go of Legolas's hand, as Elrond took him by the
shoulders and pulled him to his feet. He gave a small smile of encouragement to
his weary son.
Aragorn
gave his brothers as stern a look as he could muster. “Promise me you’ll come
get me, if there’s any change, no matter how small.”
“We
promise,” Elrohir said, nodding.
Elrond had
his arm around Aragorn as he guided his son from the room. The intricately
carved door closed softly behind them.
Elladan
looked out of the open balcony doorway and noted it was about mid-afternoon. He
pulled one of the two chairs in the room up next to the bed, and a moment later
Elrohir did the same.
They sat
down to wait.
Chapter
Three
Aragorn
woke up groggier than usual. He opened bleary eyes and looked around him. It
took a few seconds for him to recognize that he was in his own bed, in his own
room, which he felt sure was in his own home. It was hard to be positive,
though. His mind was acting like a thick fog was swirling through it.
The ranger
sat up, a move that took a great deal of effort. He quickly lowered his head
into both of his hands. He hadn’t felt this out of it since he had overindulged
with some questionable wine that time he and Legolas were...
At the
thought of the Mirkwood prince, Aragorn cried out, “Legolas!” All the memories
of what had happened to his friend came crashing in and almost swamped the
tenuous grasp on the senses that he clung to. He wanted to believe that it had
all been a horrible nightmare, but he knew it was all too real.
It took him
mere seconds to get to his feet and slide into a pair of soft slippers that sat
just under the edge of his bed. He grabbed a long, cream-colored robe from the
back of a chair near the door. While doing so, he took note that the sun was
just now rising, as it peeked over the far garden wall. He was dismayed to
realize that he had slept the entire night, not to mention the better part of
yesterday afternoon. He sprinted down the corridor to Legolas's room, managing
to get into his robe as he ran.
Aragorn
burst into the room and rushed over to the bed. Legolas was lying as still and
quiet as the ranger had left him. He closed his eyes and shook his head. He was
so hoping that he would be greeted by an alert, smiling elven prince, who would
chide him for sleeping so long. The ranger dropped down dejectedly onto the bed
in the same spot he had occupied earlier.
It was only
after satisfying himself that the archer was still breathing and had no fever
that he allowed his own breathing to slow to a normal rhythm.
Looking up,
he noticed that the two brocade-covered chairs by the bed were empty. “Empty?”
Aragorn exploded. Distraught and shaking, he said aloud, “They promised they
wouldn’t leave him!”
“Nor did
we,” came a very familiar voice from across the room.
Aragorn
spun his head around and found himself staring into the face of Elladan,
standing in the balcony doorway. The dark-haired elf had his arms folded over
his chest. Aragorn saw his brother’s stern expression.
“We do not
break promises, Estel,” Elrohir said from behind him, speaking a bit more
harshly than he intended. He walked around the bed and sat down in one of the
plush chairs, placing a large leather-bound book in his lap.
It was
immediately obvious to Aragorn that, considering the direction Elrohir had just
come from, he had been getting the book from the set of shelves behind the door
and hadn‘t been seen when the ranger burst in. “I’m sorry,” Aragorn said
contritely. “I didn’t mean to accuse either of you. I’ve evidently been
sleeping rather hard for hours, and I‘m a bit groggy and...” He paused, then
admitted, “No excuses. Forgive me.”
After
exchanging glances with his twin, Elladan said, “You are forgiven.”
“We never
could stay upset with you for very long, Estel. You know that,” Elrohir
commented. He had a small smile on his face.
Elladan
said, “And by the way, Estel, you have been asleep for almost two days.” He
grimaced, preparing for the inevitable explosion.
“Two
days!” Aragorn wailed. “Are you telling me that I went to sleep the day
before yesterday?” When a nod from Elladan confirmed it, Aragorn’s eyes
narrowed in anger.
“You were
almost out on your feet, when you arrived. You obviously needed it, or you
would not have slept that long.” Elladan said logically in a calm voice.
“I told
you...”
“You told
us to come get you, if there was any change,” Elladan interrupted in the same
calm tone. “There has not been.” The elf walked over and stood beside his
younger twin, resting one hand on the high back of the chair Elrohir sat in. He
looked down at Legolas. “Sadly, there has been no change at all in his
condition. He is still the same.”
“Ada has
been here several times to check on him,” Elrohir added. “And, when he has not
been here, he has been holed up in his study, searching through his books of
healing.”
“But, he’s
found nothing to help Legolas, has he?” Aragorn asked dejectedly, already
knowing the answer. He almost said he could have told them that would probably
be the case. He was now convinced more than ever that some kind of evil had
befallen the elven prince. But what and from where, he had no clue. And, if he
was right, he also had no clue as to whether Legolas was the intended victim or
was just in the wrong place at the wrong time and ended up paying the price for
it.
Aragorn
looked at his twin brothers. It was then he noticed that Legolas's unstrung bow
was propped up in the corner of the room next to the bookshelves. He looked
around the room and spotted the archer’s quiver of arrows and his twin long
knives lying on a table next to the wardrobe.
Elladan
realized what Aragorn was looking at, so he explained. “One of the stable boys
removed them from Legolas's horse after the two of you came home, and he gave
them to Glorfindel, who brought them up here. Yours are in your room.”
Aragorn
nodded. He had to admit he hadn’t given any of the weapons a thought since
arriving, although he did seem to remember Elrond taking the ranger’s sword
belt off of him just before he collapsed into bed.
“Have you
eaten?” Elrohir asked, sure that his human brother had come straight in here
from waking. He had no idea how long before Estel had arrived that he had
eaten. It was most likely days.
Aragorn
shook his head. Emotionally, he didn‘t care to eat anything, but his body was
telling him quite the opposite. He felt sure that if he even attempted to say
he wanted nothing, both of his brothers would hold him down and force him to
eat. “Just something light. Fruit, maybe, and honey tea. And cheese. And some
bread and maybe a few sausages.” He looked toward Legolas. “And a piece of
Lembas.”
Elrohir
looked at his foster brother; the solemn atmosphere that permeated the room and
the reason for it being the only things keeping him from laughing out loud. He
couldn‘t, however, keep a bit of humor out of his voice. “Just something light
he says.”
“I
noticed,” Elladan agreed.
Coming to
an unspoken agreement, both twins quietly left the room, making not a sound, as
was the way with the Firstborn. The ranger’s attention had gone back to the
unconscious elf in the bed, so they were sure Estel hadn’t even taken notice of
their departure.
Aragorn sat
alone with Legolas, whose seemingly lifeless body tore at the ranger’s heart.
“Please, open your eyes, mellon nin. Please.” He squeezed the elf’s hand. “We
need you back with us. I need you back.”
*This was
all my fault. If only I had...*
Aragorn
shook his head, banishing that silent thought. It would do no good to dwell on
his guilt now. It wouldn’t help Legolas in the slightest, and at this point in
time, that was his all-consuming concern. “I’ll make it up to you, Legolas. I
promise. Even if it takes me the rest of my life.”
After
Aragorn finished the breakfast that Elrohir had brought to him, he looked down
at his elven friend. “It's time for me to take care of you.” *That’s all I can
do for you right now.*
He set the
food tray on the table near the bed. Elrohir had brought him everything he had
requested, and Estel’s starving body had not let him stop until he had eaten
every bit of it. Only the Lembas was left. He had plans for that.
Aragorn
broke off a small piece of the elvish waybread and set it down into a small
bowl. Then, he picked up the cup he had left some of the tea in, and he
carefully poured it on top of the Lembas in the bowl. He set it aside to let
the waybread soak.
In the
meantime, he went to Legolas's dresser and got out a clean nightshirt and took
it into the washroom. He gathered two large towels, soap and a wash cloth and
put them on the stand beside the polished wooden tub.
When that
was done, he went back into the bedroom. Pulling the covers back, he lifted
Legolas into a sitting position and slid in behind him, pulling the elf back
against his chest. He picked up the bowl and, stretching his arms out in front
of the elf, took a spoon and began mashing the waybread up with the tea until
it became the consistency of a slightly thick broth.
Aragorn
took a deep breath. “This isn’t going to be easy for either of us, my friend,
but you have to get nourishment into you somehow.” The ranger took the spoon,
got a little of the mixture into it, and, holding Legolas's head back, he
opened his mouth and poured the mixture from the spoon into it. He began to
massage the elf’s throat to try and bring about a reflexive swallowing motion.
Nothing
happened at first, but then the elf began to swallow. He had a small coughing
fit at first, until with subsequent tries, Aragorn lessened the amount of the
mixture he put in the spoon.
When
Elrohir came to get the food tray, he was very pleased to see what Estel was
doing. Then, the ranger explained about the bath, so the elf personally hauled
buckets of steaming water into the washroom and filled the tub, confident the
water would cool down enough before Aragorn needed it.
Elrohir
volunteered to help, but Estel said he would handle everything by himself. The
elf didn’t argue with him, knowing it was something that Estel felt he needed
to do. Elrohir left the room.
It took a
while, but eventually Aragorn got all the Lembas and tea into Legolas. He
followed that up with a small amount of plain water from a nearby pitcher.
Aragorn
sighed deeply with satisfaction. He knew the accomplishment was a big victory,
because now he knew the archer would not starve.
During the
remainder of the morning, Aragorn bathed Legolas, changed his nightshirt,
washed, dried and brushed his hair and put him back into a bed that had been
fitted with fresh, clean bed linen while the bath bad been in progress.
Aragorn
once again sat down by his friend’s side. And, as he sat, he looked out through
the balcony doors. The sun was shining brightly, bathing everything in its
golden glow. He could hear the birds chirping merrily outside in the trees, as
the branches swayed gently in the warm spring breeze.
With
another deep sigh, the ranger thought to himself that Legolas shouldn’t be in
here confined to this bed. He should be out in the sunshine and the open air.
That’s where the woodland elf belonged.
It was then
that Aragorn hit upon an idea.
He got up,
and with a bit of effort, moved both chairs out onto the balcony, each half
facing the other. Then, he went and picked Legolas up and set him in the chair
that would allow him to fully face the sun. He put the feather pillow behind
the elf's shoulders and titled his head back so it turned up to the sun.
Aragorn draped a light blanket over his friend's bare legs and feet and rested
his hands in his lap.
Aragorn sat
down heavily in the other chair, letting his arms hang down beside the arms of
the chair. Being a mortal, he couldn't converse with the trees, but he
fervently hoped they would hear his plea. "Please, send your strength to
Legolas. Renew his spirit, so he can come back to us---and to you."
A single
tear made its way down his cheek.
Chapter Four
It had been
back on the fourth day after Estel’s and Legolas's return that Elrond had
mentioned contacting King Thranduil and telling him of Legolas's condition.
Aragorn, despite understanding the right the elf king had to know about his
son, had argued vehemently against it. He had insisted that Thranduil would
either come himself or send one of his other sons to get Legolas and take him
back to Mirkwood. There were no healers in the woodland realm, who had anywhere
near the healing ability that Elrond possessed. Aragorn had argued all this,
despite the fact the elf lord hadn’t as yet been able to do anything for the
prince. The ranger had gotten so upset that Elrond had relented---for the time
being, at least.
He and the
woodland king were already less than friendly. They had clashed more than a few
times in the past. So, having to face Thranduil’s fury, when he finally did
learn of all this, would hardly be a new experience. Still, it was not
something Elrond was looking forward to. As always, however, he could well hold
his own.
~*~*~
Aragorn's
life became strictly regimented, something of his own devising. Every morning,
he got up and went immediately to Legolas's room, relieving whomever it was
that had stayed the night. It was usually one of the twins, but Elrond also
stayed occasionally, as did Glorfindel.
The ranger
would feed Legolas, bathe him, wash and brush his hair, and change his
nightshirt. He would then lay the elf out straight on top of the bed and
carefully massage his muscles back and front to keep them firm. It didn't
replace normal activity, but it would help keep them from wasting away---for a
time anyway. Next Aragorn would put the elven prince into the chair out on the
balcony in the sun. It was only then that he would eat his own breakfast.
The ranger
would sit in the other chair and talk to Legolas, as if the elf was capable of
listening, which was something Aragorn had wondered about. In fact, he had even
asked Erond if it was possible that deep down Legolas could hear and understand
everything that was done and said around him. Elrond didn't know, but told his
son it couldn't hurt to talk to Legolas, in hopes something he said or the
sound of his voice might get through to him.
These same
tasks were performed day after day, one following the next with no deviation
until they became like a ritual. There was no light or dark in the ranger’s
life as it existed now, only a dull shade of gray. He sometimes despaired, and
he sometimes cried, but in his heart, he never gave up hope. And, he never
resented what he did for the elf. Legolas was his best friend in the entire
world, and his heart was too full of love, loyalty---and guilt---to ever allow
that to happen.
Legolas,
however, remained unresponsive, and Aragorn remained determined to bring his
friend back from wherever his spirit had fled to. For that is exactly what the
ranger came to believe. There was no evidence of a physical reason for the
elf’s continued unconsciousness, so Aragorn became more convinced, as the days
advanced and he had much time to think on it, that some truly horrible evil had
befallen the elven prince. He could see no other reason for his courageous and
stubborn friend’s spirit to retreat. Whatever had caused this had somehow
driven the elf to seek sanctuary deep inside his own mind. Or perhaps, it was
forced into retreat against the elf‘s will. All of this sounded logical to the
human, but he still had no way to reach Legolas except through what he was
already doing, hoping against hope, something would eventually work.
~*~*~
On the
morning of the ninth day, Elrond had gone out on the balcony and pulled Aragorn
back into the room and steered him over to the far side of the bed. He quietly
insisted that Thranduil had to be notified. This time the Lord of Rivendell
refused to give in to Estel's protests. The elven king would be told what had
befallen his son and that was that.
After
Elrond left the room, Aragorn began to panic. He knew the king would take
Legolas away to Mirkwood, and he might possibly never see his best friend
again, especially since he was sure Thranduil would blame him for everything.
*Even though it is my fault.* He had steadfastly refused to discuss his
deep sense of guilt with his father or his brothers. Even Glorfindel, who had
always been a confidante and mentor to the young human, couldn't get him to
speak of it.
All of this
turmoil was taking a toll on Estel. Everyone saw it, though no one outside of
the family, Glorfindel, and several of the servants ever laid eyes on Aragorn
during this time. If the people of Rivendell hadn’t known about Legolas's
condition, a fact that had spread quite quickly, they would have assumed the
two friends had left again. When the human son of Elrond and the Mirkwood
prince were together in Rivendell, everyone knew it, especially if the twins
were with them.
The ranger
had been steadfastly holding himself together through all of this. Now, with
Elrond's decision to contact King Thranduil, it was almost too much for the
young human to bear.
The day
after Elrond had said he was notifying the King of Mirkwood, Aragorn was
sitting glumly on the balcony with Legolas, as usual. He looked around and his
eye was caught by the delicate blue flowers that grew in the large wooden
flower box that sat at one end of the balcony. The flower resembled a day lily,
only smaller. It had a strong fragrance and was Legolas's favorite. These
flowers bloomed for only a short while in Spring. Wanting to be close to them
while they were in their glory was why Legolas had them near his room. He had
planted them himself, tended them lovingly, and they always bloomed hardily for
him.
Aragorn
picked one. Then he went over and knelt down beside Legolas. He held the flower
up under the elf's nose, waving it slowly back and forth, hoping that the rich
fragrance would somehow penetrate his subconscious. Estel knew it was probably
a futile gesture, but he had long ago vowed that he would continue to do
whatever he could think of to try and rouse the unconscious elf.
After a few
minutes, Aragorn sighed. It wasn't working, as he had really believed it
wouldn't. With a sad smile, he put Legolas's hands together, palms up one on
top of the other, and gently laid the flower there. He shook his head to think
that if Legolas were awake, such would be the power of the elf’s love for
Nature, that he would be totally delighted and yet awed by the simple beauty of
this one single flower.
He could
almost hear Legolas's laughter floating on the wind.
It was
suddenly more than the ranger could bear. Right then, he couldn't bear to see
the elf's fair face upturned to the sunlight, when he wasn’t even aware of it,
his loose hair cascading over his shoulders and down his chest. He couldn’t
bear to see his friend’s eyes closed, hiding the light that should be shining
there. He couldn't bear....
Aragorn
stood up, emitting a strangled cry, and ran into the room, intending to keep
going. But, he couldn't abandon his friend, even as grief overtook him. So, he
stopped at the door, leaned his head against it and sobbed, tears overflowing
and shoulders shaking with the emotional outburst.
So it was
that he didn't see the forefinger on Legolas's right hand jerk. Nor did he hear
the soft moan that accompanied the movement. What he did hear was a
blood-curling scream.
Aragorn
whirled around and ran back to the balcony. When he reached the open doorway,
he stopped dead in his tracks. What he saw horrified him. Legolas, eyes still
closed and head still tilted back, was clawing at his open mouth with fingers
that were now covered in blood.
Chapter
Five
Aragorn
stood transfixed and wide-eyed by the horror of what the found himself staring
at. His mind was screaming at him to move, but he couldn’t get past the
horrendous scene before him in order to give his body the command to do so.
He quickly
snapped out of his lethargy, rushed to his friend and fell to his knees beside
the chair. He grabbed both of Legolas's wrists and pulled his hands away from
his bloody mouth.
The elf
fought the move, pulling hard against Estel’s grip to try and get his hands
back to his mouth. He jerked his head from side to side, sending blood flying
in all directions. He was trying desperately to break free from whatever was
holding him. Whether it was Estel’s hold on his wrists or something within the
elf’s mind, the ranger couldn’t tell. Legolas showed surprising strength,
considering the long time he had been inactive. All that messaging had worked,
Aragorn thought grimly.
“Daro!”
Legolas screamed with heartrending terror in his voice. “Daro! Car al car
nad sen!” <Stop. Stop. Do not do this thing.>
“It‘s all
right, Legolas, It’s me, Estel. Calm yourself. Please, don’t fight me,” the
ranger pleaded, trying to speak gently yet firmly. He knew he needed to get
through to the obviously frightened elf. Yet, he certainly wanted to avoid
upsetting him further, though it was hard to think the archer could get any
more upset than he was already.
Aragorn was
taken by surprise, when he was almost hit by an elven hand that suddenly shot
out toward his face. He managed to stop the blow an inch short of his nose. The
elf’s legs began to kick, but Aragorn was well out of the way of those
potential weapons.
“ADA!,”
Aragorn yelled, hoping desperately that if Elrond didn’t hear him, someone else
would. He couldn’t handle Legolas like this on his own, not as long as his
friend continued to fight him. He couldn‘t let go of his wrists to do anything
else for him, as the elf‘s body started writhing in his effort to get free.
A gurgling
sound caused Aragorn’s heart to lurch as Legolas, with his back arched and his
head now all the way back, was beginning to choke, as blood ran down the back
of his throat. The human let go of one wrist to try and grab the elf’s head and
pull it forward, but Legolas immediately jerked forward himself and put his
free hand, fingers curled into a claw, in his mouth and began raking his
fingernails back and forth. More blood spilled out and ran down his chin. It
then continued down his neck and began to spread, as it encountered the edge of
his lavender silk nightshirt. He then jerked his head forcefully back against
the pillow. Aragorn had no choice but to grab Legolas's hand again and pull it
away from his mouth.
“ADA!”
Estel yelled out frantically once again.
A few
seconds later, Elrond, who had heard Legolas scream, came rushing in and moved
around to the far side of the chair. “By the Valar!” the elf Lord exclaimed. He
quickly put his hand behind the younger elf’s neck and pulled him forward,
tilting his head down slightly. With his free hand he pulled the blood-stained
pillow from behind the archer and pressed the elf against the back of the
chair. He tossed the pillow in the general direction of the other chair, not
caring where it landed.
With more
surprising strength, Legolas once again threw his head back, pulling it out of
the grip Elrond had on his neck. A violent coughing spell erupted. Blood
sprayed outward, hitting both Elrond and Aragorn in the face and splattering
their clothes. A spray of crimson fell once more upon the archer’s blond hair,
on his nightshirt and on the blanket that had become wadded up in his lap.
“He’s
choking on his own blood,” Aragorn said, his voice still holding a tinge of
horror.
Just then
both Elladan and Elrohir came running into the room and onto the balcony. They,
too, were shocked by what they were witnessing, staring in mute horror. They
unconsciously grabbed and held each other’s hands.
Elrond, who
was facing them, said, “Elladan, stand behind the chair and put your hands on
each side of Legolas's head and hold it steady. Keep it tilted forward.” He
wanted to make sure no more blood would go down the elf prince’s throat.
“Elrohir,
get me two towels and a basin of water.” When there was no sign the elf had
heard his father speak to him, Elrond called his name more urgently. “Elrohir.”
Elrohir
snapped out of his trance. “Sorry, Ada.“ He sprang into action and ran into the
washroom. When he returned, he handed a fluffy towel toward his father, leaving
one draped over his arm. He held onto the basin, waiting until he was asked for
it. He stood motionless and watched what was unfolding before him. There were
tears in his eyes to think of the fear and pain Legolas must be going through.
Once
Legolas's head was secure in Elladan’s grip, the elf Lord took the towel
Elrohir offered and put one small part of it in Legolas's mouth to soak up the
excess blood. He exerted a small amount of pressure to staunch as much of the
blood flow as he could. He repeated the process over and over, each time using
a clean part of the towel, until there was no signs of fresh bleeding. Most of
the white towel he held was splotched with red. He handed it to Elrohir.
Legolas had
quit struggling, however, his body was jerking with uncontrolled spasms,
accompanied by low moans. At least, he was able to breathe, Aragorn thought,
trying to find something positive in this horrible situation.
As Legolas
calmed further, Aragorn and the elves began to relax slightly, though they
remained alert to a possible repeat of what had just occurred. The ranger
cautiously let go of Legolas's wrists. Small tremors still ran through the
elf’s body.
Elladan
continued to hold Legolas's head, as Aragorn took the water basin from
Elrohir’s hands. He then took the other towel, dipped it into the water and
began to clean the elf’s face, neck and hands. He also wiped as much blood as
he could from his hair.
Elrond
frowned. He had seen many a bizarre behavior in his long years, but never had
he seen anything quite like this. “What happened, Estel?”
Feeling
shame, the ranger didn’t want to admit his temporary abandonment of his friend
simply because he couldn‘t control hjs own emotions. Unable to look his father
in the eye, he kept his head down, as he began to clean the blood from under
Legolas's fingernails. “I was in the room, when I heard him scream. I ran back
out here and found him clawing in his mouth. He looked like he was trying to
dig something out of it. It was so sudden and violent. I can’t imagine what
caused him to do something like that.”
Just before
Legolas went completely limp, he uttered one word. A word that only Elrond
fully heard and comprehended. “Lhûg.” <Serpent>
Elrond ,
already on his knees, fell backward onto his heels. There was a sharp intake of
breath from the elven Lord. The look of utter disbelief on his face was
disturbing to all who saw it. No one saw anything happening right at that
moment that could cause such a reaction from the normally composed elf Lord.
“Ada, what
is wrong?” Elrohir asked, concern clearly showing on his face. He made a move
to go to his father, thinking he must have suddenly been afflicted in some way.
Elrond held
his hand up and gave a small wave to indicate he was all right. His expression,
however, didn’t chance. The elf Lord shook his head. “It cannot be. I missed
it.” Elrond looked stunned. He lowered his head. “I never thought to look
there.”
When he
raised his head again, he saw three pairs of eyes starting at him. His sons
couldn’t imagine what he was talking about or why he now looked totally
distraught. No one spoke.
With a
concerted effort, Elrond pushed aside what he had just experienced and, to all
outward appearances, returned to the efficient, in-control elf Lord they all
knew. He gave no explanation.
Elrond got
back up onto his knees. He opened Legolas's mouth, and using gentle hands,
began to inspect it. It was assumed that he was checking to see what damage
Legolas had done to himself. In truth, he was checking for something far
different. He could find nothing other than the slashes and gouges that
Legolas's fingernails had inflicted. “Destroyed,” Elrond whispered almost under
his breath.
Even
without elven hearing, Estel heard the word clearly. “What’s destroyed?“ His
eyes suddenly went wide. “Do you mean he’s destroyed his mouth?” He knew that
was extremely unlikely, and the question sounded ridiculous, but it was the
first thing that came to mind, so he had blurted it out.
“No. His
mouth is damaged quite badly, but it is not beyond repair. I was speaking of
something else.” For a second, Elrond’s mind seemed to move far away. With a
jerk, he shook off the dark thoughts that had taken momentary hold of him. “It
does not need to be spoken of just yet. Right now, we must get Legolas back
into bed.” The tone of the elf Lord’s voice gave no room for argument.
Aragorn
pulled the blanket from the elf’s lap and handed it to Elladan, who released
his hold on Legolas's head. He carried his friend back into the room and set
him on the bed, holding him upright as he told Elrohir to get a clean
nightshirt. Once that was changed, Legolas was put under the covers.
It was only
then that Glorfindel’s presence was discovered. Like the others, he had come
running in when he heard the scream and ascertained where it had come from.
Upon his arrival, he had seen that the three elves and the human had the
situation in hand, so he kept back out of the way.
His
presence was acknowledged but no one spoke at first. Then, Elladan said, “You
saw what happened?” At Glorfindel’s nod, the younger elf said, “Do you know
what may have caused this?”
Before
answering, Glorfindel caught the warning look in Elrond’s eye. Since, in truth,
he had no answers, he simply shook his head sadly. He would definitely have to
have a talk with Elrond, because the Lord of Imladrs knew something he didn’t
want discussed, at least not in front of his sons. The older blond elf was
determined to find out what it was.
Elladan
remained out on the balcony as he held the blanket up to fold it rather than
leave it a wadded up mess, when he noticed something fall out of it onto the
balcony floor. He bent down and picked the object up. He found himself staring
at one of the blue flowers from Legolas flower box. The little flower was
splattered with blood. Knowing how Legolas felt about this particular flower,
he couldn’t bear to just crush it up, so he set it gently on top of the balcony
railing.
Elladan
laid the folded blanket on the chair and turned away and so didn’t notice that
the wind picked the little flower up and sent it flying toward the garden
below. It landed on a patch of new Spring grass. No one was a witness, as its
petals waved gently in the air current.
In the room,
Elrond was telling Estel to go in the washroom and clean himself up. When the
young man returned, he handed his father a damp towel and watched as Elrond
wiped his own face and hands. He looked down at his now blood-stained blue
robe. The robe itself didn’t matter. It was the reason behind the robe’s
condition that saddened his heart.
The elf
Lord began to address everyone, who were now standing around the elf prince‘s
bed. “Someone must stay right at Legolas's side at all times. Therefore, two of
us will always have to be with him, so if one needs to leave or take a break,
Legolas will not be alone. We cannot take the chance that this may happen
again, when someone’s back is turned.”
Aragorn’s
shoulders slumped, as he hung his head. Elrond put a hand on his son’s arm. “No
one is blaming you, Estel. You have done more for him than any of us. Do not
take yourself to task. It could have happened to anyone who was here.”
Aragorn
felt only marginally better by what his father said. His head knew the words
were true, but would he ever be able to convince his heart?
~*~*~
Many miles
away from Rivendell, a tall figure dressed all in black stood in a dark forest
and stared toward the north. Mordraug couldn’t see the woodland realm he looked
toward, but he knew all too well exactly where it lay.
An orc,
somewhat large for his kind, approached. “Will he come, Master?”
“Oh yes,
Grug. I have seen to that,” the tall figure replied, very pleased with himself.
An arrogant smile appeared on Mordraug’s face, as he stroked the head of the
slender black snake that was wrapped around his left arm. “He will come.”
Chapter
Six
Legolas
remained still and quiet, since being settled back into bed after his
terrifying outburst. He was again as unresponsive as he had been all the previous
days, since he and Aragorn had returned.
Elrond had
prepared a bowl of hot water containing athelas leaves, and now that the leaves
had steeped a sufficient length of time, he dipped a cloth into the bowl and
wrung out the excess liquid. He sat on the bed and leaned over Legolas, as he
applied the cloth to the inside of the younger elf’s mouth. Only a small amount
of still oozing blood came away on the cloth.
By the time
the mixture in the bowl had cooled completely, the elf Lord was satisfied that
he had made enough medicinal applications. He sat up straight and handed the
bowl and the cloth to Elladan. He took a deep breath and let it out slowly.
“That should be quite adequate for now.” He looked at his eldest son. “Every
couple of hours repeat what I have just done.” Elrond stood up. “We can only
hope that Legolas's natural healing ability has not been damaged by whatever
has happened to him. However, it may well have been. That is why I want several
applications of the athelas to keep the healing process continuing.”
Elladan
nodded. “I will do it, Ada.” He took the bowl and the cloth and set them on the
stand next to the bed. He would take them away when it was time to replace them
for another treatment. Right now, he wanted to hear what his father might say.
Elrond
looked toward Glorfindel. He almost wished he hadn’t. The fair haired elf was
looking at him with a stern expression, and he knew there was no way he could
avoid the discussion he felt sure was coming. He didn’t mind actually. It would
be good to talk to someone about what he suspected, though Glorfindel would not
be the least bit happy with what he would have to say. No one would, when all
the details finally became known. However, the time was not yet right for that
bit of news.
Elrond left
the room without another word. Glorfindel was right on his heels. Just as
Elrond closed the door, he saw that Estel had sat back down on the bed and
taken Legolas's hand in his. It had become a common sight. Having physical
contact with his friend seemed to lessen his son’s burden, at least in part. He
knew, however, that having Legolas wake up was the only thing that would truly
bring joy to Estel’s heart. And, he had to hope that Legolas would somehow know
that Estel was there with him.
Glorfindel
followed Elrond down the hall and into his private study. An assortment of
books of all sizes and colors, the majority of which were leather-bound, lay
all around the room, stacked on table tops and on chairs. The long sofa that
was set against the wall on the right side of the room and on which Elrond
sometimes slept was covered with the tomes. The large wooden desk that
dominated the far end of the study was piled high with them, some opened and
some closed.
Only when
Elrond was determinedly searching for answers to puzzling mysteries did the
room look this disheveled. It was usually extremely neat and tidy, though the
desk itself was never without an abundance of papers spread out upon it. So
many books were scattered around that there were large gaps in the many rows of
books that lined each wall floor to ceiling.
As Elrond
sat down behind the desk, Glorfindel moved a pile of books on the seat of one
of the chairs that helped to furnish the room and set this stack on top of
another on the corner of the desk. He pulled the chair up so that when he sat
down, he’d be looking directly across at his friend, whom he now stared
intently straight at. “You know what has happened to Legolas, do you not?”
Glorfindel tried to keep his tone neutral. He didn‘t want to sound accusatory.
Elrond sat
with his elbows on the desktop, lacing his fingers together. He put them
against his forehead, as he bent his head forward, and then he sighed. He
placed one thumb on each temple and began to move them slowly in a circle,
trying to message away the pain that was beginning to make itself felt there.
He decided
there was no point in stalling. After another moment of messaging his temples,
he looked up, placing his hands on a scroll, yellowed with age, that was rolled
up and sitting in front of him. “I have no proof, but yes, I believe I know
what has happened to Legolas.”
Glorfindel
eyed the scroll and waited, but when Elrond said nothing further, he asked,
“What is it?”
The elf
Lord directed a look toward his friend that Glorfindel swore bordered on fear.
“Mordraug.”
Glorfindel’s
eyes went wide, and he couldn’t stifle the gasp that escaped his lips. He
averted his eyes, when he saw the fearful expression on his friend’s face
intensify. It was quite clear that Elrond dreaded even having to say the name.
He couldn’t blame him. Staring at his own hands, Glorfindel shook his head and
said, “It cannot be. He was destroyed almost a thousand years ago.”
“That is
what we were led to believe. Now, I am not so sure. You did not hear what
Legolas said just before he went completely limp again.”
No,
Glorfindel had to admit, he hadn’t heard Legolas say anything at all. “What did
he say?”
“One
word---lhûg.”
For the
second time in a few short minutes, the blond elf’s eyes went wide. “No,” he
whispered, despite now knowing Elrond was probably right about the reason for
Legolas's condition. “Not again.” He looked up. After the shock wore off a
little, he asked a question that only appeared to change the subject. “When
will Thranduil arrive?”
“In four
days, if I know him. As you know, I notified him yesterday. It is a long
journey, but he will surely push himself and those with him very hard where his
son is concerned. Despite all his faults, he loves his children, as much as I
love mine.” *If only he was easier to deal with in every other aspect of his
life,* Elrond mused.
“I am glad
it is you and not me that has to give him this news,” Glorfindel said, feeling
only slightly guilty at the cowardly admission. Being Elrond’s friend had put
the elf on the Mirkwood King’s enemy list. No one sided with people Thranduil
didn’t like and stayed his friend. But this time, instead of butting heads,
which he was fully prepared to do should the need arise, Glorfindel would do
all in his power to help the woodland King, if only Thranduil’s pride didn’t
cause him to refuse that help. He knew Elrond felt the same.
Glorfindel
suddenly realized what Elrond meant, when he had looked in Legolas's mouth and
said the word, “Destroyed” and why his inspection seemed so much more intense
than the situation warranted. “You were looking for evidence to back up your
suspicion, but there was too much damage to confirm it.” It was a flat
statement and not a question.
The Lord of
Imladris nodded. “It just never occurred to me to look there. If I had...” He
understood the feeling of guilt that Estel was experiencing, though he still
didn’t know what his son believed he had done wrong.
“You had no
reason to consider looking in his mouth.” Glorfindel said, as he tried to
defend Elrond’s actions and ease his friend’s conscience.
Elrond
suddenly felt very weary and very old. “I should have considered it,” he
whispered so softly that Glorfindel barely caught it.
“Elrond,
all the others died within days, some within hours. They did not linger the way
Legolas has. You had no reason to connect what happened then with what is
happening now.”
“Perhaps.”
Elrond’s remark still held a note of guilt, because he still wasn’t ready to
absolve himself entirely from the fact that the answer had been within his
grasp, if only he had gone back into his memories. They were memories that he
had forcefully buried long ago. It mattered not to him that what Glorfindel
said was reasonable, and Elrond could not have logically made the connection.
Still....
In a normal
tone, Elrond said, “These next weeks are going to be extremely hard for all of
us, especially Legolas and Thranduil.”
“Can
Legolas be saved?” It was a blunt question. The answer, be it one way or
another, needed to be faced.
Elrond
shrugged. “You know Mordraug and what he is capable of, as well as I do,” was
his only reply. He was going to let Glorfindel come to his own conclusions,
because he had did not want to think of Legolas's possible fate, though he truly
feared for the woodland elf. The young prince had hung on far longer than any
other of Mordraug’s victims. But, whether that was due to the elf’s stubborn
determination to survive or whether it was by Mordraug’s design, he knew not.
Elrond
stared at all the books that lay around the room, knowing full well that all
the research he had been doing in them night and day had been a complete waste
of time. Only the scroll meant anything now, and it held no secrets, no answers
that weren’t already known. *How can we go through this again?* If the elf Lord
had been given to tears, now would have been the time to shed them---for
Legolas, for Thranduil, for them all.
A deep
silence descended between the two friends, each lost in his own thoughts and
memories of a horror from the past that was coming back to haunt them.
~*~*~*
Aragorn and
the twins had been too unnerved by what had happed to Legolas out on the
balcony to question what Elrond’s words had meant. For his part, the elf Lord
hadn’t expanded on those cryptic words, because he knew it would all be laid
bare soon enough. Aragorn had even forgotten that King Thranduil was on his way
and would soon be arriving in Rivendell.
Aragorn now
refused to leave Legolas's side even to sleep in his own room. It didn’t matter
that the twins agreed, once again, to stay with the Mirkwood elf. More than
once, the ranger had fallen asleep sitting on the bed, Legolas's hand encircled
within his.
Elladan and
Elrohir brought their brother food, which he hardly ate, despite their urgings
and threats. They finally gave up arguing but continued to bring trays to the
room, hoping that with each one, Estel would change his mind. The trays always
went back barely touched.
Legolas's
mouth had swollen somewhat, even with the athelas applications that Elladan
administered, so Aragorn was afraid to try and feed him. He did continue to
bathe his friend, wash his hair and change his nightshirt. Yet, even with the
beckoning sunshine and warm Spring breezes, he couldn’t bring himself to put Legolas
back out on the balcony.
Finally on
the third day after the incident, Legolas began to stir. It started with soft
moans, and then the elf started to shift his body, the way most waking beings
do. It was only small movements at first, but then he became louder and more
active.
Aragorn,
who had been dozing, woke up immediately. He looked intently at Legolas and
then up at Elladan, who was the one with him this day. The expression of joy on
Estel’s face went far beyond a mere smile, and pure happiness shone in his
eyes. “He’s coming back to us.”
So long had
they waited for just such signs that Legolas's was waking up, and so long had
it been since a smile had graced his human brother’s face, that Elladan
couldn’t contain a broad smile of his own. He didn’t even try, because his own
heart was overflowing with happiness.
Elrohir,
who had chosen just that moment to come into the room with a lunch tray, was
sent off to get Elrond, as Aragorn and Elladan practically held their breaths.
Aragorn
moved closer to Legolas and began to call to him softly. “Mellon nin, you must
open your eyes. Come to the light, Legolas. Come to us. We’re here waiting for
you.” His eyes never left the elf’s face. Estel squeezed the elven hand
tighter, as he placed his other hand, palm open, against Legolas's chest over
his heart.
Chapter
Seven
Legolas
suddenly became aware of his own existence. He looked around him and saw only
darkness. He sensed no walls nor did he sense open air. He focused his hearing
but could detect no overt sounds. There was nothing but a deafening silence, so
palpable it was like a distant muffled roar in his ears. He had never
experienced such a phenomenon before, and he almost laughed to think that total
silence could be so loud.
Where was
he? He had to think hard to try and recall how he came to be here, wherever
‘here’ was. *Why do I not remember?* Legolas felt himself rapidly growing
frustrated.
He noted
with anticipation that the darkness was beginning to fade. But, instead of
revealing his whereabouts, his eyes were met with a world of swirling gray. He
shook his head, but he couldn’t feel it. Nor, he realized with dismay, could he
feel his body. He looked down, but saw nothing. He held his hands up in front
of his face, at least that was the command he had given to his brain. There was
no sense of movement and nothing to see. His mind seemed to be suspended in
space, yet there was no sensation of floating. *How very strange,* he mused.
As he
pondered the implications, a feeling of panic began to crawl through his mind.
*Am I dead?* He dismissed the thought almost immediately. *This cannot be the
Halls of Mandos. I should be seeing others of my kind waiting for me.* He
thought of his mother. Surely, she would be there to welcome him. And his
grandfather, Oropher, as well as friends he had lost to battles fought during
his lifetime. This was nothing like what he had been led to believe the Halls
would be like. Had he done something to cause himself to be condemned? Was that
what he couldn’t remember? Was this gray nothingness a place of punishment
where he must wander alone, without a body, for all eternity?
Legolas
made a conscious effort to banish those dark thoughts and try to come up with
an alternate possibility. *Perhaps, I’m not dead after all.* Before he could
gain much comfort from exploring that idea, he thought, *Then, why am I not
able to see or feel my body?*
All the
questions with no answers were only adding to his confusion. “I do not
understand any of this.” He was startled, when he realized he had spoken out
loud. A grim smile touched his lips, as it then dawned on him that at least he
could hear his own voice. He again looked down to where his body should be in
the hopes that it had made itself visible. No such luck.
He looked
up then and saw a form moving in this gray world. It was only a shadow at
first, just something indistinct that was only slightly darker than the gray
color all about him. The shadow undulated, disappearing from sight and then
reappearing a few seconds later only to vanish once again, making Legolas doubt
he had really seen anything at all. Staring hard into the grayness, he saw that
there definitely was something, and it was coming toward him. It became larger
and darker and took on a more definite shape as it neared. The elf stared,
mesmerized by the rapidly solidifying apparition.
Legolas may
not have been able to see his body, but he suddenly felt it quite plainly. His
heart almost came to a full stop, causing a jolt within his chest, and his
breathing became shallow and rapid, as he saw what was approaching him. The
form had finally coalesced into a huge black snake, rising up and hovering
menacingly above him, yellow eyes gleaming and fangs extended. It radiated an evil
that he could almost taste.
Without
warning, it lunged straight down toward his upturned face. He heard a blood
curdling scream and knew it was his own.
Then,
awareness fled, as he was enveloped in a coccoon of nothingness.
~*~*~
Legolas
became aware of his own existence once again. There was no way to tell if he
had been unaware for a minute or a millennium. He struggled to open his eyes,
expecting to see either the darkness or the gray world he remembered. He was
certain there had been something else, too, an evil form of some kind, but he
couldn’t place what it was. The memory vanished before he could grasp it. He
only knew that the thought of it made him shiver.
The elf Prince was surprised, when he found himself in a world of light. Very bright l