Title: The Wrong Path
Author: White Wolf
Genre:
Angst/Action/Adventure
Rating: PG-13
Timeline:
Pre-FOTR
Summary:
After
apparently taking a wrong turn in a mysterious forest, something happens to
Legolas. Aragorn doesn't know what's wrong or what to do, so he takes the elf
to his father in Rivendell, however Elrond has no answers either.
Disclaimer: Alas, I don't own
anything J.R.R. Tolkien created. I couldn't compete with him even if I was
silly enough to try. All I can do is borrow some of his creations and write my
own pale imitations. I'm certainly not making any money from this offering.
It's just entertainment (hopefully).
Chapter
One
Elrohir,
youngest elven son of Elrond, the Lord of Imladris, stood at the window of one
of the libraries in his family’s home. From this window, the elf could see the
courtyard. His mind was on nothing in particular, when he saw two horses on the
far horizon. He squinted, trying to make out who might be approaching
Rivendell. When the horses got a bit closer, his elven eyes made out the fact
that one horse was dark and the other was gray.
The elf
smiled. Estel and Legolas were finally returning and only four days late. That
had to be some kind of record. He continued to smile and watch as the horses
got closer still, moving at a fairly quick pace. He then noticed something that
wiped the smile from his face. It was replaced with a frown of concern. There was
only one rider. There was no one sitting on the horse that followed. Elrohir
was just about to turn away, when he realized that the gray horse carried two
riders, not one. He stood and stared a moment longer to confirm that fact.
Elrohir
quickly crossed the carpeted library and ran out into the hall, yelling for his
father. His heart was racing. Had he stopped to look, he would have seen his
hands shaking. His long black hair flew out behind him as he raced down the
corridor.
Elrond and
his eldest son, Elladan, were in the elf Lord’s private study, going over a new
book of healing that Elrond had just acquired from the Lady Galadriel of
Lothlorien. They were deep in research and discussion, when they heard the
shouting. They both looked at the door simultaneously and then at each other. A
look of foreboding passed between father and son. Elrohir’s shouts were
bordering on panic.
Elrohir was
running past the study door, still yelling, when Elrond and Elladan hurried out
into the corridor. “Elrohir,” Elrond called out in a stern tone. “What is all
the shouting about?” Were they under attack?
“Ada,
Elladan, they are back, but...” his previously excited voice trailed off into
silence. The look in his eyes made his father and twin brother cringe. It was
not the first time they had seen that look. They knew what it meant; something
was terribly wrong with either Estel or Legolas.
Elrond knew
he didn’t want to hear what his son might say, but, he had to hear it, so the
elven Lord squared his shoulders and asked, “Which one?” He knew Elrohir
understood perfectly well his meaning.
Sadness had
overtaken panic for the moment, and Elrohir’s breathing was a bit rapid. It was
then that he did notice his shaking hands. He put them down and pressed his
palms tightly against his thighs, but it didn’t help much.
“They are
both on Legolas's horse,” Elrohir said at last. It’s all he could manage to
say.
“Then, it
is Estel,” Elrond breathed. “Come. We must hurry. He will likely need immediate
attention.” He started off down the hall toward the courtyard, his blue silk
robes swishing, and his twin sons in his wake.
All three
elves were standing at the foot of the steps that led from the courtyard into
The Last Homely House. All three were staring toward the open gate and the
small section of road leading to it that was visible from where they stood.
Elven eyes
went wide in surprise, as the first horse came in to view. It was Legolas
sitting in front, not Estel. The human had his left arm securely around the
elf, whose head was hanging forward and swaying slightly with the motion of the
horse.
Elrond let
out a sigh of relief that his foster son was apparently not injured or ill.
However, his heart clenched to know that Legolas was clearly in dire need of
attention. *Just once, why could they not both return whole and healthy?* he
thought.
After
Aragorn pulled his horse to a stop, Elrond stepped forward. He shuddered to see
the limp body of the elf and the haggard look on his son‘s face. Aragorn looked
exhausted. “Let Elladan take Legolas,” Elrond instructed gently.
Aragorn
shook his head. He slid from the saddle and pulled Legolas down into his arms
and began to carry him up the steps. He said not a word nor was he in the kind
of rush that usually accompanied the two friends’ return from one of their
adventures. This fact alone did not bode well.
The three
elves left behind all looked at each other. “Estel?” Elrohir called after his
foster brother. Then, he looked at his father, “What has happened?” he asked,
though he knew Elrond didn’t know any more than he did. With a look of horror,
Elrohir suddenly started shaking his head rapidly. “No. No. Tell me Legolas is
not dead.” There was a stricken look on the younger twin’s face.
“I do not
think so. Estel looked grim but not grief-stricken,” Elladan said, trying to
convince himself as much as his brother. There had been no sign of tears.
Elladan only hoped he had analyzed the situation correctly. He spun on his heel
and began to run after his human brother.
When
Aragorn turned down the corridor to the left, Elladan, who had just caught up,
asked him, “Why are you going this way? The House of Healing is that way.” He
was pointing to the right.
With a flat
voice, Aragorn said, “He isn’t wounded.”
Chapter
Two
Aragorn
continued down the corridor with his best friend in his arms. He mounted two
more flights of stairs toward the family’s private wing of the house. His
father and brothers were keeping pace behind him. They each knew they would all
have to wait until Estel was ready to talk to them before they would get any
answers from him.
When
Aragorn reached the room Legolas always stayed in while in Rivendell, Elrohir
rushed ahead and pushed down on the gold handle of the large oak door, which
swung open on silent hinges. He then ran across the room to the glass doors
that led to the balcony on his right. He grasped the hunter green velvet
curtains and pulled them aside, flooding the room with bright sunlight.
The elf
then pushed on the balcony doors, opening them until they lay back against the
wall on either side. Legolas couldn’t stand being closed in even by curtains
and clear glass doors. He was only comfortable when he could not only see the
sky, but listen to the trees and feel the breezes as they blew into his room.
Thus, both curtains and doors were only closed when the elf prince was not in
residence.
There was a
light breeze blowing inward just now, and the room was soon filled with the
fresh scents of Spring.
Meanwhile,
Aragorn lay Legolas on top of the bedspread, whose leaf-pattern was the same
color as the curtains and the carpet. The room had been decorated with the leaf
pattern and dark green color especially for the woodland elf.
Aragorn
carefully made sure the elf’s legs were straight, and then with his hands
behind Legolas's head, he gently lowered it to the fluffy feather pillow that
rested at the base of the ornate wooden headboard.
Elrond
noted with trepidation that Legolas hadn't made even the slightest movement nor
did any sound escape his lips. He was totally limp and unresponsive. Elrond
moved up beside Aragorn and put his hand on the young man’s shoulder.
It was then
that Aragorn turned the saddest expression a human is capable of making toward
his father. With the shake of his head he repeated the words he had said to
Elladan just moments before. "He isn't wounded."
Elrond had
already noted in a quick visual inspection that there was no blood on the
archer. Nor was there any other mark that he could see without a thorough examination.
Aragorn was also a healer and would have checked Legolas before bringing him
home. He would know if a wound was present. Elrond trusted both his foster
son’s skills and his judgment.
Very
softly, he asked, "What ails him?"
"That's
just it, Ada. I don't know," Aragorn said helplessly. With that he turned
toward the bed and removed Legolas's belt. Then, he began to undo the elf’s
outer tunic. There was a gentleness in his movements, but at the same time, he
seemed to move almost too deliberately. It was painfully obvious that he was
working very hard to keep a tight rein on his emotions. One crack and they
would all come flooding out. He couldn't afford that indulgence right now. His
best friend needed him.
Elrohir
pulled Legolas's soft suede boots off and set them together on the floor at the
foot of the bed. Then, he stood silently and watched his two brothers undress
their friend.
Elladan had
crossed to the far side of the bed, with his back to the balcony and was
helping Aragorn pull Legolas into a sitting position. Together they removed his
tunic. Elladan had to put one hand under Legolas's chin and grip it firmly to
keep his head steady. They then pulled his leggings off, leaving him wearing
only his long silk shirt. Aragorn lifted the elf up while his oldest brother
pulled the bedding back. When Legolas was lowered back down, the covers were
pulled up to his chest. Aragorn pulled Legolas's arms from under the cover and
crossed them gently over the elf's stomach.
Aragorn
still held onto one of the archer's hands as he sat down on the side of the bed
and leaned forward. "I'm sorry, mellon nin. I'm so sorry." There was
both infinite sadness and a large measure of guilt in those words.
Elrond
picked up on the guilt he heard but decided that now was not the time to
discuss it. He would have to ask about that later. "Estel, let me look at
him. Perhaps, I can find what the trouble is."
Aragorn
didn't move or say a word at first. He just stared at Legolas's face. Then, he
slowly nodded his assent and stood up. He knew if anyone could help Legolas,
Elrond could, though he had the deep-seated feeling that even the power of the
elf Lord would do no good in this case. It had nothing to do with his father’s
abilities, it was.... He didn’t know what, and it was that lack of knowing that
scared him as much as anything else.
After half
an hour, Elrond had made a thorough examination of every inch of the elf’s
body. He even undid Legolas's braids and examined his entire scalp. Finally,
Elrond stood up and faced his three sons. "I know not what is causing
this." There was a note of apology in his voice and a look of heartbreak
on his ageless face.
Aragorn sat
back down on the bed, gripping the elf’s hand once more, and then he closed his
eyes. Those words from his father confirmed his own feelings of despair. All
along he had the feeling that there was something evil involved that was behind
what was wrong with his friend. If his father couldn’t find a physical reason,
then Aragorn was terribly afraid he was right. But, he wasn’t ready to speak of
that just yet.
Aragorn was
pulled out of his thoughts, when Elrond said, “I will find out.” The elf Lord’s
firm voice reflected his attempt to be as reassuring as he could. It was far
too early to give up hope. To continue, though, he needed details.
“What can
you tell me about what happened? Was he attacked by someone or something?” That
seemed the most logical place to start.
“I can’t
answer any of your questions,” Aragorn said somewhat harshly. He shook his
head. “I’m sorry, Ada. I’m just so worried.” He kept to himself that he was
also so tired he could hardly move. That fact, he knew, they were all very
aware of. An elf was much better at hiding weariness and much better at
detecting it in others than any human. The look of concern in his father’s eyes
was also for him, as well as Legolas.
He looked
up at Elrond. “I have no idea what happened. We were setting up camp for the
night. Legolas tended the horses, as usual, and went off to hunt for dinner
while I set up the camp. When he didn’t come back in a reasonable length of
time, I went looking for him. I found him lying in the grass just as you see
him now. I couldn’t rouse him, but I couldn’t find anything wrong, either.” He
laughed bitterly and waved his hand toward Legolas. “Unless you consider this
condition as being nothing wrong.” More softly he said. “There’s no physical
clue as to why he’s like this. You saw that for yourself.”
The tears
that Aragorn had been holding back threatened to spill out, but he managed, with
a great deal of effort, to keep them from falling. “What can we do, Ada? How
can we help him, if we don’t even know what’s wrong with him?”
Elladan
wanted to know the answer to those questions himself. He came around to the
side of the bed where his foster brother sat. He steeled himself for the
argument he was sure was coming. “Estel, Legolas is safe. He is in no immediate
danger. You need to get some sleep before you collapse.”
“I have to
stay with him.” Aragorn whispered tiredly.
“ Not if it
means you make yourself sick,” Elladan replied firmly. “I promise that Elrohir
and I will not leave this room until you wake and return here. I am sure Ada
will be hard at work, looking for answers, in his books of healing.” He took
Estel’s free hand. “Please, for all our sakes, if not your own, get some rest.”
He looked toward Legolas. “He will need your strength later.”
Everyone
was surprised when Aragorn nodded. It was proof that he was too exhausted to
argue. Aragorn reluctantly let go of Legolas's hand, as Elrond took him by the
shoulders and pulled him to his feet. He gave a small smile of encouragement to
his weary son.
Aragorn
gave his brothers as stern a look as he could muster. “Promise me you’ll come
get me, if there’s any change, no matter how small.”
“We
promise,” Elrohir said, nodding.
Elrond had
his arm around Aragorn as he guided his son from the room. The intricately
carved door closed softly behind them.
Elladan
looked out of the open balcony doorway and noted it was about mid-afternoon. He
pulled one of the two chairs in the room up next to the bed, and a moment later
Elrohir did the same.
They sat
down to wait.
Chapter
Three
Aragorn
woke up groggier than usual. He opened bleary eyes and looked around him. It
took a few seconds for him to recognize that he was in his own bed, in his own
room, which he felt sure was in his own home. It was hard to be positive,
though. His mind was acting like a thick fog was swirling through it.
The ranger
sat up, a move that took a great deal of effort. He quickly lowered his head
into both of his hands. He hadn’t felt this out of it since he had overindulged
with some questionable wine that time he and Legolas were...
At the
thought of the Mirkwood prince, Aragorn cried out, “Legolas!” All the memories
of what had happened to his friend came crashing in and almost swamped the
tenuous grasp on the senses that he clung to. He wanted to believe that it had
all been a horrible nightmare, but he knew it was all too real.
It took him
mere seconds to get to his feet and slide into a pair of soft slippers that sat
just under the edge of his bed. He grabbed a long, cream-colored robe from the
back of a chair near the door. While doing so, he took note that the sun was
just now rising, as it peeked over the far garden wall. He was dismayed to
realize that he had slept the entire night, not to mention the better part of
yesterday afternoon. He sprinted down the corridor to Legolas's room, managing
to get into his robe as he ran.
Aragorn
burst into the room and rushed over to the bed. Legolas was lying as still and
quiet as the ranger had left him. He closed his eyes and shook his head. He was
so hoping that he would be greeted by an alert, smiling elven prince, who would
chide him for sleeping so long. The ranger dropped down dejectedly onto the bed
in the same spot he had occupied earlier.
It was only
after satisfying himself that the archer was still breathing and had no fever
that he allowed his own breathing to slow to a normal rhythm.
Looking up,
he noticed that the two brocade-covered chairs by the bed were empty. “Empty?”
Aragorn exploded. Distraught and shaking, he said aloud, “They promised they
wouldn’t leave him!”
“Nor did
we,” came a very familiar voice from across the room.
Aragorn
spun his head around and found himself staring into the face of Elladan,
standing in the balcony doorway. The dark-haired elf had his arms folded over
his chest. Aragorn saw his brother’s stern expression.
“We do not
break promises, Estel,” Elrohir said from behind him, speaking a bit more
harshly than he intended. He walked around the bed and sat down in one of the
plush chairs, placing a large leather-bound book in his lap.
It was
immediately obvious to Aragorn that, considering the direction Elrohir had just
come from, he had been getting the book from the set of shelves behind the door
and hadn‘t been seen when the ranger burst in. “I’m sorry,” Aragorn said
contritely. “I didn’t mean to accuse either of you. I’ve evidently been
sleeping rather hard for hours, and I‘m a bit groggy and...” He paused, then
admitted, “No excuses. Forgive me.”
After
exchanging glances with his twin, Elladan said, “You are forgiven.”
“We never
could stay upset with you for very long, Estel. You know that,” Elrohir
commented. He had a small smile on his face.
Elladan
said, “And by the way, Estel, you have been asleep for almost two days.” He
grimaced, preparing for the inevitable explosion.
“Two
days!” Aragorn wailed. “Are you telling me that I went to sleep the day
before yesterday?” When a nod from Elladan confirmed it, Aragorn’s eyes
narrowed in anger.
“You were
almost out on your feet, when you arrived. You obviously needed it, or you
would not have slept that long.” Elladan said logically in a calm voice.
“I told
you...”
“You told
us to come get you, if there was any change,” Elladan interrupted in the same
calm tone. “There has not been.” The elf walked over and stood beside his
younger twin, resting one hand on the high back of the chair Elrohir sat in. He
looked down at Legolas. “Sadly, there has been no change at all in his
condition. He is still the same.”
“Ada has
been here several times to check on him,” Elrohir added. “And, when he has not
been here, he has been holed up in his study, searching through his books of
healing.”
“But, he’s
found nothing to help Legolas, has he?” Aragorn asked dejectedly, already
knowing the answer. He almost said he could have told them that would probably
be the case. He was now convinced more than ever that some kind of evil had
befallen the elven prince. But what and from where, he had no clue. And, if he
was right, he also had no clue as to whether Legolas was the intended victim or
was just in the wrong place at the wrong time and ended up paying the price for
it.
Aragorn
looked at his twin brothers. It was then he noticed that Legolas's unstrung bow
was propped up in the corner of the room next to the bookshelves. He looked
around the room and spotted the archer’s quiver of arrows and his twin long
knives lying on a table next to the wardrobe.
Elladan
realized what Aragorn was looking at, so he explained. “One of the stable boys
removed them from Legolas's horse after the two of you came home, and he gave
them to Glorfindel, who brought them up here. Yours are in your room.”
Aragorn
nodded. He had to admit he hadn’t given any of the weapons a thought since
arriving, although he did seem to remember Elrond taking the ranger’s sword
belt off of him just before he collapsed into bed.
“Have you
eaten?” Elrohir asked, sure that his human brother had come straight in here
from waking. He had no idea how long before Estel had arrived that he had
eaten. It was most likely days.
Aragorn
shook his head. Emotionally, he didn‘t care to eat anything, but his body was
telling him quite the opposite. He felt sure that if he even attempted to say
he wanted nothing, both of his brothers would hold him down and force him to
eat. “Just something light. Fruit, maybe, and honey tea. And cheese. And some
bread and maybe a few sausages.” He looked toward Legolas. “And a piece of
Lembas.”
Elrohir
looked at his foster brother; the solemn atmosphere that permeated the room and
the reason for it being the only things keeping him from laughing out loud. He
couldn‘t, however, keep a bit of humor out of his voice. “Just something light
he says.”
“I
noticed,” Elladan agreed.
Coming to
an unspoken agreement, both twins quietly left the room, making not a sound, as
was the way with the Firstborn. The ranger’s attention had gone back to the
unconscious elf in the bed, so they were sure Estel hadn’t even taken notice of
their departure.
Aragorn sat
alone with Legolas, whose seemingly lifeless body tore at the ranger’s heart.
“Please, open your eyes, mellon nin. Please.” He squeezed the elf’s hand. “We
need you back with us. I need you back.”
*This was
all my fault. If only I had...*
Aragorn
shook his head, banishing that silent thought. It would do no good to dwell on
his guilt now. It wouldn’t help Legolas in the slightest, and at this point in
time, that was his all-consuming concern. “I’ll make it up to you, Legolas. I
promise. Even if it takes me the rest of my life.”
After
Aragorn finished the breakfast that Elrohir had brought to him, he looked down
at his elven friend. “It's time for me to take care of you.” *That’s all I can
do for you right now.*
He set the
food tray on the table near the bed. Elrohir had brought him everything he had
requested, and Estel’s starving body had not let him stop until he had eaten
every bit of it. Only the Lembas was left. He had plans for that.
Aragorn
broke off a small piece of the elvish waybread and set it down into a small
bowl. Then, he picked up the cup he had left some of the tea in, and he
carefully poured it on top of the Lembas in the bowl. He set it aside to let
the waybread soak.
In the
meantime, he went to Legolas's dresser and got out a clean nightshirt and took
it into the washroom. He gathered two large towels, soap and a wash cloth and
put them on the stand beside the polished wooden tub.
When that
was done, he went back into the bedroom. Pulling the covers back, he lifted
Legolas into a sitting position and slid in behind him, pulling the elf back
against his chest. He picked up the bowl and, stretching his arms out in front
of the elf, took a spoon and began mashing the waybread up with the tea until
it became the consistency of a slightly thick broth.
Aragorn
took a deep breath. “This isn’t going to be easy for either of us, my friend,
but you have to get nourishment into you somehow.” The ranger took the spoon,
got a little of the mixture into it, and, holding Legolas's head back, he
opened his mouth and poured the mixture from the spoon into it. He began to
massage the elf’s throat to try and bring about a reflexive swallowing motion.
Nothing
happened at first, but then the elf began to swallow. He had a small coughing
fit at first, until with subsequent tries, Aragorn lessened the amount of the
mixture he put in the spoon.
When
Elrohir came to get the food tray, he was very pleased to see what Estel was
doing. Then, the ranger explained about the bath, so the elf personally hauled
buckets of steaming water into the washroom and filled the tub, confident the
water would cool down enough before Aragorn needed it.
Elrohir
volunteered to help, but Estel said he would handle everything by himself. The
elf didn’t argue with him, knowing it was something that Estel felt he needed
to do. Elrohir left the room.
It took a
while, but eventually Aragorn got all the Lembas and tea into Legolas. He
followed that up with a small amount of plain water from a nearby pitcher.
Aragorn
sighed deeply with satisfaction. He knew the accomplishment was a big victory,
because now he knew the archer would not starve.
During the
remainder of the morning, Aragorn bathed Legolas, changed his nightshirt,
washed, dried and brushed his hair and put him back into a bed that had been
fitted with fresh, clean bed linen while the bath bad been in progress.
Aragorn
once again sat down by his friend’s side. And, as he sat, he looked out through
the balcony doors. The sun was shining brightly, bathing everything in its
golden glow. He could hear the birds chirping merrily outside in the trees, as
the branches swayed gently in the warm spring breeze.
With
another deep sigh, the ranger thought to himself that Legolas shouldn’t be in
here confined to this bed. He should be out in the sunshine and the open air.
That’s where the woodland elf belonged.
It was then
that Aragorn hit upon an idea.
He got up,
and with a bit of effort, moved both chairs out onto the balcony, each half
facing the other. Then, he went and picked Legolas up and set him in the chair
that would allow him to fully face the sun. He put the feather pillow behind
the elf's shoulders and titled his head back so it turned up to the sun.
Aragorn draped a light blanket over his friend's bare legs and feet and rested
his hands in his lap.
Aragorn sat
down heavily in the other chair, letting his arms hang down beside the arms of
the chair. Being a mortal, he couldn't converse with the trees, but he
fervently hoped they would hear his plea. "Please, send your strength to
Legolas. Renew his spirit, so he can come back to us---and to you."
A single
tear made its way down his cheek.
Chapter Four
It had been
back on the fourth day after Estel’s and Legolas's return that Elrond had
mentioned contacting King Thranduil and telling him of Legolas's condition.
Aragorn, despite understanding the right the elf king had to know about his
son, had argued vehemently against it. He had insisted that Thranduil would
either come himself or send one of his other sons to get Legolas and take him
back to Mirkwood. There were no healers in the woodland realm, who had anywhere
near the healing ability that Elrond possessed. Aragorn had argued all this,
despite the fact the elf lord hadn’t as yet been able to do anything for the
prince. The ranger had gotten so upset that Elrond had relented---for the time
being, at least.
He and the
woodland king were already less than friendly. They had clashed more than a few
times in the past. So, having to face Thranduil’s fury, when he finally did
learn of all this, would hardly be a new experience. Still, it was not
something Elrond was looking forward to. As always, however, he could well hold
his own.
~*~*~
Aragorn's
life became strictly regimented, something of his own devising. Every morning,
he got up and went immediately to Legolas's room, relieving whomever it was
that had stayed the night. It was usually one of the twins, but Elrond also
stayed occasionally, as did Glorfindel.
The ranger
would feed Legolas, bathe him, wash and brush his hair, and change his
nightshirt. He would then lay the elf out straight on top of the bed and
carefully massage his muscles back and front to keep them firm. It didn't
replace normal activity, but it would help keep them from wasting away---for a
time anyway. Next Aragorn would put the elven prince into the chair out on the
balcony in the sun. It was only then that he would eat his own breakfast.
The ranger
would sit in the other chair and talk to Legolas, as if the elf was capable of
listening, which was something Aragorn had wondered about. In fact, he had even
asked Erond if it was possible that deep down Legolas could hear and understand
everything that was done and said around him. Elrond didn't know, but told his
son it couldn't hurt to talk to Legolas, in hopes something he said or the
sound of his voice might get through to him.
These same
tasks were performed day after day, one following the next with no deviation
until they became like a ritual. There was no light or dark in the ranger’s
life as it existed now, only a dull shade of gray. He sometimes despaired, and
he sometimes cried, but in his heart, he never gave up hope. And, he never
resented what he did for the elf. Legolas was his best friend in the entire
world, and his heart was too full of love, loyalty---and guilt---to ever allow
that to happen.
Legolas,
however, remained unresponsive, and Aragorn remained determined to bring his
friend back from wherever his spirit had fled to. For that is exactly what the
ranger came to believe. There was no evidence of a physical reason for the
elf’s continued unconsciousness, so Aragorn became more convinced, as the days
advanced and he had much time to think on it, that some truly horrible evil had
befallen the elven prince. He could see no other reason for his courageous and
stubborn friend’s spirit to retreat. Whatever had caused this had somehow
driven the elf to seek sanctuary deep inside his own mind. Or perhaps, it was
forced into retreat against the elf‘s will. All of this sounded logical to the
human, but he still had no way to reach Legolas except through what he was
already doing, hoping against hope, something would eventually work.
~*~*~
On the
morning of the ninth day, Elrond had gone out on the balcony and pulled Aragorn
back into the room and steered him over to the far side of the bed. He quietly
insisted that Thranduil had to be notified. This time the Lord of Rivendell
refused to give in to Estel's protests. The elven king would be told what had
befallen his son and that was that.
After
Elrond left the room, Aragorn began to panic. He knew the king would take
Legolas away to Mirkwood, and he might possibly never see his best friend
again, especially since he was sure Thranduil would blame him for everything.
*Even though it is my fault.* He had steadfastly refused to discuss his
deep sense of guilt with his father or his brothers. Even Glorfindel, who had
always been a confidante and mentor to the young human, couldn't get him to
speak of it.
All of this
turmoil was taking a toll on Estel. Everyone saw it, though no one outside of
the family, Glorfindel, and several of the servants ever laid eyes on Aragorn
during this time. If the people of Rivendell hadn’t known about Legolas's
condition, a fact that had spread quite quickly, they would have assumed the
two friends had left again. When the human son of Elrond and the Mirkwood
prince were together in Rivendell, everyone knew it, especially if the twins
were with them.
The ranger
had been steadfastly holding himself together through all of this. Now, with
Elrond's decision to contact King Thranduil, it was almost too much for the
young human to bear.
The day
after Elrond had said he was notifying the King of Mirkwood, Aragorn was
sitting glumly on the balcony with Legolas, as usual. He looked around and his
eye was caught by the delicate blue flowers that grew in the large wooden
flower box that sat at one end of the balcony. The flower resembled a day lily,
only smaller. It had a strong fragrance and was Legolas's favorite. These
flowers bloomed for only a short while in Spring. Wanting to be close to them
while they were in their glory was why Legolas had them near his room. He had
planted them himself, tended them lovingly, and they always bloomed hardily for
him.
Aragorn
picked one. Then he went over and knelt down beside Legolas. He held the flower
up under the elf's nose, waving it slowly back and forth, hoping that the rich
fragrance would somehow penetrate his subconscious. Estel knew it was probably
a futile gesture, but he had long ago vowed that he would continue to do
whatever he could think of to try and rouse the unconscious elf.
After a few
minutes, Aragorn sighed. It wasn't working, as he had really believed it
wouldn't. With a sad smile, he put Legolas's hands together, palms up one on
top of the other, and gently laid the flower there. He shook his head to think
that if Legolas were awake, such would be the power of the elf’s love for
Nature, that he would be totally delighted and yet awed by the simple beauty of
this one single flower.
He could
almost hear Legolas's laughter floating on the wind.
It was
suddenly more than the ranger could bear. Right then, he couldn't bear to see
the elf's fair face upturned to the sunlight, when he wasn’t even aware of it,
his loose hair cascading over his shoulders and down his chest. He couldn’t
bear to see his friend’s eyes closed, hiding the light that should be shining
there. He couldn't bear....
Aragorn
stood up, emitting a strangled cry, and ran into the room, intending to keep
going. But, he couldn't abandon his friend, even as grief overtook him. So, he
stopped at the door, leaned his head against it and sobbed, tears overflowing
and shoulders shaking with the emotional outburst.
So it was
that he didn't see the forefinger on Legolas's right hand jerk. Nor did he hear
the soft moan that accompanied the movement. What he did hear was a
blood-curling scream.
Aragorn
whirled around and ran back to the balcony. When he reached the open doorway,
he stopped dead in his tracks. What he saw horrified him. Legolas, eyes still
closed and head still tilted back, was clawing at his open mouth with fingers
that were now covered in blood.
Chapter
Five
Aragorn
stood transfixed and wide-eyed by the horror of what the found himself staring
at. His mind was screaming at him to move, but he couldn’t get past the
horrendous scene before him in order to give his body the command to do so.
He quickly
snapped out of his lethargy, rushed to his friend and fell to his knees beside
the chair. He grabbed both of Legolas's wrists and pulled his hands away from
his bloody mouth.
The elf
fought the move, pulling hard against Estel’s grip to try and get his hands
back to his mouth. He jerked his head from side to side, sending blood flying
in all directions. He was trying desperately to break free from whatever was
holding him. Whether it was Estel’s hold on his wrists or something within the
elf’s mind, the ranger couldn’t tell. Legolas showed surprising strength,
considering the long time he had been inactive. All that messaging had worked,
Aragorn thought grimly.
“Daro!”
Legolas screamed with heartrending terror in his voice. “Daro! Car al car
nad sen!” <Stop. Stop. Do not do this thing.>
“It‘s all
right, Legolas, It’s me, Estel. Calm yourself. Please, don’t fight me,” the
ranger pleaded, trying to speak gently yet firmly. He knew he needed to get
through to the obviously frightened elf. Yet, he certainly wanted to avoid
upsetting him further, though it was hard to think the archer could get any
more upset than he was already.
Aragorn was
taken by surprise, when he was almost hit by an elven hand that suddenly shot
out toward his face. He managed to stop the blow an inch short of his nose. The
elf’s legs began to kick, but Aragorn was well out of the way of those
potential weapons.
“ADA!,”
Aragorn yelled, hoping desperately that if Elrond didn’t hear him, someone else
would. He couldn’t handle Legolas like this on his own, not as long as his
friend continued to fight him. He couldn‘t let go of his wrists to do anything
else for him, as the elf‘s body started writhing in his effort to get free.
A gurgling
sound caused Aragorn’s heart to lurch as Legolas, with his back arched and his
head now all the way back, was beginning to choke, as blood ran down the back
of his throat. The human let go of one wrist to try and grab the elf’s head and
pull it forward, but Legolas immediately jerked forward himself and put his
free hand, fingers curled into a claw, in his mouth and began raking his
fingernails back and forth. More blood spilled out and ran down his chin. It
then continued down his neck and began to spread, as it encountered the edge of
his lavender silk nightshirt. He then jerked his head forcefully back against
the pillow. Aragorn had no choice but to grab Legolas's hand again and pull it
away from his mouth.
“ADA!”
Estel yelled out frantically once again.
A few
seconds later, Elrond, who had heard Legolas scream, came rushing in and moved
around to the far side of the chair. “By the Valar!” the elf Lord exclaimed. He
quickly put his hand behind the younger elf’s neck and pulled him forward,
tilting his head down slightly. With his free hand he pulled the blood-stained
pillow from behind the archer and pressed the elf against the back of the
chair. He tossed the pillow in the general direction of the other chair, not
caring where it landed.
With more
surprising strength, Legolas once again threw his head back, pulling it out of
the grip Elrond had on his neck. A violent coughing spell erupted. Blood
sprayed outward, hitting both Elrond and Aragorn in the face and splattering
their clothes. A spray of crimson fell once more upon the archer’s blond hair,
on his nightshirt and on the blanket that had become wadded up in his lap.
“He’s
choking on his own blood,” Aragorn said, his voice still holding a tinge of
horror.
Just then
both Elladan and Elrohir came running into the room and onto the balcony. They,
too, were shocked by what they were witnessing, staring in mute horror. They
unconsciously grabbed and held each other’s hands.
Elrond, who
was facing them, said, “Elladan, stand behind the chair and put your hands on
each side of Legolas's head and hold it steady. Keep it tilted forward.” He
wanted to make sure no more blood would go down the elf prince’s throat.
“Elrohir,
get me two towels and a basin of water.” When there was no sign the elf had
heard his father speak to him, Elrond called his name more urgently. “Elrohir.”
Elrohir
snapped out of his trance. “Sorry, Ada.“ He sprang into action and ran into the
washroom. When he returned, he handed a fluffy towel toward his father, leaving
one draped over his arm. He held onto the basin, waiting until he was asked for
it. He stood motionless and watched what was unfolding before him. There were
tears in his eyes to think of the fear and pain Legolas must be going through.
Once
Legolas's head was secure in Elladan’s grip, the elf Lord took the towel
Elrohir offered and put one small part of it in Legolas's mouth to soak up the
excess blood. He exerted a small amount of pressure to staunch as much of the
blood flow as he could. He repeated the process over and over, each time using
a clean part of the towel, until there was no signs of fresh bleeding. Most of
the white towel he held was splotched with red. He handed it to Elrohir.
Legolas had
quit struggling, however, his body was jerking with uncontrolled spasms,
accompanied by low moans. At least, he was able to breathe, Aragorn thought,
trying to find something positive in this horrible situation.
As Legolas
calmed further, Aragorn and the elves began to relax slightly, though they
remained alert to a possible repeat of what had just occurred. The ranger
cautiously let go of Legolas's wrists. Small tremors still ran through the
elf’s body.
Elladan
continued to hold Legolas's head, as Aragorn took the water basin from
Elrohir’s hands. He then took the other towel, dipped it into the water and
began to clean the elf’s face, neck and hands. He also wiped as much blood as
he could from his hair.
Elrond
frowned. He had seen many a bizarre behavior in his long years, but never had
he seen anything quite like this. “What happened, Estel?”
Feeling
shame, the ranger didn’t want to admit his temporary abandonment of his friend
simply because he couldn‘t control hjs own emotions. Unable to look his father
in the eye, he kept his head down, as he began to clean the blood from under
Legolas's fingernails. “I was in the room, when I heard him scream. I ran back
out here and found him clawing in his mouth. He looked like he was trying to
dig something out of it. It was so sudden and violent. I can’t imagine what
caused him to do something like that.”
Just before
Legolas went completely limp, he uttered one word. A word that only Elrond
fully heard and comprehended. “Lhûg.” <Serpent>
Elrond ,
already on his knees, fell backward onto his heels. There was a sharp intake of
breath from the elven Lord. The look of utter disbelief on his face was
disturbing to all who saw it. No one saw anything happening right at that
moment that could cause such a reaction from the normally composed elf Lord.
“Ada, what
is wrong?” Elrohir asked, concern clearly showing on his face. He made a move
to go to his father, thinking he must have suddenly been afflicted in some way.
Elrond held
his hand up and gave a small wave to indicate he was all right. His expression,
however, didn’t chance. The elf Lord shook his head. “It cannot be. I missed
it.” Elrond looked stunned. He lowered his head. “I never thought to look
there.”
When he
raised his head again, he saw three pairs of eyes starting at him. His sons
couldn’t imagine what he was talking about or why he now looked totally
distraught. No one spoke.
With a
concerted effort, Elrond pushed aside what he had just experienced and, to all
outward appearances, returned to the efficient, in-control elf Lord they all
knew. He gave no explanation.
Elrond got
back up onto his knees. He opened Legolas's mouth, and using gentle hands,
began to inspect it. It was assumed that he was checking to see what damage
Legolas had done to himself. In truth, he was checking for something far
different. He could find nothing other than the slashes and gouges that
Legolas's fingernails had inflicted. “Destroyed,” Elrond whispered almost under
his breath.
Even
without elven hearing, Estel heard the word clearly. “What’s destroyed?“ His
eyes suddenly went wide. “Do you mean he’s destroyed his mouth?” He knew that
was extremely unlikely, and the question sounded ridiculous, but it was the
first thing that came to mind, so he had blurted it out.
“No. His
mouth is damaged quite badly, but it is not beyond repair. I was speaking of
something else.” For a second, Elrond’s mind seemed to move far away. With a
jerk, he shook off the dark thoughts that had taken momentary hold of him. “It
does not need to be spoken of just yet. Right now, we must get Legolas back
into bed.” The tone of the elf Lord’s voice gave no room for argument.
Aragorn
pulled the blanket from the elf’s lap and handed it to Elladan, who released
his hold on Legolas's head. He carried his friend back into the room and set
him on the bed, holding him upright as he told Elrohir to get a clean
nightshirt. Once that was changed, Legolas was put under the covers.
It was only
then that Glorfindel’s presence was discovered. Like the others, he had come
running in when he heard the scream and ascertained where it had come from.
Upon his arrival, he had seen that the three elves and the human had the
situation in hand, so he kept back out of the way.
His
presence was acknowledged but no one spoke at first. Then, Elladan said, “You
saw what happened?” At Glorfindel’s nod, the younger elf said, “Do you know
what may have caused this?”
Before
answering, Glorfindel caught the warning look in Elrond’s eye. Since, in truth,
he had no answers, he simply shook his head sadly. He would definitely have to
have a talk with Elrond, because the Lord of Imladrs knew something he didn’t
want discussed, at least not in front of his sons. The older blond elf was
determined to find out what it was.
Elladan
remained out on the balcony as he held the blanket up to fold it rather than
leave it a wadded up mess, when he noticed something fall out of it onto the
balcony floor. He bent down and picked the object up. He found himself staring
at one of the blue flowers from Legolas flower box. The little flower was
splattered with blood. Knowing how Legolas felt about this particular flower,
he couldn’t bear to just crush it up, so he set it gently on top of the balcony
railing.
Elladan
laid the folded blanket on the chair and turned away and so didn’t notice that
the wind picked the little flower up and sent it flying toward the garden
below. It landed on a patch of new Spring grass. No one was a witness, as its
petals waved gently in the air current.
In the room,
Elrond was telling Estel to go in the washroom and clean himself up. When the
young man returned, he handed his father a damp towel and watched as Elrond
wiped his own face and hands. He looked down at his now blood-stained blue
robe. The robe itself didn’t matter. It was the reason behind the robe’s
condition that saddened his heart.
The elf
Lord began to address everyone, who were now standing around the elf prince‘s
bed. “Someone must stay right at Legolas's side at all times. Therefore, two of
us will always have to be with him, so if one needs to leave or take a break,
Legolas will not be alone. We cannot take the chance that this may happen
again, when someone’s back is turned.”
Aragorn’s
shoulders slumped, as he hung his head. Elrond put a hand on his son’s arm. “No
one is blaming you, Estel. You have done more for him than any of us. Do not
take yourself to task. It could have happened to anyone who was here.”
Aragorn
felt only marginally better by what his father said. His head knew the words
were true, but would he ever be able to convince his heart?
~*~*~
Many miles
away from Rivendell, a tall figure dressed all in black stood in a dark forest
and stared toward the north. Mordraug couldn’t see the woodland realm he looked
toward, but he knew all too well exactly where it lay.
An orc,
somewhat large for his kind, approached. “Will he come, Master?”
“Oh yes,
Grug. I have seen to that,” the tall figure replied, very pleased with himself.
An arrogant smile appeared on Mordraug’s face, as he stroked the head of the
slender black snake that was wrapped around his left arm. “He will come.”
Chapter
Six
Legolas
remained still and quiet, since being settled back into bed after his
terrifying outburst. He was again as unresponsive as he had been all the previous
days, since he and Aragorn had returned.
Elrond had
prepared a bowl of hot water containing athelas leaves, and now that the leaves
had steeped a sufficient length of time, he dipped a cloth into the bowl and
wrung out the excess liquid. He sat on the bed and leaned over Legolas, as he
applied the cloth to the inside of the younger elf’s mouth. Only a small amount
of still oozing blood came away on the cloth.
By the time
the mixture in the bowl had cooled completely, the elf Lord was satisfied that
he had made enough medicinal applications. He sat up straight and handed the
bowl and the cloth to Elladan. He took a deep breath and let it out slowly.
“That should be quite adequate for now.” He looked at his eldest son. “Every
couple of hours repeat what I have just done.” Elrond stood up. “We can only
hope that Legolas's natural healing ability has not been damaged by whatever
has happened to him. However, it may well have been. That is why I want several
applications of the athelas to keep the healing process continuing.”
Elladan
nodded. “I will do it, Ada.” He took the bowl and the cloth and set them on the
stand next to the bed. He would take them away when it was time to replace them
for another treatment. Right now, he wanted to hear what his father might say.
Elrond
looked toward Glorfindel. He almost wished he hadn’t. The fair haired elf was
looking at him with a stern expression, and he knew there was no way he could
avoid the discussion he felt sure was coming. He didn’t mind actually. It would
be good to talk to someone about what he suspected, though Glorfindel would not
be the least bit happy with what he would have to say. No one would, when all
the details finally became known. However, the time was not yet right for that
bit of news.
Elrond left
the room without another word. Glorfindel was right on his heels. Just as
Elrond closed the door, he saw that Estel had sat back down on the bed and
taken Legolas's hand in his. It had become a common sight. Having physical
contact with his friend seemed to lessen his son’s burden, at least in part. He
knew, however, that having Legolas wake up was the only thing that would truly
bring joy to Estel’s heart. And, he had to hope that Legolas would somehow know
that Estel was there with him.
Glorfindel
followed Elrond down the hall and into his private study. An assortment of
books of all sizes and colors, the majority of which were leather-bound, lay
all around the room, stacked on table tops and on chairs. The long sofa that
was set against the wall on the right side of the room and on which Elrond
sometimes slept was covered with the tomes. The large wooden desk that
dominated the far end of the study was piled high with them, some opened and
some closed.
Only when
Elrond was determinedly searching for answers to puzzling mysteries did the
room look this disheveled. It was usually extremely neat and tidy, though the
desk itself was never without an abundance of papers spread out upon it. So
many books were scattered around that there were large gaps in the many rows of
books that lined each wall floor to ceiling.
As Elrond
sat down behind the desk, Glorfindel moved a pile of books on the seat of one
of the chairs that helped to furnish the room and set this stack on top of
another on the corner of the desk. He pulled the chair up so that when he sat
down, he’d be looking directly across at his friend, whom he now stared
intently straight at. “You know what has happened to Legolas, do you not?”
Glorfindel tried to keep his tone neutral. He didn‘t want to sound accusatory.
Elrond sat
with his elbows on the desktop, lacing his fingers together. He put them
against his forehead, as he bent his head forward, and then he sighed. He
placed one thumb on each temple and began to move them slowly in a circle,
trying to message away the pain that was beginning to make itself felt there.
He decided
there was no point in stalling. After another moment of messaging his temples,
he looked up, placing his hands on a scroll, yellowed with age, that was rolled
up and sitting in front of him. “I have no proof, but yes, I believe I know
what has happened to Legolas.”
Glorfindel
eyed the scroll and waited, but when Elrond said nothing further, he asked,
“What is it?”
The elf
Lord directed a look toward his friend that Glorfindel swore bordered on fear.
“Mordraug.”
Glorfindel’s
eyes went wide, and he couldn’t stifle the gasp that escaped his lips. He
averted his eyes, when he saw the fearful expression on his friend’s face
intensify. It was quite clear that Elrond dreaded even having to say the name.
He couldn’t blame him. Staring at his own hands, Glorfindel shook his head and
said, “It cannot be. He was destroyed almost a thousand years ago.”
“That is
what we were led to believe. Now, I am not so sure. You did not hear what
Legolas said just before he went completely limp again.”
No,
Glorfindel had to admit, he hadn’t heard Legolas say anything at all. “What did
he say?”
“One
word---lhûg.”
For the
second time in a few short minutes, the blond elf’s eyes went wide. “No,” he
whispered, despite now knowing Elrond was probably right about the reason for
Legolas's condition. “Not again.” He looked up. After the shock wore off a
little, he asked a question that only appeared to change the subject. “When
will Thranduil arrive?”
“In four
days, if I know him. As you know, I notified him yesterday. It is a long
journey, but he will surely push himself and those with him very hard where his
son is concerned. Despite all his faults, he loves his children, as much as I
love mine.” *If only he was easier to deal with in every other aspect of his
life,* Elrond mused.
“I am glad
it is you and not me that has to give him this news,” Glorfindel said, feeling
only slightly guilty at the cowardly admission. Being Elrond’s friend had put
the elf on the Mirkwood King’s enemy list. No one sided with people Thranduil
didn’t like and stayed his friend. But this time, instead of butting heads,
which he was fully prepared to do should the need arise, Glorfindel would do
all in his power to help the woodland King, if only Thranduil’s pride didn’t
cause him to refuse that help. He knew Elrond felt the same.
Glorfindel
suddenly realized what Elrond meant, when he had looked in Legolas's mouth and
said the word, “Destroyed” and why his inspection seemed so much more intense
than the situation warranted. “You were looking for evidence to back up your
suspicion, but there was too much damage to confirm it.” It was a flat
statement and not a question.
The Lord of
Imladris nodded. “It just never occurred to me to look there. If I had...” He
understood the feeling of guilt that Estel was experiencing, though he still
didn’t know what his son believed he had done wrong.
“You had no
reason to consider looking in his mouth.” Glorfindel said, as he tried to
defend Elrond’s actions and ease his friend’s conscience.
Elrond
suddenly felt very weary and very old. “I should have considered it,” he
whispered so softly that Glorfindel barely caught it.
“Elrond,
all the others died within days, some within hours. They did not linger the way
Legolas has. You had no reason to connect what happened then with what is
happening now.”
“Perhaps.”
Elrond’s remark still held a note of guilt, because he still wasn’t ready to
absolve himself entirely from the fact that the answer had been within his
grasp, if only he had gone back into his memories. They were memories that he
had forcefully buried long ago. It mattered not to him that what Glorfindel
said was reasonable, and Elrond could not have logically made the connection.
Still....
In a normal
tone, Elrond said, “These next weeks are going to be extremely hard for all of
us, especially Legolas and Thranduil.”
“Can
Legolas be saved?” It was a blunt question. The answer, be it one way or
another, needed to be faced.
Elrond
shrugged. “You know Mordraug and what he is capable of, as well as I do,” was
his only reply. He was going to let Glorfindel come to his own conclusions,
because he had did not want to think of Legolas's possible fate, though he truly
feared for the woodland elf. The young prince had hung on far longer than any
other of Mordraug’s victims. But, whether that was due to the elf’s stubborn
determination to survive or whether it was by Mordraug’s design, he knew not.
Elrond
stared at all the books that lay around the room, knowing full well that all
the research he had been doing in them night and day had been a complete waste
of time. Only the scroll meant anything now, and it held no secrets, no answers
that weren’t already known. *How can we go through this again?* If the elf Lord
had been given to tears, now would have been the time to shed them---for
Legolas, for Thranduil, for them all.
A deep
silence descended between the two friends, each lost in his own thoughts and
memories of a horror from the past that was coming back to haunt them.
~*~*~*
Aragorn and
the twins had been too unnerved by what had happed to Legolas out on the
balcony to question what Elrond’s words had meant. For his part, the elf Lord
hadn’t expanded on those cryptic words, because he knew it would all be laid
bare soon enough. Aragorn had even forgotten that King Thranduil was on his way
and would soon be arriving in Rivendell.
Aragorn now
refused to leave Legolas's side even to sleep in his own room. It didn’t matter
that the twins agreed, once again, to stay with the Mirkwood elf. More than
once, the ranger had fallen asleep sitting on the bed, Legolas's hand encircled
within his.
Elladan and
Elrohir brought their brother food, which he hardly ate, despite their urgings
and threats. They finally gave up arguing but continued to bring trays to the
room, hoping that with each one, Estel would change his mind. The trays always
went back barely touched.
Legolas's
mouth had swollen somewhat, even with the athelas applications that Elladan
administered, so Aragorn was afraid to try and feed him. He did continue to
bathe his friend, wash his hair and change his nightshirt. Yet, even with the
beckoning sunshine and warm Spring breezes, he couldn’t bring himself to put Legolas
back out on the balcony.
Finally on
the third day after the incident, Legolas began to stir. It started with soft
moans, and then the elf started to shift his body, the way most waking beings
do. It was only small movements at first, but then he became louder and more
active.
Aragorn,
who had been dozing, woke up immediately. He looked intently at Legolas and
then up at Elladan, who was the one with him this day. The expression of joy on
Estel’s face went far beyond a mere smile, and pure happiness shone in his
eyes. “He’s coming back to us.”
So long had
they waited for just such signs that Legolas's was waking up, and so long had
it been since a smile had graced his human brother’s face, that Elladan
couldn’t contain a broad smile of his own. He didn’t even try, because his own
heart was overflowing with happiness.
Elrohir,
who had chosen just that moment to come into the room with a lunch tray, was
sent off to get Elrond, as Aragorn and Elladan practically held their breaths.
Aragorn
moved closer to Legolas and began to call to him softly. “Mellon nin, you must
open your eyes. Come to the light, Legolas. Come to us. We’re here waiting for
you.” His eyes never left the elf’s face. Estel squeezed the elven hand
tighter, as he placed his other hand, palm open, against Legolas's chest over
his heart.
Chapter
Seven
Legolas
suddenly became aware of his own existence. He looked around him and saw only
darkness. He sensed no walls nor did he sense open air. He focused his hearing
but could detect no overt sounds. There was nothing but a deafening silence, so
palpable it was like a distant muffled roar in his ears. He had never
experienced such a phenomenon before, and he almost laughed to think that total
silence could be so loud.
Where was
he? He had to think hard to try and recall how he came to be here, wherever
‘here’ was. *Why do I not remember?* Legolas felt himself rapidly growing
frustrated.
He noted
with anticipation that the darkness was beginning to fade. But, instead of
revealing his whereabouts, his eyes were met with a world of swirling gray. He
shook his head, but he couldn’t feel it. Nor, he realized with dismay, could he
feel his body. He looked down, but saw nothing. He held his hands up in front
of his face, at least that was the command he had given to his brain. There was
no sense of movement and nothing to see. His mind seemed to be suspended in
space, yet there was no sensation of floating. *How very strange,* he mused.
As he
pondered the implications, a feeling of panic began to crawl through his mind.
*Am I dead?* He dismissed the thought almost immediately. *This cannot be the
Halls of Mandos. I should be seeing others of my kind waiting for me.* He
thought of his mother. Surely, she would be there to welcome him. And his
grandfather, Oropher, as well as friends he had lost to battles fought during
his lifetime. This was nothing like what he had been led to believe the Halls
would be like. Had he done something to cause himself to be condemned? Was that
what he couldn’t remember? Was this gray nothingness a place of punishment
where he must wander alone, without a body, for all eternity?
Legolas
made a conscious effort to banish those dark thoughts and try to come up with
an alternate possibility. *Perhaps, I’m not dead after all.* Before he could
gain much comfort from exploring that idea, he thought, *Then, why am I not
able to see or feel my body?*
All the
questions with no answers were only adding to his confusion. “I do not
understand any of this.” He was startled, when he realized he had spoken out
loud. A grim smile touched his lips, as it then dawned on him that at least he
could hear his own voice. He again looked down to where his body should be in
the hopes that it had made itself visible. No such luck.
He looked
up then and saw a form moving in this gray world. It was only a shadow at
first, just something indistinct that was only slightly darker than the gray
color all about him. The shadow undulated, disappearing from sight and then
reappearing a few seconds later only to vanish once again, making Legolas doubt
he had really seen anything at all. Staring hard into the grayness, he saw that
there definitely was something, and it was coming toward him. It became larger
and darker and took on a more definite shape as it neared. The elf stared,
mesmerized by the rapidly solidifying apparition.
Legolas may
not have been able to see his body, but he suddenly felt it quite plainly. His
heart almost came to a full stop, causing a jolt within his chest, and his
breathing became shallow and rapid, as he saw what was approaching him. The
form had finally coalesced into a huge black snake, rising up and hovering
menacingly above him, yellow eyes gleaming and fangs extended. It radiated an evil
that he could almost taste.
Without
warning, it lunged straight down toward his upturned face. He heard a blood
curdling scream and knew it was his own.
Then,
awareness fled, as he was enveloped in a coccoon of nothingness.
~*~*~
Legolas
became aware of his own existence once again. There was no way to tell if he
had been unaware for a minute or a millennium. He struggled to open his eyes,
expecting to see either the darkness or the gray world he remembered. He was
certain there had been something else, too, an evil form of some kind, but he
couldn’t place what it was. The memory vanished before he could grasp it. He
only knew that the thought of it made him shiver.
The elf
Prince was surprised, when he found himself in a world of light. Very bright light.
Where was he now? The wall of light didn’t surround him the way the darkness
and the grayness had done but instead seemed to be concentrated to his left. It
hurt his eyes, but it was so welcome that he forced himself to endure the
stabbing pain, as he struggled to keep his eyes open. It didn’t take long,
however, for the pain to force him to turn his head away from it. The most
intense part of the brilliance faded to a manageable level as he slowly turned
his head to the right.
He saw a
form above and beside him, and he flinched back. Was this the thing he feared
in that other place? No, he soon reasoned. This form didn’t radiate the evil he
had felt from the one he couldn‘t quite remember. His tensed muscles began to
relax just a little. Until he understood where he was now and who or what was
there with him, he couldn’t relax completely.
Legolas
blinked several times until slowly, very slowly, the form beside him began to
come into focus. A human, dark-haired. He stared, as if not sure the human was
real. He was suddenly afraid the apparition would vanish, and he would be left
alone again. The fear of isolation terrified him. He blinked again. The human
was still there. Still, a touch of fear remained in his eyes.
“Am I
really here?* he asked himself. He needed to know, so he brought his hands up
and held them bare inches from his face. *I can see my hands.* A quick glance
down revealed the shapes of two legs and two feet under the covers. An
overwhelming wave of relief flooded through him. He had a body!
Legolas was
almost afraid to move his hands out of his sight for fear they would disappear,
but keeping them in front of his face like this was impractical, so he lowered
them, though somewhat reluctantly. He stared at the human again, realizing
then, who it was that sat beside him. It was Estel, his best friend. His heart
skipped a beat with the sudden joy that came close to swamping him, but for
some reason, he couldn’t make his face reflect the joy his heart felt. He
wanted to frown in frustration but couldn’t manage that, either.
Aragorn was
unable to contain his own joy at seeing that his friend’s eyes were open.
Watching the elf examine his hands with a sense of wonder---or was it
relief?---bewildered him. So did the different emotions that chased each other
rhrough the depths of his friend’s eyes. But, just then, it didn’t matter.
Legolas had awakened, and he recognized the ranger.
“Legolas.”
The elf’s name was spoken with all the feeling Aragorn’s overflowing heart
could command. A huge smile split his face. “Legolas,” he said again, this time
saying the name so softly it was like a breath.
“Estel.”
Legolas's voice confirmed the recognition. It sounded more like a raspy croak
than the normally melodic voice of the Mirkwood prince. His mouth was as dry as
a desert, and it was sore.
“Yes,
Legolas. It’s me.” Aragorn slid his hand on top of the elf’s but didn‘t grasp
it. The ranger’s smile soon faded, when he reached toward the elf’s face with
his other hand to touch his cheek and give his friend a reassuring caress.
In that
instant, all Legolas saw was a slender form coming toward his face. Without
fully understanding why, he jerked his head away from Aragorn and gave a small
cry of panic. He knew who it was, but his reaction was done without conscious thought.
He had no idea why he felt such terror at the gesture. Estel was his best
friend, a man into whose hands he had placed his life many times and would do
so again without question. Estel would never hurt him. Yet, he couldn’t have
stopped his reaction, even if he had been given the chance.
Aragorn
pulled his hand back quickly, not understanding but not wanting to do anything
that would upset his friend. The elf made no effort to pull his right hand from
under the ranger’s, so he either wasn’t fully aware of the touch yet or that
type of contact didn’t bother him. Aragorn didn’t know which was true, but he
had no intention of questioning Legolas about it.
Fear slowly
faded from Legolas's eyes, as he realized he was in a bed. Bewildered, he
looked back at Estel and asked, “Where...?”
The archer
heard a soft noise off to his left. He saw a raven-haired elf come through the
wall of light to stand beside the bed. “You’re back in Rivendell,” Elladan said
quietly. He had the same broad smile that was still on Estel’s face. “It’s so
good to see you awake, mellon nin.”
Legolas
nodded toward Elladan. Wanting to say something to his long time friend in
return, the blond elf swallowed several times, wincing a bit as he did so.
“Thirsty.” It seemed that all he could manage to get out was one word at a
time.
Elladan
picked up the pitcher on the nightstand by the bed and poured water into a cup
that had been sitting beside it. He slipped his hand under Legolas's shoulders
and lifted him up enough for the elf to drink from the cup. The elven prince
drank every drop of the water. He shook his head when asked if he wanted any
more.
“Thank you,
Elladan.” He opened his mouth to say more but couldn’t get any words to come
out.
Just then,
Elrond came hurrying into the room with Elrohir right behind him. Both elves
smiled to see that Legolas was truly awake. It was something that all of them
had hoped for with all their being.
Elrond
approached the bed slowly, not wanting it to appear that he was swooping down
upon the young elf, who he suspected might still be somewhat bewildered. He
wasn’t wrong in that assumption.
Legolas
stared at him, and even though his expression didn’t change, there was also
recognition in his eyes for the elf Lord and Elrohir beside him. Both now wore
the same smile that dominated the faces of Estel and Elladan.
There was
no thought of asking the prince if he could remember what had happened.
Considering what Elrond knew about the origin of Legolas's condition, he was
sure it would take time for the young elf to be able to talk about it. Coming
to terms with it and placing it in the past would take a lot longer. He knew
that fact from experience, though not from the viewpoint of a victim, which had
to be far worse. There was no fear in the archer’s eyes, so Elrond felt sure
that for the time being, at least, Legolas didn’t remember what had taken
place.
“You’ve no
idea how...” Estel started to say long, but decided not to inform him just yet
that he had been unconscious for almost two weeks. So instead, he said,
“...much we’ve wanted to see those beautiful elven eyes of yours open.”
Legolas
spoiled Aragorn’s hopes with his next question. “How long have I been here?”
His voice almost gave out just from putting those few words together, despite
the refreshing water Elladan had given him.
“We can
talk about that later,” Elladan replied, trying to steer the younger elf away
from the subject.
The blond
would have none of it and shook his head. “How long?”
*Stubborn
elf* Aragorn thought but then realized that it was probably that famous
Greenleaf stubbornness that was responsible for the elf’s awakening.
Estel
looked at his father, who gave an almost imperceptible shrug. He decided that
avoiding the subject would probably be more aggravating for Legolas than the
answer was likely to be.
“Thirteen
days,” Aragorn said simply, not sure what the reaction would be. He decided not
to mention that he had also been unconscious for four days before that while on
the road back to Rivendell.
Legolas
greeted Estel’s words with a more intense expression of disbelief. *Thirteen
days?* How could he have been unconscious that long? Wouldn’t he have starved
by then? Even being an elf and not having to eat as much or as often as mortals,
he still would have needed food to sustain his body during all that time. He
knew, though, that Estel was telling him the truth. His weary mind told him he
would have to ask about that later.
Elrond
moved a bit closer to the bed. “I know this may sound strange to you,
considering how long you have been unconscious, but you need to sleep. Good
healing sleep,” he added firmly. “I know you are confused, Legolas, and I am
sure you are full of questions, but after you have some genuine rest, you will
feel more able to deal with everything.” Legolas's mouth, for the most part,
was already healed. It was the elf’s mind and spirit, more so than his body,
that needed true rest.
Elrond
regarded the young elf with a stern yet fatherly expression. It was obvious that
he would not take no for an answer. As if to confirm that fact, he crossed his
arms over his chest. Everyone, even a confused elf who had just come out of a
deep coma, knew what that meant.
Legolas had
to bow to Elrond‘s wisdom and nodded. No matter how much he wanted answers to
all the questions that were colliding inside his head or how much he wanted to
remain awake to be with his friends, he was exhausted. He had fought so long
and so hard to return to the light and perhaps to survive, he couldn’t muster
the strength to fight sleep.
The blond
warrior locked eyes with Estel. After a few seconds, he again attempted to
smile. This time he got the corners of his mouth to cooperate. They barely
lifted and many would have missed it, but Estel did not.
Legolas's
eyelids began to droop. He slipped his hand from under Estel’s and laid it on
top, squeezing his friend’s hand. There wasn’t much strength behind the move,
but it was enough for Estel to understand that Legolas was saying ‘thank you’.
The elf may never know all that the ranger had done for him, but he knew Estel.
He knew the love, loyalty and unselfishness the man would have put into trying
to bring him back.
Legolas
surrendered to the true sleep his body was craving, and he finally closed his
eyes. His chest rose and fell in an easy rhythm, and there was a collective
sigh from everyone in the room. Only the fact that his eyes were closed spoke
of true exhaustion and not regular elven sleep.
“Quel
kaima, mellon nin,” Estel whispered. <Sleep well, my friend>
Even though
he looked the same way he had for all these past days, Aragorn knew that the
elf was getting the kind of sleep he needed. He tried not to think about the
fact his spirit may have been damaged in some way by his experience, whatever it
had been. He knew by the terrifying incident out on the balcony that it must
have been horrendous. Only time would reveal just how horrendous.
Aragorn
forced the thoughts away. This was the time for happiness, not the time for
borrowing trouble where none may even exist. However, he did say a prayer to
the Valar that Legolas's sleep would not be invaded by dark dreams and
nightmares.
~*~*~
Aragorn
never left Legolas's side, as the elf slept until late afternoon of the next
day. Instead of the death-like stillness he had been lost in before, this time
he acted the same as any other sleeping creature. He occasionally shifted his
body, moved an arm, a leg and turned his head from time to time. Once he even
burrowed down farther under the covers and moaned contentedly, which drew a
happy smile from Estel.
In fact,
each of the elf’s moves, no matter how small, brought a smile to Estel’s face
and lifted his heart just a little bit more. He had convinced himself that when
Legolas finally woke up again, he would be the same elf he had known for years.
Chapter
Eight
Legolas
slept until the afternoon of the next day before his inner being dragged his
consciousness back into the waking world. It wasn’t a torturous journey, but it
was a reluctant one. There had been no dreams, good or bad, just a warm sense
of well-being. Well, almost.
Somewhere
deep inside, on the very fringes of his mind, he knew there was a terror he
couldn‘t define. Try as he might, he wasn’t able to grasp it and expose it to
examination. He wasn’t so sure he wanted to bring it to the forefront of his
mind anyway, so the dark feeling was pushed away, as he let himself be guided
back toward wakefulness.
When he
felt himself on the surface, he cautiously opened his eyes, not sure which
world would greet him this time. With great relief, he saw that he was in the
familiar world of light.
He saw
Estel sitting on the bed pretty much where he had last seen him. This time the
man was adjusting the covers that lay lightly over the elf. They didn’t need
adjusting, having been smoothed out and folded and creased and smoothed out
again over and over in the last few hours.
Legolas
watched the ranger’s movements and shook his head ever so slightly. Estel was
fidgeting while he waited for Legolas to awaken once again. He was normally
very patient, but this wasn’t the first time the elf had seen his friend do
little meaningless tasks to occupy his mind while he waited for something to
happen that he was anticipating. It was, however, never done before a battle or
in front of other rangers or soldiers or anyone else who might interpret this
fidgeting as a reason to doubt his ability to lead successfully. It seemed to
be a private thing when only close friends or family were around. It was done
with unfocused attention and always caused Legolas to marvel that Aragorn’s
mind could unconsciously make the distinction.
In an
attempt to ease his friend’s obvious anxiety, he said, “The bed covers look
very nice, Estel.” He was happily surprised his voice sounded almost normal.
The sound
made Aragorn jump. He looked at Legolas and caught the amusement in those
blue-gray eyes he knew so well. He quickly understood the reason behind the
elf‘s words, so he played along.
“Well, I
couldn’t have you waking up and complaining that the hosts of Rivendell keep
their guests in rumpled beds. We have a reputation to uphold, you know.” He
tried hard to look stern, but he was just too happy and couldn’t make his face
do anything but smile.
The friends
were so in tuned to one another that they could comfortably discuss, with
absolute honesty, any subject under he sun. But, they also often used humor to
lighten potentially intense moments.
First things
first, Legolas decided. “I am thirsty,” he said, remembering that the first
time he had awakened he had also had a great need for water There was no longer
any soreness in his mouth, but it was parched and made swallowing hard.
Aragorn
helped him drink an almost full cup of water. “Are you hungry?” he inquired, as
he set the cup back down and eased the elf back against the pillow.
“Not now,”
Legolas replied, much to the ranger’s surprise. He hadn’t had anything to eat
since.... He shook off the thought. He had no intention of mentioning anything
that had happened unless specifically asked. Estel knew the fear that had
appeared in the Wood-elf’s eyes the day before would not be noticeable except
by those who knew him well, and they wouldn‘t question him until they knew he
first remembered what had happened and then was able to handle it. Aragorn
decided instead to concentrate on the happiness that dominated the elf’s eyes.
Legolas did
want the answer to a question of his own, so he asked, “How long have I slept
this time?”
Aragorn’s
smile didn’t diminish at all. “A day. It was yesterday, when you first opened
your eyes. And, it was one of the happiest days I can remember.”
Legolas saw
clearly the immense depth of Estel’s feelings, and it caused he, himself, to
became overwhelmed with emotion. He held his arms out toward the man, and
Aragorn leaned down and enfolded the elf in his strong arms. “Welcome back,
mellon nin,” he whispered into his best friend’s ear.
“Hannon le,
Estel. It is good to be back,” Legolas whispered in return, switching languages
easily from one sentence to the next. Even having no clue as to what had
happened since arriving in Rivendell, he believed that it had been Estel’s
nurturing as much as the elf’s own fighting spirit that had brought him back to
consciousness. <Thank you, Estel>
Aragorn
gave Legolas an extra tight squeeze and then sat up straight with an even
bigger smile on his face. He understood the feelings Legolas had, because he
knew how he would feel in the elf’s place, and having him demonstrate those
feelings this way meant the world to the ranger.
At that
exact moment, Elrond was walking down the hall on his way to Legolas's room.
Glorfindel was with him and asking how long before the truth had to be told,
especially to Legolas. Elrond didn’t have a chance to answer, because just as
they reached the door to the prince’s room, there was a commotion on the stairs
at the end of the hall they were facing, and that commotion was heading up
toward their location. It didn’t take a genius to know what was happening.
Elrond
stood facing the stairs. He exchanged a glance with Glorfindel, who took a deep
breath. They could have been hard of hearing and still would have clearly heard
the booming voice directed at two unfortunate servants. “Where is Prince
Legolas?”
King
Thranduil of Mirkwood had arrived.
The two elf
Lords watched as an imposing, blond-haired elf, looking every inch a king,
strode toward them. His handsome face was a mask of storm clouds. He stopped
barely a foot from the Lord of Rivendell. “Where...is...my...son?”
Up until
now, Elrond had hoped to inform Thranduil about Mordraug before he did anything
else, but he knew that the Mirkwood king would not listen to any explanations
at this point. Elrond couldn‘t really blame him, either. He wouldn’t have let
anything stop him from first seeing one of his children, if their roles were
reversed.
With a
sigh, Elrond stepped back and motioned to the door a few feet to his left.
Almost
snarling, the woodland king said, “I will deal with you later, Elrond. And you,
too, Glorfindel. Count on it.” Thranduil then pushed past Elrond and headed
straight toward his son’s room. He unceremoniously threw open the door and left
it standing wide open as he marched in.
Aragorn
swung his head around when he heard the door fly open. He jumped to his feet,
masking his feeling of dread, as he saw not just that Thranduil had arrived,
but his angry countenance, as well. *He’s going to take Legolas away.* He knew
it with absolute certainty. It was his first and only thought, and for the
moment, it replaced the joy he had been experiencing since Legolas had awakened
the day before.
Thranduil
went to the same side of the bed where Aragorn stood, seemingly ignorant of the
human‘s presence, though in truth, he was well aware of it. He didn’t look at
the ranger. In fact, he didn’t look at anything except the figure lying in the
bed. Aragorn was sure the elven king would barrel straight into him and knock
him over, if he didn’t move, so he backed a few feet away.
When
Thranduil reached the side of the bed, his furious expression softened into a
look of pure love and no small amount of worry. His eyes never left Legolas's
surprised and happy face.
Without
hesitation, Thranduil pulled the covers aside and sat down. Reaching down, he
put his arms around the back of Legolas's shoulders and pulled him up into a
tight embrace. After a moment, he released his hold on his son and held him out
in front of him.
“Ada. You
have come.”
“I will
always come, when you need me, Little One.” Thranduil smiled warmly.
“You have
not called me that in a long time.”
“You have
become an adult, Legolas, a brave and skilled warrior, and I am very proud of
you. But, deep in my heart, you will always be my Little One.”
Thranduil
again pulled Legolas against his chest. He pressed his son’s head against his
shoulder and held him close, as Legolas's arms wrapped tightly around his
father’s back. The elven King absently took a handful of Legolas's loose hair
and pushed it behind his delicately pointed ear, stroking the golden strands
over and over. He put his cheek down on Legolas's head and closed his eyes.
Thranduil
loved each of his three sons and two daughters as much as any father can love
his children. But, Legolas was his youngest, the one that most resembled his
loving mother, who had been killed when Legolas was still very small. He also
possessed her pure heart, fierce loyalty and lighthearted personality.
Thranduil knew he would never marry again. This was his last child, and he
cherished him.
The two sat
for a long time holding each other. Thranduil rocked slowly back and forth. It
was so much like the days of Legolas's youth, when he had held the child after
the elfling had cried for his mother or become upset over one thing or another.
Memories
overtook Legolas as well, as he also closed his eyes, remembering all the times
his father had held him just like this. He felt so safe and secure in
Thranduil’s arms. Adult he may be, but right now, this was the only place in
the world Legolas wanted to be.
Aragorn
felt as if he was intruding on a very private moment between father and son.
There was no jealousy in the ranger’s heart. He turned and slipped quietly out
of the room. His own father, both of his brothers, who had arrived after
Thranduil’s loud entrance, and Glorfindel were standing just outside in the
corridor, having witnessed the whole scene through the open door. They stepped
aside and let Aragorn exit the room.
Elrond
stepped forward and closed the door on father and son. “I do not know of anyone
other than Thranduil, who can go from a furious king to a loving father in the
space of a minute.”
“Did it
take that long?” Glorfindel asked, shaking his head. He looked at Elrond. “He
will go right back to being the furious king, when he walks out of that room.”
Elrond
looked at the closed door and sighed. “I know.” He spread his arms out to
encompass his sons and his friend. “Come. Let us give them some time together
before the storm breaks.”
Only the
faces of the two older elves did not reflect a puzzled expression. Elrond’s
three sons were all sure those ominous words had nothing to do with the
weather.
~*~*~
After what
seemed like hours, Legolas sat back and looked at this father. “I am sorry to
worry you, Ada.” He shook his head. “I do not remember anything that happened
to me.”
“We can
sort that out later, Legolas,” his father assured him. “All that matters right
now is that you are all right .” Thranduil looked hard at his son. “Did that
ranger get you into trouble?” His words were accusatory and bordered on anger.
Legolas
shook his head. “Estel saved me, Ada. Please, do not try to blame him. I would
not even be here or be awake, for that matter, if it were not for him.”
Thranduil
signed. He never had totally approved of his son’s choice of a best friend.
But, at the same time, he didn’t really dislike the human, once he had gotten
to know him. He trusted Legolas's judgment, so if he gave credit to Aragorn,
then he wouldn’t pursue accusations. “I will have to thank him,” was all he
said.
Thranduil
leaned forward and kissed Legolas on the forehead. “I am taking you home, but
first I am going to find Elrond and get some answers.”
Chapter
Nine
Dinner that
evening was somewhat subdued. The four elves and one human that sat at the main
table in the dining hall were all very happy with the fact that Legolas had
finally awakened. It was hard to dampen that euphoric feeling, but the almost
somber countenance of the two oldest elves seemed to come close to accomplishing
just that. It confused the elven sons of Elrond. On the other hand, Estel’s
conviction that Thranduil was taking Legolas home to Mirkwood was easy to
understand.
Finally,
after a particularly long silent spell, Elrohir asked, “Ada, why are you and
Glorfindel so quiet? I know you have to be happy that Legolas is finally back
with us.”
Elrond
regarded the youngest twin and nodded. “Yes, of course, we are very happy at
such an occurrence. It truly is a blessing to have him back.” The joy that
Elrond’s words conveyed, though genuine, soon faded, and he fell silent again.
“But?”
Estel asked. He had no intention of letting his father off the hook that
easily. “Something is wrong. You’ve been hinting at it for several days now,
with all your cryptic little remarks. We think it’s time that we knew what is
really going on.” It was easy to know who the ‘we’ was he referred to. He
stared hard at his foster father.
“I want to
know the answer to that myself,” came a strong and obviously unhappy voice from
behind Aragorn.
All heads
turned to see Thranduil approaching the table. No, one was surprised to see
him. They were, however, surprised to see that Legolas walked beside his
father. The younger elf was dressed in dark blue leggings and a long light blue
silk shirt that almost reached his knees. He wore soft leather shoes. His hair
had been pulled back and put into the braids he normally wore. The elf looked
slightly paler than usual, but he was not unsteady on his feet. Still, Aragorn
made a move to stand up with the intention of offering him help to the table.
Legolas
gave a small smile to his friend and waved the ranger off. “I am fine, Estel.”
At the ranger’s look of doubt, the elf said, “Really. I am fine.” Aragorn
didn’t entirely believe him but decided against making any comment.
Legolas and
his father sat down between Elladan and Aragorn, who had moved to make room for
them.
The King
had not been all that pleased to have his son leave his bed so soon after such
a long confinement and try to participate in the forthcoming discussion, but
Legolas had once again shown his stubbornness and refused to be left behind.
Legolas’
strategy had been to turn Thranduil’s own words back on him. He had reminded
his father that he had just told him he was an adult. As such, the younger elf
had said he was fully capable of making his own decisions regarding himself. He
had made that decision, and he was going with or without his father‘s
permission. End of argument.
Thranduil
had no choice but to relent, short of tying his son to his bed. The thought had
occurred to the elder elf and may have been acted upon, if he had even the
slightest belief it would have worked.
“Elrond,
before we get into anything else, I want you to tell me why you took so long to
notify me that my son was unconscious and no one knew what was wrong or how to
help him. I am his father. I should have been told immediately.”
Thranduil’s voice, though low in volume, was angrily accusatory. His eyes, the
same blue-gray as his son’s, were blazing.
“It wasn’t
my father’s fault,” Aragorn spoke up, knowing that sooner or later, he would
have to make that admission. “I was the one who didn‘t want to let you know
right away.” He looked evenly at Thranduil. “I wanted to wait until after
Legolas woke up.”
Thranduil’s
earlier thought of thanking the human for helping his son just went out the
door. He turned his cold glare full on the ranger. “I hardly think you did that
for my peace of mind. You had no right to make that decision. He is
my son!”
“Ada,“
Legolas said. “Please do not do this. Estel did what he thought was best at the
time. You know that no one in all of Middle-earth can match Lord Elrond’s
healing powers. Estel wanted to give me the best chance to recover.”
“A lot of
good that did you,” the King responded, his anger beginning to mount again,
though it certainly wasn‘t directed at his son. “He could not do anything for
you, could he?”
“I believed
he could,” Aragorn said defensively.
Thranduil
pointed a finger at the ranger and in a voice as cold as ice, said, “You always
get my son into trouble. Stay out of his life.”
Elrond, his
own anger flaring, now felt the need to defend his son. “That is unfair,
Thranduil. The world is a dangerous place. Our children are always at risk,
when they go out into it. Estel and Legolas both accept that risk. Estel has
been injured many times, and I have never tried to blame Legolas for any of it.
“No one was
more upset by what happened to Legolas than Estel. He stayed with him, feeding
him, bathing him, talking to him to try and bring him back. He even put him out
on the balcony every day so he could be in the open air and the sunshine. No
one did more for him than Estel.
“As for
waiting to notify you, I am the Lord of Imladris. The final decision was mine
and mine alone. Do not blame my son.” Elrond spoke with a dangerous edge to his
tone that matched Thranduil’s own.
As Elrond
had spoken, Legolas had looked at his best friend. He had just heard, for the
first time, some of the things that Estel had done for him. He couldn’t help
but smile and nod. Aragorn returned the smile.
Then,
Legolas looked at Thranduil. His expression was hard, though he knew that his
father’s anger stemmed from feeling left out. His look softened. “Ada, I told
you I am alive and awake because of Estel. He is and always will be a big part
of my life. There is no more to be said on that score.” He cocked his head,
almost daring Thranduil to continue his criticism of his best friend.
Thranduil
knew that any further attack against the ranger was futile and would likely end
up in an argument with Legolas. He calmed down, not willing to risk any harsh
words with his son. “All right, I will bow once again to your choice of
friends, because that is what you want.” he conceded with a sigh, though his
tone clearly said he didn’t understand it.
The elven
King looked directly into Elrond‘s dark eyes. “I will not pursue what is
between us any further---for now. But, know this, Elrond, it is far from
finished.”
Elrond
nodded. He hadn’t thought for a minute that is was. Thranduil would have the
last word on this or any other situation, no matter what. Elrond had learned
that much about the woodland King over the centuries.
Thranduil’s
eyes never left Elrond‘s. “You were about to answer a question for us.” His
voice was cool, but his anger seemed to have passed.
Elrond had
known that none of his sons would let the matter of what was going on rest for
long. Now that Thranduil and Legolas had joined them, he knew the time had come
for answers. He looked toward Thranduil, as if to say, ‘Are you really sure you
want Legolas hearing this right now?’
Thranduil,
who had picked up on the meaning of the look, nodded. He wasn‘t sure at all,
but no one else was going to know that, nor would they know that Legolas was
here, because he hadn‘t been able to keep his son away. “Proceed,” he said
curtly.
Elrond took
a deep breath and steeled himself for what he was about to say. For the moment,
he ignored his sons and Legolas and looked directly into the eyes of the
woodland King. “Mordraug has returned.”
Thranduil
just stared across the table at Elrond. He was taken totally by surprise. The
previous angry look on his face had been replaced with...horror. He lowered his
head and stared at a spot on the table directly in front of him. Unconsciously,
he reached over and took his son’s hand in his. Slowly his head began to shake
back and forth. “It cannot be,” he said, not knowing that was the exact same
words that Glorfindel had uttered the day before in Elrond’s study.
Legolas
asked the obvious question. “Who is Mordraug?” He had the distinct feeling that
this Mordraug had something to do with whatever had happened to him. However,
the name meant nothing to him and judging by the looks on the faces of Estel
and the twins, they didn’t know any more than he did.
Elrond
said, “Mordraug is an Avari.”
“An Avari?”
Aragorn asked. He had heard tales of these elves, but he had never seen one.
When he
expressed this fact, Elrond nodded. “You would not have, Estel. Most Avari
disappeared from Middle-earth long before your birth. The few that are left
rarely ever have anything to do with the other peoples of Middle-earth.
“As for
Mordraug himself, we thought he had been destroyed almost a thousand years
ago.” Elrond’s face became a mask, as he attempted to keep it from reflecting
his inner turmoil. He never thought he would be discussing this subject ever
again.
Elladan
said, “The Avari are the ones who never answered the call of the Valar to go to
Valinor, right?” He remembered reading about these elves years ago. The details
escapted him right then, but he was pretty sure about this fact.
Both Elrond
and Glorfindel nodded in unison. Thranduil was still staring at the table.
Considering the intensity in his gaze, it was a wonder he didn’t bore a hole
right through the polished wood.
“All
right,” Aragorn said. “We have all heard or read the stories. The Avari were
tuned to the dark paths and often did harm to the other Eldar in earlier times.
So, what is it about this Mordraug, in particular, that has the three of you so
worried? Is he that evil?”
“Oh, yes,”
Glorfindel said. He was trying very hard to keep a tremor out of his voice.
What he could not keep out of his voice was pure hatred. He looked at the
ranger. “He was one of the worst; mentally twisted beyond recognition. His
heart became more corrupted than any orc’s ever could.”
“Ada, what
did he do that made him so feared?” Legolas asked. His father hadn’t responded
to anything Elrond or Glorfindel had said. The archer frowned, because he had
rarely seen his father react this way to anything. He seemed to be lost in a
world of remembered pain, and a dread had begun to grow in Legolas’ heart.
The young
elf also felt a tiny prickling feeling at the edges of his mind. Had Mordraug
been that evil thing in the gray world? He still couldn’t grasp the memory, yet
he had to force down the fear that was rising within him. Legolas asked, “What
did Mordraug do to the Eldar?”
An
expression of dread passed between the Rivendell elf Lords and the King of
Mirkwood. It was a look that no one at the table missed.
Elrond took
the lead. “Mordraug quite simply wanted to rule the elves of Middle-earth. He
started with Greenwood the Great, because he believed that it belonged to him
by rights, having been ruled by his uncle in the distant past. Then, Oropher
and Thranduil brought their people there and settled among the Silvan Elves.
Mordraug was determined to destroy both of them. Oropher was killed in the
Battle of Dagorlad during the Last Alliance before Mordraug could act. However
it happened, Oropher’s death suited his purpose.”
The elf
Lord looked at Legolas, a sympathetic expression in his eyes. “When Thranduil
took the throne, Mordraug was more determined than ever to destroy him.” He
hesitated a moment.
Aragorn
took that opportunity to ask, “How did he plan to do that?”
Glorfindel
took up the tale. “Mordraug schemed and planned but never had the right
resources at the right time to be able to fulfill his plans. Then, one day in a
dry stream bed, he found a clear amber-colored stone that held the tiny body of
a black snake inside. He, of course, thought the snake was dead, but he kept
the stone, turning it into a medallion, because it was so unique.
“Not too
long after that Mordraug was thrown from his horse, and the stone shattered on
some rocks. Immediately, the snake began to writhe and grow. When it reached a
length of three feet, it crawled up Mordraug’s leg and then wrapped itself
around his left arm. It has been there ever since.”
“What does
this snake do exactly?” Elrohir asked. He was pretty certain it wasn’t just an
ordinary snake. “It surely has to have some kind of special powers.”
Elrond
said, “Once it allied itself to Mordraug, it took on his will and did his
bidding. It was the elf’s reward for freeing the snake. It‘s poison became
infused with Mordraug‘s evil intents. Whatever Mordraug wanted, the snake‘s
venom would accomplish.”
“How did it
work?” Elrohir wanted to know. He, like everyone else who didn’t know the
story, was fascinated.
“The
snake’s venom would drive the mind of an elf into darkness and their bodies
into unimaginable agonies of fire and ice. Most victims lasted only a few hours
and in some cases a few days. But in the end, they all died, because that‘s
what Mordraug wanted to happen. The torture they suffered was just a twisted
pleasure of his.
“When the
poisoned elves were found, their muscles were so contorted they had broken
their bones. Their bodies were twisted into horrible disfigured shapes that
were sometimes hard to recognize. Their faces reflected the absolute agony
their bodies had gone through.” Elrond looked at Legolas, who was staring at
him. “Mordraug’s message was delivered.”
“But, he
did not kill me,” Legolas finally broke his silence. He was now
convinced that Mordraug was behind what had happened to him. “I was not
tortured, at least I do not think I was. My body certainly was not broken.
Why?”
“Al the
others were warnings,” Thranduil said. All eyes turned to him. “He wanted to
let me know that he was coming for me. Then he was stopped, for good we had
hoped.
“Now, he
has chosen you, Legolas, to continue his terror. He wants to keep you alive, so
he can be assured that this time I will go to him.”
Aragorn
looked at his foster father. “How do you all know these things about Mordraug
and his snake?”
Elrond
looke back at his human son. “We were all there.”
Chapter
Ten
“You and
Glorfindel were in Greenwood with Mordraug?” Elladan asked, obviously
surprised.
“Yes,” was
Elrond’s simple answer. Then, he continued. “When the bodies began showing up,
Thranduil asked for help. Glorfindel and I went there, as did Lord Celeborn
from Lorien. We spent many a day trying to untangle the mystery of who could be
killing the elves of Greenwood. We finally found the murderer, or rather, he
found us.”
“He wanted
to be found?” Elrohir asked, still fascinated by the story, though the gruesome
details were most distasteful and disturbing.
“Mordraug
was waiting for us, as we rode with an escort of ten warriors into a forest
near Greenwood that none of us had ever been in before. Mordraug simply
appeared on the trail in front of us. Incredibly, he was alone. He introduced
himself and arrogantly told us his story. He beleived that he and his little
pet could easily defeat all of us right then and there and take over not only
Greenwood but Imladris and Lothlorien all at the same time. That idea was just
too tempting for him to ignore, so that’s why he came forward to meet us.”
“I am
assuming that all this happened before Sauron built Dol Guldur,” Elladan said.
“Mordraug wouldn’t dare have challenged him.”
“No, I dare
say not,” Elrond agreed. “This happened almost fifty years before Dol Guldur.”
Going back
to the subject of the evil elf appearing alone, Glorfindel added, “Mordraug
also wanted us to know that he needed no army to defeat us. The bastard is
beyond arrogant.” The elf practically spit the last sentence out. “He might
well have challenged Sauron, thinking he and that snake of his could actually
win.”
Elrond made
no comment on Glorfindel‘s words. “The snake was loosed among us without
warning. It was a dire battle. There was only the one snake, yet it was so
fast, it looked and acted like a whole writing mass of them. There were
fourteen of us, but we couldn’t kill the thing. The four of us were saved,
because our escort protected us. The snake managed to kill all but three of
those brave, unselfish warriors.”
Elrond
closed his eyes at the memory. “For some unknown reason, Mordraug called the
snake back to him, and he disappeared into the forest. We came to the
conclusion later, that the snake must have had a limited amount of venom. Too
many of our escort were killed, using it up, we assumed.
“We were
left to watch as they died in agony, cruelly being twisted and broken in the
way I described to you a moment ago, their bodies tortured first with burning
fever and then bitter cold---fire and ice. You cannot imagine the horror of
watching something like that. And, nothing I did could help them.”
“Their
screams will forever haunt my memories,” Glorfindel said, his eyes shimmering
with unshed tears. “Those of us not bitten managed to escape, though at the
time, it seemed a hollow victory. Mordraug was obviously furious that the four
of us got away safely.”
Memories of
that day flooded back to Thranduil, as Elrond and Glorfindel relayed the tale.
He looked at each of the younger elves and even the human. His gaze finally
came to rest on Legolas, as he spoke. "After that, he chose just one elf
at a time to kill. We found that odd at first, but then a pattern emerged. Each
one killed was closer to me than the one before, until..." The woodland
King couldn't finish. An involuntary cry of utter pain and anguish escaped his
lips, as he closed his eyes and put one hand over them. His face had paled to
match that of his recently ill son.
Legolas
looked at Thranduil in bewilderment. He hadn't seen his father crumble this way
since his mother's death, even though he had been a small child, when it had
happened. He remembered the agony his father had gone through then. He had
known from an extremely early age that elves could die of grief, and for a long
time, he was terrified his father would do just that.
Legolas's
brothers and sisters had assured him their father would not die, but it took
Thranduil himself to convince the little elfling that he wouldn’t leave them
all without a parent. The elven King believed that it was his children,
especially his still growing youngest son, who had saved his life. Without them
he knew he would have grieved until he joined his wife in the Halls of Mandos.
As Legolas
thought about what his father had just said, his eyes suddenly got wide.
"Ada?" When his father didn't answer, Legolas said more desperately,
"Ada?" The truth hit him like a physical blow. He pulled his
hand free from Thranduil's grasp. He had to grab the edge of the table to keep
himself from falling out of the chair he sat upon. "Did Mordraug kill
Naneth?" <Mother> His voice was barely above a whisper, but it was
filled with horror. The question begged for denial.
When his
father continued to say nothing, Legolas began to shake. Thranduil`s failure to
answer was all the confirmation the archer needed. Suddenly, anger overcame
shock, as he said, “How could you have kept such knowledge from me?” Legolas
wanted to run screaming from the room, but he couldn’t move or utter another
word. He clutched the edge of the table in an iron grip.
Aragorn and
the twins were stunned. None of them had ever heard how Legolas's mother had
died, only that she had been killed. And now, to hear that she had died a
horrible death at the hands of Mordraug was incredible.
Estel
wanted to hug his friend in sympathy and comfort, but he didn't dare. With
things suddenly so raw between Legolas and Thranduil, it didn’t seem the right
time. But, Aragorn vowed the elf would not go uncomforted for long.
As proud as
Thranduil was, he couldn't keep the tears out of his eyes. With his head again
lowered, they fell down his face. The memory of the heartbreaking death of his
beloved wife had hit him full force. He was also feeling horribly guilty that
his son was finding out about his mother's death this way and in front of
others. He should have told him years ago. He took his hand away from his eyes
and looked at his son. "I wanted to protect you, Legolas. You were so
young." It was all Thranduil could get past his lips.
"Protect
me? How can keeping the truth from me, protect me? Were you not the one who
constantly told me to always tell the truth? You said that, when all was said
and done, a person's word was the most important measure of that person’s
character."
The
woodland King had indeed taught all of his children that and was proud that
they had each learned that lesson well. He now felt shame that he had not
followed that sage advice himself where his youngest child was concerned.
After a
pause, Legolas asked, “Why did you not tell me, when I got old enough to
understand? You just told Elrond and Estel that you had a right to know about
my condition, well I had a right to know how my mother died.”
“I wanted
to tell you, but the time never seemed right. And, then I just wanted to forget
how it happened.“ Thranduil looked and felt miserable. He wanted to hold his
son and tell him how sorry he was, but he didn’t think Legolas would let him,
and he couldn’t bear to be rejected. So, he just sat in misery.
For a long
time, no one broke the fragile silence. The twins, though in total sympathy
with Legolas, were still anxious to know what had happened to Mordraug to make
everyone think he was dead all these years, but they didn’t believe now was the
time to ask. It was a question to tuck away until later.
Finally
Elrond sighed. He also had a great sympathy for the young prince. Even though
he didn’t agree with what Thranduil had done, he did understand it. He knew
that Legolas and his father would have to sit down in private and sort all of
that out between them.
Now, there
was one last thing that Elrond needed to tell the young elf. He didn't want to,
especially now after all that had just happened, but it was part of the truth,
and he didn’t want to fall into the very trap that had just been exposed.
"Legolas,
there is one more thing you need to be told." Despite his determination to
continue, Elrond's voice lacked conviction.
After a
moment, the young archer looked at Elrond. His eyes weren’t completely focused,
giving him a dazed look, like someone who had just been hit in the head but was
still partially conscious. There was aslo a deep sorrow there that made the elf
Lord cringe. A look of betrayal resided in the blue-gray depths, as well.
Elrond could well imagine the young elf’s reeling mind and emotions.
Reluctantly,
the Lord of Rivendell realized now was not the time, after all. He would have
to do it, when Legolas was better able to understand and handle the news .
After everything that had just gone down, how could he tell Legolas that the
poison that the snake had injected into him was still in his system and could
be activated by Mordraug at any time?
Chapter
Eleven
Legolas sat
unmoving. His mind was reeling just as Elrond had suspected. Grief exploded in
his head, as if his mother’s death had just occurred. And, his father... How
could he come to terms with the fact his father had hidden the truth from him
for almost all of his life? What must the others think? He shook off the
thought. It didn’t matter. They were his friends and would wish only to support
him. This he knew.
There were
expressions of shock from those around the table, except for Elrond and
Glorfindel, who had always known the truth about Legolas's mother. They had
been there. alfter all. What they hadn’t known was that the young prince had
never been told.
Along with
the shock were expressions of deep sympathy. Just as Legolas believed, everyone
wanted only to help him cope with the revelation. But, they were at a loss as
to how to go about it. Only Thranduil seemed lost in his own thoughts and
memories.
Suddenly
Legolas could stand it no longer. He had to get away. The elf stood up from the
table quickly, pushing the chair back as he rose and almost tipping it over.
The scraping noise the chair made as it slid across the stone of the floor was
the only sound, and it almost seemed to echo around the large room. Without
looking at anyone, the blond elf turned and hurried out of the dining hall.
It wasn’t
until he had left the room that he began to run. He paid no attention to where
he was going, just letting his feet carry him away, as his subconscious guided
him. His soft shoes made not a sound on the carpeted hallway. Walls, doors,
furniture and elaborately framed paintings went flying by as he rapidly sped
down the corridors.
He half
expected to end up in the garden where he could gain comfort from the trees and
the flowers that he loved so much. But, to his surprise, he found himself
running down the hall toward his room. He would have had to go up two flights
of stairs to get there, but he remembered none of it.
Legolas
entered his room, closed the door and slid the bolt into the hole in the sturdy
door frame. He realized now that’s why he had come here. He could lock himself
in and no one could get to him. The garden, while large and comforting, was
confined by surrounding stone walls, and he would have been, if not easily
found, then certainly eventually so.
Legolas
threw himself on his bed. He wanted to empty his overwhelmed mind and numb a
body that ached and had become drained of strength. He wanted blessed
nothingness to envelop him. But, to his consternation, the shocked, raw
feelings remained, and his body shook with emotion.
Yet,
through it all, he couldn’t cry.
~*~*~
Downstairs
in the dining hall, no one had yet spoken. The silence was beginning to get on
Aragorn’s nerves. He felt a great sadness for Legolas, and at that moment, a
great dislike, bordering on hatred, for Thranduil, despite the obvious pain the
woodland King was in. He decided it was time for the comforting support he was
determined to give his friend.
Besides, if
he stayed any longer, he knew he would say something that he would later
regret, though he couldn’t imagine anything he could possible say that King
Thranduil would not have thoroughly deserved. More than anything, he didn’t
want things to get any worse between Imladris and Mirkwood because of any
careless, heated words spoken by him.
Aragorn
finally said, “I’m going to find Legolas.”
Elrond
shook his head and regarded his human son with a large measure of sympathy. “I
know you want to help him, Estel, but he probably needs to be alone right now.”
“No, Ada.
That’s exactly what he doesn’t need. Trust me in this. I know him.” With
a sad smile for his brothers at leaving them in the current situation, Aragorn
walked out of the room.
He headed
directly for the garden, sure that’s where the woodland elf would head in this
time of great stress.
Elrond
looked at Thranduil, who chose that moment to look up at him. “I know what you
are going to say, Elrond. I handled all of this rather badly. I kept the secret
about Legolas's mother from him, and now he is terribly upset.” He sighed
deeply. “He may never forgive me for this.”
“He will
forgive you, Thranduil, though I think he will be hurt and angry for a while to
come.” In an effort to give a measure of comfort to the unhappy elven King, he
said, “What you did was simply an error in judgment. Legolas will come to
understand that.”
“I know my
son has a good heart, and a large one, but this involves his mother and what he
perceives as betrayal on my part. It may not be so easy for him to forgive,
even if he does understand.”
The twins
looked at each other and came to the same conclusion at the same time, as they
often did. There was obviously no more information forthcoming on Mordraug, and
whatever was to happen with Thranduil and their father was none of their
business. They decided to leave the three elder elves to their discussion.
“Ada,”
Elladan said, “Elrohir and I think it best, if we leave now. We will see you in
the morning.”
They each
bowed in respect to all present, gave their farewells and left. They made a
beeline for Elladan’s room, where they could talk about the recently revealed
events.
~*~*~
In
Legolas's room, the elf heard his name being called out in the garden. *Estel
is looking for me.* He sat up and sighed. When he wasn’t found there, he knew
the ranger would be coming to his room. He almost wished he had gone to the
stables, gotten his horse and ridden out of Rivendell. But, he knew that would
only cause everyone to worry, sending out search parties and fearing for his
emotional health. That’s the last thing he wanted to happen. He didn’t want to
spread his misery to anyone else. *Even my father*, he thought, as a feeling of
sympathy momentarily flashed across his mind. That feeling soon reversed
itself. *It would serve him right.* He was far from ready to forgive his father
for his deceit. With an effort he pushed all thought of Thranduil from his
mind.
Legolas
heard his name called several more times and then nothing. He knew Estel would
be on his way here, so it was not the least surprising, when a few moments
later, he heard a soft knock at the door.
“Legolas,
it’s me, Estel. Please open the door.”
There was
no answer from the elf. He wanted to be alone, but if he expressed that fact,
he was sure it would only encourage Estel to be more determined to try and get
in.
“I want to
help you, mellon nin. Please let me in.”
Still no
response. Aragorn knocked once more. After a silent moment, he put his folded
hand up to knock yet again, but this time he paused in mid-air. He opened his
hand and placed his palm flat against the wood. “Legolas,” he said softly.
Legolas was
determined to be alone, so Aragorn knew that he was evidently not going to gain
entrance. He was still convinced that was not the best thing for the elf right
then, but there didn’t seem to be anything he could do about it. He didn’t feel
rejected. He only felt a sadness that he wouldn’t be allowed to try and help
the troubled elf.
Just as he
turned to leave, he heard the bolt on the inside of the door being pulled back.
There was no other sound, and the door did not open. Aragorn cautiously opened
it himself and stepped into the room. After quietly closing the door, he reshot
the bolt.
Turning around,
he was greeted with the sight of Legolas, sitting crossed-legged in the middle
of his bed. Severl crystal globes containing burning candles were sitting on
tables and cabinets all around the room, emitting a soft golden glow. They had
been lit by servants while he was downstairs. It was a nightly ritual they
performed for all the residents of Elrond’s house, so no one ever had to return
to a dark room. More unlit candles were in evidence, so the room’s occupant
could adjust the amount of lighting, as he saw fit.
Silently
Aragorn approached the bed. He saw Legolas's shoes sitting by the bed and knew
his friend was barefoot, a fact he couldn‘t visually confirm, since the elf‘s
feet were tucked under his thighs.
Aragorn
took his own shoes off and then climbed on the bed. He seated himself
cross-legged in front of the archer with their knees barely touching. It was
the only physical contact between them.
In a soft
voice, Estel said, “What you just learned about your mother and about your
father keeping that from you has to be devastating. I won’t try to tell you
that you shouldn’t feel the way you do or that everything is fine. In fact, I
won’t say another word, if you don’t want me to.” He hoped the elf would open
up and talk to him, but he didn’t think that would happen. He wasn’t
disappointed.
All Legolas
did was nod. Silence descended between them and lasted for almost half an hour.
Legolas
spent most of that time with his head bowed, staring at his hands, which were
resting in his lap. He then began tracing the leaf pattern on the bedspread
with his finger. After a while of doing this, he turned his head and looked at
the balcony for several minutes
Suddenly,
he said, “Have you ever noticed that the golden light from a candle will always
push the moonlight away but never the other way around?”
Aragorn was
only mildly surprised by the subject matter his friend had chosen to comment
on. He had had a feeling that, when the elf decided to say something, it
wouldn’t be about what was really on his mind. Legolas seemed to have the need
to lead up to it, and Estel was going to let him do just that.
The ranger
looked out toward the balcony and saw that the candle light was shining out
through the doorway rather than the bright moonlight shining into the room. “I
never really thought about that, but you’re right. As bright as the moonlight
can be, it can never outshine the light that represents the day.”
Legolas
made no more comment.
After a few
more minutes, the elf looked directly at Aragorn and said, “Mordraug killed my
mother, Estel, and she died a horrible death. Then my father, whom I trusted,
deceived me, and I never knew any of it. How stupid does that make me?”
“Oh, no,”
Aragorn said sharply. “Don’t you dare blame yourself for any of this. You
were too young to know what had happened to your mother. Thranduil is your
father. Of course, you would trust him to tell you the truth. It is in no way
your fault that he didn’t. You put all that guilt right out of your head.” He
reached out and put his hand behind Legolas's neck and shook him gently. “Do
you understand me?”
Legolas
nodded, but he didn‘t looked too convinced.
Aragorn
didn’t think he had ever seen a look of such pain in the archer’s eyes before,
and he had been with him during some terrible times. He moved his hand from
Legolas's neck and put it back down on his own knee.
“How could
my father have not told me something like that? She was my mother.”
The tears were so close.
“Let it
out, Legolas. It isn’t a weakness, I promise you,” the man assured, knowing how
stubbornly independent the elf was. *Please, my friend,* the ranger begged to
himself, *let the dam break and ease the pressure in your mind*.
Aragorn’s
silent plea was answered. It took only seconds for Legolas to rise up onto his knees.
The ranger quickly uncrossed his legs and did the same, enfolding the elf in
his arms. He heard not a sound, but Aragorn felt the elf’s slender body shake
with wrenching sobs. Rubbing Legolas's back, Estel patiently let his friend’s
tears run their course.
After
several minutes, the sobbing stopped, but Legolas made no move to disengage
himself from the ranger’s grasp. He was so still and quiet, Estel thought for a
second that he may have fallen asleep from sheer emotional exhaustion, though
he knew it was unlikely. For one thing, the elf’s body was still somewhat
tense, not totally relaxed.
Legolas
finally pulled away and sat back down, crossing his legs once again. He wiped
his tear-stained face with the sleeves of his silk shirt. He turned red eyes on
the human. “Thank you, Estel. It seems there is no end to the things you are
willing to do for me.”
Aragorn
smiled. “I’m happy to do anything I can to ease any burdens you have. You’ve
certainly done that for me on more occasions than I can count.”
“That is
what friends are for.”
“Exactly,”
Aragorn agreed. “Do you feel any better now?”
“I do.”
“Is there
anything else you wish to say?”
The elf
shook his head. “My father and I will have to get this sorted out. I think we
can, but it will be hard. I am not up to dealing with any of it right now. I am
very tired.” That was a rare admission from the normally energetic elf.
“I’m not
surprised. You look exhausted.” He grinned, as Legolas looked at him with a
‘thanks-so-much’ expression.
Aragorn got
up and reached around behind Legolas and pulled the covers down until they
reached the elf’s back. “Scoot back.” Legolas did so. He then slid his legs
down under the covers. Reaching both hands behind his head, the elf undid his
hair in back, leaving the side braids intact. He ran his fingers through his
long hair and then shook his head to loosen the silky strands.
After
Legolas lay back on the pillow, Aragorn pulled the covers up to his chest.
“Sleep,” the ranger commanded, emphasizing the word by pointing his finger at
the elf. “We’ll deal with whatever we have to tomorrow.”
Legolas
smiled. He had not missed the implication of the ‘we’ in Estel’s comment. He
knew beyond a doubt that the man would be with him in whatever was to take
place, not just the next day but in the days and weeks to come. It was a
comforting thought, because he was well aware of what may lie ahead. In truth,
he wasn’t even close to the reality that awaited him.
Aragorn
went around the room and blew out all of the candles. By the time he had reached
the last one, beside Legolas's bed, the elf’s eyes were closed, a clear
testament to his exhaustion. The man put his hand gently on the elf’s head.
“Rest well, mellon nin. Do not dream about your troubles.”
Aragorn
walked across the room toward one of the chairs near the door. He sat down and
glanced to his right. He smiled to himself. Legolas had been right. Now that
the candlelight was gone, the moonlight shone in through the balcony doorway.
He didn’t
intend to stay there all night. He just wanted to stay long enough to turn away
anyone, especially Thranduil, who might knock at the door before the household
settled down to sleep. No one was going to disturb his friend this night.
Fifteen
minutes later, the ranger was sound asleep.
Chapter
Twelve
Legolas
stirred slightly, as he slept. Normally, the deep level of exhaustion he had
reached would have kept him in a dreamless state. His emotions, though eased by
his outpouring as Estel had held him, still ran deep. The intensity of those
emotions would not be denied, even in sleep. So, he entered the elven world of
dreams and now made the choice to dream about one of the happy times with his
mother before she was taken away from him.
A small
smile touched his lips as he dreamed of the day his parents had taken him out
for his first picnic in the forest away from the palace. He was a young
elfling, the equivalent of four in human years. He had felt so grown up, being
allowed to roam around the small clearing they had chosen. A blanket laden with
food was spread out on the soft green grass. Legolas's siblings, the youngest
being almost grown, were not in attendance. He had his parents all to himself.
The three
of them were enjoying the wonderful sunny spring day. Legolas, being the
curious child that he was, soon became fascinated with a luminescent blue
butterfly. He tried to catch the colorful creature, but found that each time he
attempted to grab it, it flew just out of his reach. He giggled happily, as he
chased it around and around, never quite able to get his hands on the illusive
being.
The young
elfling never cried or got angry or frustrated. He just kept trying and trying
to catch the brilliant blue butterfly. His parents laughed heartily at his
antics. His mother’s musical laughter floated all around the clearing, as she
watched her young son.
Legolas's
golden hair, just reaching his shoulders, flew about his face, as he ran this
way and that. Finally, in a move that surprised the elfling, as much as it did
his parents, he caught the butterfly in one small hand. He quickly cupped it in
both hands, being very careful not to mash it. He ran to his mother and with
the love and innocence of a young child, opened his hands and gently lowered it
into one of her hands. “For you, Naneth.”
The
butterfly did not try to escape but sat on the she-elf’s hand, slowly opening
and closing its wings, seemingly secure in the knowledge that it would not be
harmed. She held her other hand out to her son and pulled him close to her.
With a
smile, she said, “Legolas, this butterfly is a wonderful gift, and I know you
gave it to me out of love. But, you know it is a living thing. It belongs in
the forest with its own kind, just as you belong with us. You would not want to
take it away from its family, would you?”
The elfling
looked at his mother and then at the butterfly. His mother knew he understood,
when he said, “If we take it away, it will not be able to see its naneth and
ada any more, will it?”
“No,
Legolas. It will not. So, you know we have to set it free.”
When Legolas
hesitated, his father said, “We can bring you back here, so you can see the
butterfly again.”
“I can?”
the boy said in wonder. He had believed that to set it free meant it would be
gone, and he would never see it again.
His mother
smiled and nodded, and his father said, “Aye, Little One, you can.”
With
delight rather than sadness, the elfling carefully took the butterfly from his
mother’s hand and carried it over to a small bush. He set the blue creature
down and stood back. Its wings waved several times, and then, it flew away.
Legolas
returned to his mother, who hugged him very tight and kissed him on the cheek.
When she let him go, he looked up into her sparkling blue-gray eyes. She was so
beautiful, and he loved her with all his heart, just as he knew she loved him.
“Naneth,”
Legolas called out softly in his sleep.
Then,
unbidden, the dream shifted. He was now an adult, sitting on his horse atop a
ridge and looking down into a broad valley that contained a lush forest,
spreading across the valley floor to the base of high cliffs on both sides. His
best friend, Estel, was by his side. The two were alone.
A feeling
of foreboding grabbed at the elf’s mind, as he stared down at the forest. The
thick canopy of trees was broken in a few places, revealing a trail on the
right side and another on the left near the tree line. The left trail appeared
to head straight toward the open pass at the end of the valley, which was also
on the left side. It looked to be an easy trip to traverse down the left side
of the forest and out of the valley. So, what was there about this forest that
made him so uneasy?
Legolas
shook his head. “I do not like this.”
“I know
this valley,” the ranger said reassuringly. “The forest is thick and rather
dark, but we can travel through it in a day. We can camp tonight and easily be
out by this time tomorrow afternoon.
“Once we
leave the valley,” Aragorn continued, “it’s only eight more days travel to your
father’s palace. As you already saw, when we approached, those cliffs are so
wide that to go around them on either side would add at least three days to our
trip. Your father’s expecting you for that council meeting in ten days with
those ambassadors he‘s expecting. He wouldn’t react kindly, if you missed it.
He‘d blame me---as usual.”
Aragorn
looked at his elven friend, expecting some humorous comment, but none was
forthcoming. The expression on the elf’s face hadn’t changed from the look of
concern the ranger had seen there, since they had first reached the top of the
ridge.
After what
seemed like many moments of silence, Aragorn said, “Legolas?”
Hearing his
name seemed to bring the blond-haired elf back to himself. “What?”
“You were
lost for a minute. What do you sense?”
“Nothing I
can put my finger upon.” He smiled and shook his head, seeming to banish the
dark thoughts that filled his mind. “Let us go. Whatever we encounter, I am
sure we can handle it.” With a laugh, he added, “I have a ranger with
me, after all.”
“You most
certainly do,” Aragorn agreed, adding his own laugh to that of his friend. He
wasted no time in urging his horse forward. The man felt confident in what he
had just said about getting quickly and easily through the forest. Yet, he also
trusted his elven friend’s instincts, so he decided to keep a sharp eye out for
any trouble that might find them, which seemed to be the normal way with them.
All traces
of humor faded from Legolas's countenance, as he followed his friend down from
the ridge and into the forest. His feeling of foreboding did not lessen, as the
leaf-laden branches closed in over his head. He had been right when he told
Aragorn he couldn’t put his finger on what was causing his concern. It was like
an itch he couldn’t scratch. He felt sure, though, that it wasn’t the
possibility of orcs or wargs or other such fell creatures that was making him
uncomfortable. This uneasiness had a different feel to it.
They hadn’t
gone a hundred yards into the forest, when Legolas stopped his horse and
focused his hearing, listening intently but detecting no unusual sounds.
Neither did his keen eyes pick up any unnatural movement. Yet, the uneasy
feeling remained. Even the trees were strangely quiet, seemingly whispering to
themselves but saying nothing to him. That was a little unsettling for a wood
elf, though it did not necessarily mean there was anything wrong. Trees did not
always chatter to him everywhere he went.
“Do you
hear or see anything amiss?” Aragorn asked. He had watched Legolas lift his
legs up and then pull himself up onto his knees, easily balancing on the
stallion’s back. From this added height, the elf surveyed the surrounding
trees. Seeing his friend sit back down and shake his head did nothing to ease
Estel’s mind. He clearly saw that the elf’s tense muscles hadn’t relaxed any.
“No,” the
elf finally had to admit, obviously unhappy that he couldn‘t solve the puzzle.
“All seems as it should be. Even the sounds of the birds and small animals
appear normal.” Those animals didn’t seem to be the least bit wary of the
forest, so Legolas dismissed any significance to the trees’ lack of
communication with him.
Aragorn
nodded and again started forward.
Legolas's
horse snorted loudly, flaring his nostrils and flattening his ears against his
head, all signs that the animal was fearful. That only confirmed Legolas's
concerns. If possible, the elf’s senses heightened even more. Yet, try as he
might, he could not detect anything that seemed in the slightest outside the
norm. He calmed his mount with a few elvish words spoken softly and accompanied
by an elven hand stroking the arched neck. It appeared to work, as the stallion
moved smoothly forward, though his muscles, too, were tense.
After
several silent moments, the two friends came to a fork in the road. Legolas
automatically started down the path to the left while Aragorn didn’t hesitate
in heading to the right.
The ranger
stopped when he realized that Legolas was no longer beside him. He looked
around and saw the elf moving down the left pathway. “It’s this way,” the
ranger informed his friend.
“That is
the wrong path,” Legolas contradicted. “The pass that leads out of the other
end of the valley is to the left, right where this path leads.” Growing up in a
forest and learning to find his way there had given the elf a sense of
direction even more acute than the normal one elves possessed, so he was
certain about what he said.
“Have you
ever been in this forest before?”
“No, I have
not.”
“Well, I
have. The path we take is this way.” He pointed to the right. “The left path
may seem shorter and straighter, but it actually winds around so much,
it’ll take hours more to get where we want to go.” He looked at Legolas. “Trust
me.”
Legolas did
trust the ranger. So, he nodded and turned his horse to the right. With a great
show, he swept his arm forward, indicating that his friend should lead the way.
He waited until Aragorn had tuned his attention away before looking back down
the left path. He still believed that was the way they should be going. But,
his friend thought otherwise, and since the man had been there before, the elf
said no more.
Once they
began moving again, Legolas forced his concerns to the side, though his senses
remained on full alert. He moved up beside the ranger, and the two continued in
silence.
Legolas
noted that the path they were on was indeed relatively straight, angling ever
so subtly to the left. “You were right, Estel. This path seems to be heading
straight for the pass.”
Aragorn
coughed rather loudly. “What was that you said?” He emphasized his words by
putting a finger in his left ear and jerking it up and down. “Say again? I
don‘t think I heard correctly.” He had to work hard to keep from laughing.
The elf
adopted a look of exasperation. “Yes, Estel. You heard correctly. I said you
were right about the path.”
“I think I
should take note of today’s date. Wait while I write it down.”
“Exaggerating
a bit, are we not?” the elf asked.
“Are you
kidding? You never admit you’re wrong.”
“Not true,”
Legolas said defensively. “Not true at all.”
“Are you
going to sit there and deny that you possess a stubborn streak as wide as the
Anduin, not to mention pride beyond belief?”
“Me?”
Legolas, raising both eyebrows, replied in his most innocent tone of voice.
“Yes, you.
You’re the subject under discussion at the moment.”
Legolas
said haughtily, “I think I am rather level-headed and quite practical.”
“You
talk to trees!”
Legolas
looked indignant. “All Wood elves talk to trees. That does not mean that I am
not practical,” he declared firmly.
It was
Aragorn’s turn to raise his eyebrows. He added a hearty laugh. “All right,
let’s go back into history a bit, shall we? Two years ago, summer time. We were
in southern Mirkwood. Elladan and Elrohir were with us. We had just setup camp,
when we were attacked by orcs. Remember that?”
Legolas
reluctantly nodded. He was sure he knew where this was going, and he knew it
wasn’t going to win him any arguments.
Aragorn
took great amusement from the look of dread on the archer’s face. He continued
undaunted. “After a fierce battle, we were all four banged up to varying
degrees. I seem to recall that you had a deep sword wound in your side and a
bone-revealing gash on your thigh. Before realizing just how bad your wounds really
were, I asked how you were doing. Do you remember what you told me?”
Legolas
knew to the word what he had said to the ranger. But now, he just stared at his
friend, looking for all the world like someone who hadn’t the vaguest idea what
the man could be talking about. It didn’t fool the man in the slightest.
“You stood
right in front of me and said, ‘I am fine, Estel. You do not need to worry
about me.’ Then, ten seconds later you collapsed and almost bled to death
before Elladan, Elrohir and I could patch you up. Now, tell me your declaration
of well-being was not stubborn pride. And, that’s hardly the only time
something like that has happened, and you know it.”
The elf
stared a moment longer, and then with a huff urged his horse into a gallop.
“This human must be crazy,” Legolas muttered, as he rode away. It didn’t matter
that this human was also completely accurate in his retelling of the tale.
The ranger
watched as his friend left rather than remaining to argue further. “That means
I’m right, doesn’t it?” Aragorn called out to the elf‘s quickly disappearing
back. As expected, he received no answer, so he just sighed and moved to catch
up with the Mirkwood prince.
Chapter
Thirteen
Legolas's
dream was following the exact series of events, as they had played out in
reality. He shifted in the bed, feeling that something might be coming that he
hadn’t been able to remember. Perhaps, the dream would reveal to him what had
happened to him in those woods. That thought made him shiver. He unconsciously
slid down deeper under the covers, like a child who feared a monster was
coming. He might have pulled the covers up over his head, if he’d known how
right he was.
The elf,
though apprehensive, let his mind continue with the dream. He had to know what
had befallen him.
~*~*~
As he and
Estel traveled down the path, the sun began to sink down below the cliff tops,
plunging the forest into a light gloom that deepened with each passing minute.
The sounds all around the two friends began shifting to those of the night. The
day creatures were heading for their places of rest and safety, as the night
hunters prepared to came out to begin their search for prey. Those prey, in
turn, would soon use the darkness to hide their presence, as they hunted for
their own food.
A large
brown owl suddenly swooped down from the trees and flew across the path several
yards in front of the riders. Wings spread wide, it silently glided toward a
spot to the right. Extending its legs out in front of its feathered body, the
bird spread its talons. The owl’s aim was deadly. It barely slowed, as it
grabbed an unfortunate furry creature and then disappeared back into the leafy
canopy., The screech of triumph echoed through the trees and then died away, as
the winged hunter landed on a sturdy branch and began to devour its meal.
“That poor
thing had no chance,” Aragorn commented.
“No, it did
not.” Legolas looked at his friend. “One must die so another may live and feed
their young. To be born and then killed by someone more powerful or cunning is
often the cycle of life in this world.” He refrained from saying it was the
cycle of mortal life. Yet, the fact that even immortal elves could be killed sometimes
made them a small, though reluctant, part of that mortal cycle.
After a few
moments of pondering the inevitabilities of mortality, Aragorn said, “I think
we should stop and make camp. There’s a stream not far from here, in that
direction.” He pointed to the right.
Legolas
nodded, having heard the water rushing over the rocks of the stream bed half a
mile back. He turned off the path and headed for it. He quickly scanned the
area both upstream and down beside the flowing water before picking a spot that
had an opening in the thick canopy of trees. Whenever he was the one to choose
a campsite, he tried to make it in a place where he could look at the stars
without having to climb to the top of a tree to do it. He often needed to be on
the ground to patrol the perimeter of a campsite and be close in case of
danger.
By the time
they had dismounted, moonlight was shining into the little clearing. The moon
was only half full, so there wasn’t as much light as they would have preferred
in this dark forest, but at least, there was light enough to see by.
Legolas
turned to Aragorn. “Do we make a fire?”
“Yes. It’s
safe enough. I’ve never seen any signs that orcs have ever even been in this
forest.”
“There are
other dangers besides orcs,” the elf reminded his companion.
“I know.
Don’t worry,” Estel grinned, “I won’t let any big brown owls come and carry you
away.” He laughed and slapped the archer on the back. He began looking around
for some wood to build the fire. They hadn’t been able to have one for the last
three days, in an effort to escape notice from unfriendly eyes---or noses. It
would be nice to enjoy the warmth a blaze would provide. It was springtime, but
the nights were still rather chilly. Of course, that didn’t effect Legolas,
something the elf was fond of reminding his friend.
Legolas, as
usual, tended the horses. He removed the packs, throwing Estel’s to him and
dropping his own nearby. He took the saddle and bridle off of the ranger’s dark
brown stallion and then removed the soft leather bridle from his own horse. He
never used a saddle. Both horses followed him down to the stream and drank
their fill. In the elven tongue, Legolas told them to eat all the grass they
wanted but to stay close. They both nickered softly, as he stroked their necks
and then pushed them away, gently slapping both on their rumps. The elf retuned
to the clearing.
Aragorn was
sitting down and looking through his pack. After a seemingly fruitless search,
he slammed the pack down on the ground. “I don’t believe this,” he wailed.
Legolas
stared at him. “What is it you do not believe?” He couldn’t imagine what the
man was so upset about. Then, he said, “Did you use up all your pipe weed?”
Anyone who knew Aragorn, knew how much he loved his pipe. Legolas hated the
foul weed, but he didn’t begrudge Estel his enjoyment of it.
“No. I
forgot to replenish the lembas.” He sighed loudly in exasperation. “This
morning we finished off the last of the food we purchased two weeks ago, and
now with no backup food there’s nothing to eat.”
Legolas
burst out laughing. “An unprepared ranger. I wonder how Elladan and Elrohir
will react to that piece of news.”
Aragorn
pointed his finger at the elf and narrowed his eyes. “Don’t you dare say one
word to them about this. I couldn’t bear to hear about this for the rest of my
days. And, you know that’s exactly what will happen.” There was a look of dread
on his face.
“I will
have to think about it.” Legolas paused and rubbed his chin, frowning in
thought. “I am sure there is something you can do for me to buy my
silence.”
“Buy your
silence?” Aragorn squawked. “Why you backstabbing son of a....”
“King is
the word you are looking for,” Legolas supplied smugly. He had the ranger in a
bind, and he intended on making the most of it. “We can discuss a ‘deal’ at a
later time.” He grinned wickedly. “Perhaps now, you should make us something on
which to cook dinner.”
Aragorn
just glowered at him. “What dinner?”
The elf
took pity on the poor mortal, but not so much that he stopped himself from
laughing again. "We are in a forest, Estel, there is food all around us.”
He shook his head. “I will get us something to eat. Do not worry. You will not
starve. You just tend to your little fire." His tone was patronizing but
held a large measure of amusement.
Aragorn felt
slightly foolish. No, he felt very foolish. He had been so angry with
himself about the lembas that the idea of hunting for food had simply not
entered his head. How ridiculous was that? No wonder Legolas was so amused and
threatening to tell his brothers about this whole sorry incidenr. It was such a
little thing really, yet he groaned inwardly to think again of what those twin
terrors would do with that knowledge. They could take the smallest, most
innocent of happenings and turn it into something that resembled a catastrophe.
In the end, though, the ranger couldn’t help but laugh at himself.
Legolas had
taken a few steps back and crossed his arms over his chest. He was watching, as
Aragorn took several of the sturdy sticks he had gathered and began trimming
them down. When he had finished, he took three of them, crossed them near the
ends with a leather strip so that they formed a triangle. He did this with
another set of three sticks. He set each pair on opposite sides of the fire. He
got another branch that was long enough to reach each set of sticks. Whatever
Legolas came back with would be skewered on the top stick, laid across the end
pieces and roasted over the fire. The man’s mouth began to water just thinking
about it.
“Well?”
Aragorn asked, when he looked up and saw the elf just standing there, staring
at him. “I thought you were long gone. Did you decide you lacked the skills to
find something for us to eat?”
Legolas
snorted. “As if that is ever going to happen,” he muttered so low he
couldn’t be sure if Aragorn heard him or not. In a normal voice, he said, “I
wanted to wait and see what you were going to make, so I would know what to
catch.“ Eyeing the structure critically, he said, “A rabbit, I think.” With
that declaration, he disappeared soundlessly into the dark forest.
The elf
unslung his bow and fitted an arrow to it, as he headed away from the camp. He
would be ready to down any edible creature that made its presence known to the
elf’s keen senses.
Since he
had mentioned a rabbit to Estel, he was hoping that was what he would be able
to find and triumphantly bring back. He wasn’t above trying to get the best of
his friend whenever the situation presented itself, providing the circumstances
allowed for humor and were not overly serious in nature. To this end, he
stopped every few yards to focus on the sounds around him.
Despite the
recent humorous exchanges between himself and Estel the foreboding Legolas had
been feeling was far from gone, but right now, beyond being alert to danger, he
knew he had to concentrate on the immediate goal of finding something for
dinner. He was not going to spend time trying to find a rabbit to the exclusion
of any other food source.
The
darkness wasn’t total yet, so his elven eyes pulled in all the bits of light
that were available, making the surrounding forest appear to him as early
twilight. It was only in absolute darkness, with no light to draw from, that
the elf’s vision was rendered as useless as a mortal’s was in the darkness of
an ordinary night.
Moving swiftly
and yet with confidence in the unfamiliar forest, Legolas approached a
particularly dense grouping of trees. After taking several more steps forward,
he stopped suddenly.
Hearing
something behind and slightly to the right of him, he turned around in time to
see a large white rabbit scamper across his line of sight, moving right to
left. Legolas grinned. It would indeed be rabbit for dinner.
The
creature, running full tilt, disappeared behind the closest tree before the
archer could fire. Legolas frowned that even with his incredible elven speed,
he couldn’t get a shot off in time to bring it down. With a determination that
this creature was not going to get away, he started after it.
Legolas was
running after the rabbit as fast as he could go between the trees. He was as
nimble as the rabbit and kept the little creature in sight but couldn’t stop
long enough to aim his bow. The trees were too close together and allowed no
opening for him to get a decent shot away. He tried that once and lost the rabbit
for a moment before his keen sight picked up movement several yards father
along. He kept his bow armed by firmly holding the arrow in place with his
forefinger, as he gripped the bow in his left hand. He ran on.
Suddenly,
the elf came around a large oak and saw a small clearing in front of him. He
slowed and raised his bow before even spotting the rabbit. Then, he saw that
the creature was just about to dash behind a tree on the other side of the
clearing, when the archer fired. A direct hit.
He walked
over to the fallen creature. Thoughts of roasted rabbit came to mind, and he
smiled. Maybe, on the way back to camp he could spot some mushrooms or perhaps
some edible berries to accompany the meat. He had hardly had the time to survey
his surroundings for delicacies while dashing after the rabbit.
Just as
Legolas started to reach down and pick the rabbit up, he stopped. His intuitive
senses were now screaming at him that something was wrong---terribly wrong. The
feeling was so strong, he couldn’t stifle a sharp intake of breath.
Before he
could do more than register the feeling of intense dread that struck him full
force, there was a noise behind him. He whirled around and was greeted by a
flash of light in front of him that was so bright he had to turn his head away
and put his right arm up to shield the painful assault on his eyes.
~*~*~
As he
slept, Legolas felt very strongly that there was something frightening in or
beyond the bright light that had flashed in front of him. He was poised on the
very edge of finding out what that was. He knew it would take strength of will
on his part to face it, but he was a warrior, one of the Firstborn, so he would
meet this unknown terror with as much courage and dignity as he could muster.
The light
vanished and to his utter surprise, he stared into---darkness. He frowned in
frustration. Was the darkness part of what had really happened or was it just
his own mind, afraid to reveal the truth about his experience in the forest. If
it was the latter, it must have been something truly terrifying for his mind to
hide that knowledge from the consciousness of someone as strong as he was.
Legolas
clenched his fists, gripping the bed linen tightly in both hands. He found
himself experiencing a fear he had never known before, and that alone
frightened him even more.
Chapter
Fourteen
Like
someone searching a deep black cave without a torch, Legolas's mind cast itself
through the darkness, probing relentlessly. The truth was there. He was sure of
it, and he was determined to find it.
As he
continued to search, a light appeared in the far distance. Then, without
warning he felt himself being propelled forward at an alarming rate until he
suddenly burst into the light.
~*~*~
The
brilliance faded leaving only a soft glow, and Legolas found himself in the
same clearing where he had shot the rabbit. With his elven sight, the clearing
now appeared almost as bright as would a cloudy day under the trees. To confirm
to himself that he was in the same place he remembered, he looked down to see
the rabbit lying on the ground in the same spot where he had last seen it.
Feeling the
hair on the back of his neck rise, he looked up and saw a strange elf, dressed
all in black, standing several feet from him. He had never seen this individual
before nor had he seen any elf that looked remotely like him. The elf had black
hair and black eyes to match. Even his skin was darker than any elf Legolas had
ever seen. He knew immediately that this was no ordinary elf.
Because of
the black clothing, it took Legolas several moments of close head to toe
examination of the elf before he noticed the black snake wrapped around the
stranger's left arm. With its head resting on the back of the elf's hand near
the base of his fingers the whole thing gave the appearance of being a large
elaborate bracelet. Legolas couldn't tell if it was real or not.
The dark
elf, who had waited patiently for Legolas to finish his examination, now
smiled. "I see you have noticed my pet. Beautiful, is he not?"
*So, it is
real,* Legolas thought. Ignoring the question about the snake, he dragged his
eyes from the serpent and moved them up to the other elf's face. There was
something in those black eyes that Legolas didn't trust. He wasn't sure what it
was, but he kept his guard firmly in place. "Who are you?"
Deciding,
for the moment, to humor the young elf by answering his question, the dark one
said, "My name is Mordraug." He waited for a reaction, but when none
was forthcoming, he said, "Have you not heard of me?" He watched
closely to see if Legolas was making an effort to hide any recognition he might
have had.
The archer
shook his head. "No. Should I have?"
*So,
Thranduil has not told his son about me and what happened in Greenwood, when
this one was just an elfling.* Mordraug knew that no matter where this
conversation led, he would have the immense pleasure of revealing the truth to
this Thranduilion. To Legolas, he said, "I thought perhaps my old friend,
Thranduil, might have told you about me."
Legolas's
curiosity had suddenly peeked. He couldn't help but be aware of a prickling
feeling in the back of his mind. "You know my father?"
"Thranduil
and I go a very long way back. I have not seen him in many centuries. How does
he fare?"
The remarks
and the question sounded innocent enough, almost friendly, but Legolas's
instincts were telling him that all was not as it seemed. For one thing, he
felt an unexplained stab of fear at the mention of his father. Also, he
wondered if this elf was the reason for the uneasiness he had been
experiencing, since first laying eyes on this forest. He asked, "How do
you know who I am?"
Mordraug
laughed. "I know a great many people and a great many things."
That
enigmatic reply didn't exactly answer Legolas's question. He decided not to
pursue that subject for now. The blond elf decided instead to try and get some
information from this elf and see where it led. Therefore, in a neutral tone,
he said, "My father is well. Did you often visit Mirkwood?"
"Ah, I
had forgotten that the name has changed. It was called Greenwood the Great,
during my times there."
"That
was indeed a very long time ago---before Dol Guldûr." It was Legolas's
turn to observe the other elf's face. He was looking for a reaction to the
mention of one of Sauron's strongholds, even though almost twenty years ago the
Necromancer had been driven out by the forces of the White Council and was now
rebuilding Barad-dûr in northwest Mordor.
Taking a
chance that his next remark might be offensive, he said, "I am sure my father
would have mentioned you, if the two of you had truly been friends." Did
he see a quick flare-up of anger in the other elf’s dark eyes? He pressed on.
"Where have you been for all these centuries that you have lost
touch?"
A shadow
crossed Mordraug's face at the question. His dark eyes flashed in anger once
again. The elder elf took a deep breath. He didn’t want to let this young elf
bait him, even if it might be unintentional, though Mordraug figured that as
Thranduil’s son, the prince would likely be both intelligent and clever.
Then, he
thought *Why not? Let us get everything out in the open.* That decision made,
the Avari said, "I was forced into seclusion---by your father." With
a snarl, he added, "He is the reason I have been gone from this land for
almost a thousand years!" His voice rose, as he made this last
declaration.
Legolas
immediately tensed even more, seeing that the pretense at friendliness was
gone. This elf was definitely what he had been dreading. His fear began to
rise, and fear for his father was increasing accordingly. Revenge was in the
dark elf's manner. Legolas could read that as clearly as if Mordraug had
actually said the words.
Legolas's
eyes widened when the snake, who had until now been inert, lifted up and
hissed, sending its forked tongue flicking rapidly in and out of its mouth. It
hissed again and swayed slightly, seeming to dislike the aroma that it was
encountering with its sensitive tongue. Had the scent of honor and goodness
upset the creature?
Too late,
Legolas heard a noise behind him. Before he could turn around to see what it
was, hands on both sides of him grabbed both of his arms and pinned them firmly
to his sides. He tried to pull free but his struggles went for naught.
Attempting to kick his captures only resulted in both arms being painfully
squeezed and twisted until he was forced to stop struggling. He looked to each
side, noting that both beings who held him were orcs much larger than he was.
He chided himself for being so distracted by the snake that he hadn't heard the
less than graceful orcs approach him. He was sure that Mordraug had counted on
just that.
Finally,
realizing he was not going to get loose, Legolas ignored the orcs and turned
his own anger toward the dark-haired elf in front of him. Much to his
consternation, his anger was tempered with a fear that was stronger than he
could ever remember feeling before, from orcs such as these or from the giant
spiders that inhabited southern Mirkwood. Even wargs had never frightened him
so. He fought hard to control the trembling that began to invade his body. He
knew he hadn't been successful, when he heard both orcs laugh. It was obvious
they were taking pleasure in his fear.
Mordraug
walked up closer to Legolas. He stared into the younger elf's blue-gray eyes.
"Your father rules the forest realm that should have been mine. He
tried to destroy me, when I went to Greenwood to reclaim it. He stole it from
me."
"He
stole nothing from you or anyone else. My father rules because he was Oropher’s
heir. You have no right to our land." Fear was not keeping this prince
from having his say. He had never run from anything in his life, and he wasn't
about to start now. For the moment, anger overrode the fright he felt.
"You
know nothing," Mordraug declared dismissively. "Oropher took what did
not belong to him. He was killed, a death much too easy for him. I tried to
kill Thranduil, but the coward brought his powerful friends and warrior guards
to protect him."
"My
father is not a coward!" Legolas's voice rose in anger. He took several
breaths to calm himself. He didn't want to lose control in front of this elf.
It wasn't just pride that made him repeat what he had said much more quietly.
"My father is not a coward." He couldn't afford to antagonize this
dark elf into doing something drastic. It was just too dangerous, though in
truth, he believed that Mordraug’s course of action had already been well
planned.
"I
would expect you to defend him. You learned at his knee, did you not?
Nevertheless, I know the truth." Mordraug's calmness was derived from the
fact he totally believed what he was saying, not to mention that he certainly
had the upper hand in this current situation.
Again the
snake began to hiss and flick its tongue. Mordraug smiled. It was a cold smile,
completely devoid of warmth. "He likes you," the dark elf said in a
deceptively silky voice, stroking the serpent's head affectionately.
"Perhaps, the two of you should get to know each other better."
Mordraug moved even closer to the blond archer. There was a palpable evil that
emanated from the pair.
Legolas
clenched his teeth. His instinct was to move backwards, away from the hideous
reptile, but he forced himself to remain in place. His heart may be full of
trepidation, but he didn't want to display it to the elf he faced. It wasn’t
until a few seconds later that he remembered he couldn`t have moved if he
tried.
The younger
elf's attempt at bravery didn't fool Mordraug, as he said, "I see you fear
my pet." With a level gaze, he added in a tone so cold, it almost froze
Legolas where he stood. "You should fear him." Those words
sent shivers down Legolas's spine.
"Thranduil
will soon suffer an agonizing death. Too bad you did not see the others die,
like...." Mordraug was clearly going to say more but stopped short. He
decided he would save that bit of news for a later time. "If you had
watched them writhe and heard them scream, you would truly know terror beyond
comprehension. When you die, Thranduil will suffer such an agonizing loss of
one more he loves before he also dies. You, my little prince, will bring him to
me, to watch you die and meet his own end."
Had ice
fallen from Mordraug's lips or frosty air poured forth on his breath, Legolas
would not have been surprised. The words were spoken with a cold hatred that
seemed to chill the air around them.
What had
this dark elf meant when he said that Thranduil will suffer such an agonizing
loss of one more he loves? Legolas's first thought was of his mother. But, what
had her death to do with Mordraug? The archer didn't understand, so he
concluded there was no connection.
The snake
hissed yet again, and Legolas turned his attention back to it. He couldn't keep
his eyes off of the serpent so close to his face. Ridiculous as it seemed, the
snake looked as though it was smiling at him, imitating its master, the look in
its eyes just as frigid. An involuntary shiver went down Legolas's spine once
more. At that moment, he felt more fear for his father than he did for himself.
"I will never betray my father," Legolas finally said in defiance to
the dark elf.
"I think
you have no choice in the matter. Your father will come to me to try and save
you, but his pathetic attempt to do so will be in vain."
Legolas
tried to analyze Mordraug's plan and come up with a plan of his own to stop the
evil elf before he could make good on his intentions. Legolas's heart fell,
because he knew there was truly nothing he could do to intervene. Nothing in
all of Middle-earth would keep his father from coming to save him, and they
would both die horribly, or so Mordraug had said, and the archer had no reason
to doubt him.
The Avari
looked up at the orcs that held Legolas tightly in their grasp. He nodded his
head toward them.
While one
orc moved behind Legolas and pulled his arms around so that he alone could hold
their captive, the other orc grabbed Legolas's jaw and jerked it down and
quickly shoved his fingers in each corner of the elf's mouth and held it open.
The very thought of the foul creature's fingers in his mouth made Legolas's
stomach lurch. He almost gagged. He tried to bite down on the claw-like fingers
but couldn't quite manage it. The attempt brought a painful squeeze on both of
this arms from the orc that held him from behind.
Legolas was
terrified. He didn't know, at first, what Mordraug was going to do. He tried to
jerk his head away, but as was the case with his arms, it was held firmly in
place. He couldn't imagine why his mouth was being held open like this. His
mind reeled, and his heart pounded, as it raced within his chest. His breathing
became shallow and rapid.
Legolas
knew that the vile reptile was not there just to intimidate him. He was certain
it was poisonous, and he was just as certain that he was going to get bitten.
After all the years as a warrior fighting in numerous battles, defending his
home, family and friends, was he now about to die from a snake bite? The
thought was ludicrous, so his mind tried to reject it. It didn't work.
The snake
unwound the top portion of its body from Mordraug's arm and extended its head
toward the elf. Hissing loudly, it flicked its tongue against Legolas's face.
The elf was
repulsed by the touch of the forked tongue that felt like cold, wet leather on
his skin. He clenched his eyes tightly shut, knowing he couldn't move out of
the serpent's reach. It continued to flick its tongue, up and down his neck,
along his jaws and cheeks, across his forehead and along the edge of one of his
sensitive ears and even over his closed eyes. That alone made the elf cringe in
revulsion. But, it wasn't until its tongue flicked into his open mouth and
touched his own tongue with its cold, wet one that nausea came close to
overwhelming him. However, he knew he would most likely only end up choking
himself, so with a monumental effort, he forced the nausea down to a manageable
level.
Suddenly,
the flicking stopped. Legolas waited a moment and then slowly opened his eyes.
He was greeted by the sight of the snake staring at him with its unblinking
yellow eyes. It began to move side to side, undulating, as it rose higher into
the air. It's movements were slow and hypnotic, its head moving in counterpoint
to its swaying body. Side to side. Right to left and back again. Legolas was so
mesmerized that he couldn't have taken his eyes off of it had he been suddenly
set free and told to run.
When the snake
was as high as it could get while still keeping the back half of its body
wrapped firmly around Mordraug’s arm, its eyes flashed with an eerie red inner
glow, and then it lunged down at the young elf’s face.
In a
lightning strike that was no more than a black blur, the serpent's sharp
needle-like fangs embedded themselves in the soft tissue under Legolas's
tongue. His eyes went wide with pure terror, as he felt a fiery liquid being
injected into his flesh. *This cannot be happening! Dear Elbereth, please,
help me!*
He tried to
scream, but only a gurgling sound came out. Yet, in his mind the screaming was
full blown and continuous. He thought his heart would stop, and right then, he
wasn't so sure he didn't wish it to do so.
The serpent
withdrew its fangs, folding them back against the roof of its mouth. It moved
backwards, slithering slowly, as it wrapped its body back around the dark elf's
arm. The serpent lowered itself so that only its head was raised. It continued
to stare at the woodland elf.
The sharp
pain from the snake's bite intensified, causing Legolas's whole mouth to feel
like it was on fire. But, he had no defense against it, nor against the venom
he knew was now beginning to course through his veins. His whole body shook
violently, as somewhere in a distant, detached part of his brain he again
wondered if this was the way he was going to die.
*Ada!* Legolas
was calling for salvation from the one person he had counted on his entire
life. The silent cry went unheard.
Mordraug
couldn't help but laugh at the distress of the young Mirkwood prince, son of
the elven king he despised. The dark elf had waited a very long time for this
portion of his revenge. It pleased him to see such pain and terror and to know
that it was he and his pet, who had caused it. How delicious this was.
However,
torturing this young one was not his main goal, so the joy he felt, as great as
it was, would only be complete, when Thranduil watched the body of this beloved
youngest child being twisted and deformed in excruciating agony until it was
unrecognizable, just as it had happened with his mother all those centuries
ago. Then finally, seeing Thranduil die that same way would be the crowning
glory to his years of rage, frustration and planning. How delicious that would
be.
Mordraug
had waited almost two millennia for his opportunity, and it was now within his
grasp. He licked his lips, as he savored the anticipation of his ultimate
revenge. *Oh yes, that will be worth waiting for.*
On a silent
command from Mordraug, the orcs let go of Legolas, but the young elf did not
fall. He felt as if his body was suspended in midair. Everything began to swim
around him, swirling in waves of distortion. Had he not known better, and he
really couldn't be sure of anything at this point, he would have believed he
was looking at the world through a curtain of moving water. Was he the one
actually moving or was the world the one that was spinning? He didn't have the
answer nor, at that moment, did he have the mental capacity to figure it out.
The last
thing the Wood elf heard was Mordraug's almost hysterical laughter accompanied
by the hissing of the snake. Both sounds fused together and echoed through his
mind.
Legolas
suddenly felt himself being propelled rapidly again, only this time he was
moving backwards, away from the light that was swiftly fading into the
distance. He was soon greeted again by total darkness.
Then, his
shattered mind shut down and all awareness ceased.
Chapter
Fifteen
Aragorn
woke up just as the first rays of the rising sun peeped over the far garden
wall. The golden light shone into the room through the balcony doorway. It was
faint at first but it quickly grew in intensity. The man was in shadow, and it
took a moment for him to get his bearings.
His first
cognizant thought was that he was not in a bed. He glanced around him and saw
that he was slumped down in a green and white brocade chair. It was one of the
chairs in Legolas's room. He had obviously never made it to his own room last
night.
His next
realization was that he ached. He shook his head and laughed softly. He was a
ranger, used to spending the night in conditions far worse than a soft chair,
yet his body ached all over. He decided it was because he hadn’t been able to
really lay out flat. Sitting up on the edge of the chair, he now languidly
stretched his muscles out, arms, legs, and back, groaning as he did so. He even
stretched the fingers on both hands. All of this was accompanied by several
huge yawns.
Looking
toward the large bed, he was fully expecting to see Legolas, lying where he had
last seen him. The bed was empty, which brought a frown to the man’s face. The
elf should have still been sound asleep, considering how exhausted, both
physically and emotionally, he had been the night before.
Aragorn
decided that his friend must have gone down for an early breakfast and hadn’t
wanted to disturb him. *Ever the considerate elf,* Aragorn mused. *I’ll go join
him.* He briefly wondered if Thranduil would be there. He decided to hurry, in
case Legolas needed him for moral support, though he knew he really needed to
let the father and son work out their problem in private. That last thought
didn’t slow him down any, though. Besides, breakfast in the dining hall could
hardly be considered private.
Aragorn
headed for the door. When he pushed down on the handle, he was expecting the
door to open and himself to continue on through. Instead, he slammed up against
the hard wood, causing a painful surprise. The door hadn’t budged. He rubbed
his throbbing nose, as he found that the the door was still bolted. Even a
clever elf like Legolas couldn’t bolt a door front he outside. Turning back
around, he now made his way to the balcony. That was the only other place the elf
could be.
As he
emerged onto the balcony, now drenched in early morning sunshine, he saw no
evidence of Legolas's presence there. He turned and looked to the left where
the wooden flower box, containing Legolas's favorite blue flowers, stood. No
elf there. He then looked to his right. No elf there, either.
Puzzled he
walked to the edge of the balcony, placed his hands down on the stone railing
and stared down into the garden. He was standing a good thirty feet off the
hard ground below. No elf would risk injury by attempting a jump that far,
unless it was an act of pure desperation. He didn’t think that could be the
case here. However, he couldn’t keep a feeling of concern from entering his
mind.
Aragorn
decided that standing there wasn’t going to find his friend. As he turned to go
and see if he could locate the missing archer, his vision swept past the right
side of the balcony. He had already looked there, but now his eyes came to rest
on a figure huddled down in the back corner. It was Legolas, and Aragorn had
almost missed seeing him.
The elf had
his legs pulled up tight against his chest with his arms wrapped around them.
The right side of his head was resting on his knees, and he was staring across
the balcony toward the flower box. His loose hair hid most of his face, as it
fell like a golden curtain down to his ankles. Only his eyes were visible, and
they were unfocused. He didn’t appear to see Aragorn, who at first thought the
elf was asleep. This conclusion soon changed, when he noticed that the elf’s
whole body was shaking uncontrollably.
Aragorn
rushed over and knelt beside his friend. He reached out and took a handful of
sunlight-colored hair and put it behind the elf‘s left ear, the same way
Thranduil had done the day before. “Legolas. What is it? What’s wrong?”
Slowly
Legolas's eyes focused, but he didn’t move his head or look up. “I...I know
what happened, Estel.” He looked to be in shock, and his soft voice quavered,
reinforcing that notion.
Estel
thought that he was referring to him learning what had happened to his mother.
He quickly shook off that idea. This reaction was far too intense to be a
continuation of that occurrence. “What do you mean?” When the elf didn’t
answer, he said more softly. “Please tell me what happened.”
Aragorn put
his hand on the elf’s back and felt the trembling body. Quivering was the word
that came to the ranger’s mind.
It was then
Legolas looked up at the man, who almost jerked back at the horror he saw
reflected there. His friend looked haunted...and frightened. Estel waited
patiently, feeling that pushing too hard now might drive the elf’s obviously
tenuous hold on his self-control over the edge.
Aragorn sat
down beside Legolas, though facing him rather than sitting shoulder to
shoulder.
Legolas
lifted his head and stared straight out in front of him. “I had two dreams last
night. One was of a time from my childhood while my Naneth was still alive. It
was a happy dream.” There was a tiny smile at the memory. “The other was...“ He
paused, closing his eyes briefly before opening them and continuing. “The other
was a dream I did not bring forth deliberately. It began with the two of us on
the ridge overlooking that valley forest.”
He looked
at Aragorn and saw a frown cross the ranger’s face but could only guess at what
his feelings were. He did see concern, but there was something else, as well.
Was it anger?
Aragorn
knew now what it was that Legolas had dreamed about. He had no idea what the
details were, but he was sure it was about whatever Mordraug had done to him to
cause first his deep coma and now the reaction he was witnessing. He became
angry at the thought of what horrors that dark monster might have done to this
gentle, ethereal soul beside him.
The man
knew how hard it would be for Legolas to retell the story, but he also knew
that it would be necessary to help him deal with it, just as he had needed to
unburden himself the night before. Aragorn saw by the look on Legolas's face
that he also understood the need to do so. Yet. it was clear he was reluctant to
speak of something that was obviously so terrible.
Aragorn
waited.
With a
voice that trembled slightly, almost matching the tremors in his body, Legolas
began. The story tumbled out, and Estel listened, becoming more and more
shocked, as the tale unfolded. To the surprise of both, Legolas's voice, which
had begun so softly and tentative, had become stronger as he talked. When he
finished his story, he said, “That horrible snake licked my face and then bit
me in my mouth, Estel. Can you imagine how terrifying that was?”
“No,
Legolas, I truly can’t. I’d be lying to you if I said I did. It’s beyond any
experience I’ve ever had or even heard of.” Then, Aragorn’s eyes went wide in
realization. “So, that’s what you were doing that day out here on the
balcony.”
Legolas
looked at the ranger with a puzzled frown. “What are you talking about?”
When Estel
explained the incident when Legolas had clawed in his mouth, the elf shuttered.
“I must have been reliving that moment in the forest. It was worse than any
nightmare you can imagine.”
Aragorn was
horrified at the story Legolas had just told him, but he knew it best not to
react too strongly. He didn’t want to add to the elf’s obvious pain and fear.
He was sure that Legolas understood that. Instead he put a reassuring hand on
the elf’s forearm, squeezed it gently, and said softly , “I wish I had been
there to help you.”
Legolas
shook his head. “You would have been a hindrance to Mordraug, and he would have
killed you outright. I am glad you were not there.”
“I’m not so
easy to kill.”
The elf
gave Aragorn a small smile. “I am certainly glad for that.” But, he knew the
ranger was aware of the truth of his previous words. The smile lasted only a
second before his countenance changed, and he continued. “I thought I was going
to die, when that snake bit me. I knew it was poisonous. I know now the kind of
death I would have suffered.”
Again, he
looked Estel in the eye. “I was poisoned the same way as all those others that
Elrond told us about.” He couldn’t bring himself to mention that it was also
the same way his mother had died. He still hadn’t come to terms with that. “So,
if I was bitten by the same snake as the others, why did I not die, too?”
Aragorn
thought about it for a moment. He had no idea how the poison could kill the
others and not Legolas, though he was certainly happy that it hadn‘t. “I guess
Mordraug can somehow control the poison. My father did say that the snake would
do whatever Mordraug wanted him to do. With you still alive, he could threaten
Thranduil with your death, if he didn’t do as he said. Dead you were no real
use to him, because Thranduil wouldn‘t give up Mirkwood, if you were beyond
rescuing. You were merely a hostage to get what he wanted.”
Legolas
nodded. “But, he left me in the woods for you to find, and I am safe now. So,
what Mordraug did to me has gone for naught. Letting me go does not make sense,
Estel. There has to be more here than we know. I am sure of it.”
This time
Aragorn had to agree with the elf. He was safe now, so how could that
benefit Mordraug? It occurred to him that Elrond, Glorfindel and probably even
Thranduil had the answer. As soon as Legolas got his emotions under control,
Aragorn intended that they would find out.
“There is
one thing that Mordraug either does not know or does not believe.”
“What’s
that?”
“My father
may want revenge, but he will not risk my life nor his own just for that. More
than that, he would never turn his kingdom and all the elves that live there
over to someone so evil, even if it meant the sacrifice of one of his
children.” Legolas knew this for certain, though in that forest with Mordraug,
he had been fearful that his father would stop at nothing to rescue him. As
King, Thranduil was well aware that personal feelings to the side, Mirkwood had
to come first. All his children had grown up with this knowledge.
It was
after a few moments of silence that Aragorn told what he had done in the forest
after Legolas had left the camp. “When it started getting late, and you hadn’t
returned, I began to get very concerned. I tried to tell myself that it was
just that you hadn’t caught anything and with your pride, you weren’t about to
come back empty-handed. As time passed, though, I knew something was wrong, so
I started searching. It took me hours in that dark place.”
He paused,
thinking back on that night. “I finally found you, lying motionless in a small
clearing. I tried and tried, but I couldn’t rouse you at all. I also couldn’t
find any evidence of a wound or other injury. I carried you back to the
campsite and continued to try and wake you. But, I never could get you to stir
or even make a sound. I have to admit it scared me. I wanted to leave right
then but knew that would be a bad move, and I would have to wait. So, at daybreak,
I got you on your horse and brought you here to Rivendell, totally convinced my
father could fix whatever was wrong. I’m so sorry. Legolas. This was all my
fault.”
Legolas
turned a bewildered gaze on his friend. “How is any of this your fault?”
Aragorn looked
at the elf. “I was the one that made us go down that path. You were the one
that wanted to go the other way. Remember?”
“And you
think that was what caused Mordraug to find and attack me?”
“Yes.” The
entire weight of all his guilt was evident in the ranger’s voice.
“You have
been feeling this guilt the whole time I was unconscious.” Legolas's own voice
held disbelief.
“Of course,
I have. You just told me the horrors you endured. It was my fault, Legolas. I
should have listened to you and taken the other path the way you wanted us to.”
Legolas
shook his head and put his right hand over Estel’s hand that was still on his
arm. “No, Estel. You are not to blame for any of this. Mordraug wanted me. He
would have found me no matter where we went. Whichever path we took, even it we
had not entered the forest at all and gone instead around the cliffs, he would
have been waiting for me. Do you not see that?”
Aragorn had
not considered this line of reasoning at all. He had known nothing of Mordraug
until Elrond had informed them all of the dark elf’s presence the night before,
so the man had just assumed that taking the right hand path in the forest had
led to whatever had happened to his friend. Even after learning of Mordraug’s
existence, he had not thought there was reason to alter his feelings of
self-blame.
Legolas saw
that Aragorn was struggling to come to terms with what he had just learned.
When their eyes met, the elf said, “You have no blame in this, Estel, I promise
you. It was Mordraug‘s doing and none other.”
Aragorn
nodded, but Legolas had a feeling that the man had been so long in the throes
of guilt that the elf would need to say it several more times before Estel
completely accepted that fact. Legolas fully expected him to say. ‘I know
you’re right, but...’
So, when
Aragorn said, “I know you’re right, but...” Legolas couldn’t hold back a laugh.
It was a small sound, hardly the volume or musical quality of the elf’s usual
laughter, but it warmed the ranger’s heart nonetheless.
That warmth
lasted mere seconds, as the haunted look soon returned to Legolas's eyes.
Chapter
Sixteen
Legolas
took a deep breath and unwound his arms. He pulled his body forward over his
legs and rose up on his bare feet. The elf felt a moment of lightheadedness,
but it wasn't enough to cause him to lose his balance, so he forced himself to
ignore it. He particularly didn't want Estel to notice, or the man would try to
convince him to go back to bed. At the least, he would have done his best to
keep Legolas in his room.
When Estel
also rose, Legolas said, "I must talk with my father. I have to get things
settled with him first of all. This business with Mordraug cannot be dealt with
properly, as long as tension hangs between us."
"Are
you sure you're ready for that right now? You're not as steady on your feet, as
you would have me believe."
So much for
hiding his brief dizziness. The elf wasn't really surprised by Estel's remark.
As a ranger, he had honed his skills of observation to a fine art. He had to.
His life and that of others often depended on it, therefore little got by the
ranger. Legolas was grateful his friend hadn't said more, so the elf just
nodded in response to Aragorn’s question. "I have to be." He gave his
friend a small smile of reassurance. "I will be all right, Estel."
Then, he remembered the verbal exchange they had had in the forest, so he
added, "And, it is not because of stubborn pride that I say this."
That remark
brought a smile to the man's face. He gripped Legolas's shoulder, noting that,
though lessened, tremors still ran through the elf's body. He decided not to
comment on it. Getting into a verbal battle of wills with Legolas as fragile as
he currently was would only cause more stress for him. His friend didn't need
the aggravation. It was best to trust him and let him do whatever he felt he
needed to do without an argument. Aragorn would just keep himself near to offer
support, if and when it was needed.
"Do
not be concerned, Estel. I will be with my father." Legolas turned and
left the balcony.
*That's
what worries me,* the man said to himself, knowing full well where Legolas's
stubbornness came from. On more than one occasion, he had been witness to a
battle of wills between Thranduil and his youngest son.
Legolas
stopped in his room long enough to change shirts, discarding the rumpled blue
one he had slept in and exchanging it for a fresh dove gray one. He then put on
his soft suede shoes.
When the
elf finished dressing, Aragorn called his name. "Legolas."
The elf
turned and faced his friend. "Yes?"
With a
grin, Aragorn said, "I saw the rabbit. I knew you wouldn't have come back
to camp empty-handed."
Legolas
appreciated the ranger's comment. He smiled and nodded, then turned and headed
for the door, which was beyond Aragorn’s line of sight.
Aragorn
heard no footsteps, of course, but he did hear the bolt on the door being
pulled back. The door closed quietly, leaving the ranger alone to ponder all
that Legolas had told him. He shivered at the mere thought of it. He also
unconsciously put his hand up to his mouth. When he realized he had done it, he
pulled it away and made a face like he had just eaten a bitter piece of fruit.
He was glad he hadn't done that in Legolas's presence, though he doubted the
elf would have faulted him for it.
Thinking
again on the story, Aragorn knew that no words could describe the trauma such
an experience must have caused Legolas. No wonder he was trembling. Aragorn
felt that if that had happened to him, he probably wouldn't even be able to put
two words together in a coherent thought. He once again admired his friend's
strength of will.
He wondered
if it was the venom itself that had sent the elf into a deep coma, or if
Legolas's mind had driven his consciousness deep inside himself to protect him
from the memory of what had been done to him. He would have to ask Elrond what
he knew of it or at the least, his thoughts on the subject. His own idea was
that it was probably both, though the venom held the edge. It was a thought that
made him very nervous. He couldn't explain why he believed there was more
heartache ahead---but he did.
Aragorn
knew there was nothing more he could do while standing on the balcony, yet he
found that he couldn't pull himself away, as his eye was drawn to the garden.
He walked back to the railing and stood, watching the leaves on the trees
gently swaying in the early morning breeze. It moved across the balcony,
caressing his skin like a cool breath. He closed his eyes and held his face to
the sun. Right here, right now his body felt calm and relaxed. So, why did his
heart always seem to exist on the edge? He decided it was the state of the
world he had to live in. Would evil ever leave them in peace in his lifetime?
~*~*~
Legolas
walked down the hallway toward the room where he knew his father was staying
while in Rivendell. He paused briefly in front of the large oak door. This was
going to be difficult, and he didn't feel the least bit like having the kind of
confrontation with Thranduil that he knew was coming, but it had to be done. He
had meant what he told Estel. The business with Mordraug couldn't be dealt with
properly, if there was tension remaining between him and his father.
With a deep
sigh, Legolas knocked on the door. At first there was no answer. So, the young
elf knocked again. There was still no answer. Along with the next knock,
Legolas called out, "Ada. It is me."
It took no
more that three seconds for the door to open. Thranduil's tall, lean yet
muscular form stood in the doorway. The king regarded his son. The expression
on his face was one that Legolas could not read. "May I come in?" he
asked politely, after receiving no encouragement to do so from the elder elf.
Thranduil
just nodded and stepped aside, so Legolas could enter the room. It was a room
befitting a king. Half again as large as Legolas's own, it was decorated in
white and gold. One end of the room was dominated by a large canopied bed and
the opposite end contained a large fireplace surrounded by a sofa and several
chairs. The pieces of furniture were plush and their wooden frames ornately
carved. It was all much too elaborate for Legolas's simple tastes, but he had
grown up with similar ostentation. knowing his father relished such luxurious
decor.
The younger
elf walked to the center of the room and then turned to face the elder elf.
Legolas bowed is head and crossed his right arm over his chest, his fist over
his heart. He held the pose for several seconds.
Thranduil
was only mildly put out by the gesture. It was usually only performed by family
members during very formal occasions. He certainly did not require it of his
blood kin in private. Legolas had been doing that in similar circumstances most
of his life. The King knew Legolas hadn't done it to hurt him. It was just his
son's way of showing that things between them were not on a comfortable
footing. It exasperated the king, but as always, he just accepted the gesture,
since he had long ago forgone any comment on it. Thranduil sighed. This was not
going to be easy.
Legolas's
respectful recognition of his sovereign executed, the young elf lowered his arm
and raised his head. Forgetting the elf before him was his King, Legolas now
saw only his father. "We have to talk."
The two
were now simply father and son and not king and subject, so Thranduil directed
Legolas to the sofa. After the younger elf sat down on one end of it, Thranduil
sat down next to him. They faced each other.
"I
wish to apologize to you, Legolas," the woodland king began. "I have
done much thinking on what transpired between us last evening."
"Do
you think that an apology will make things right?"
"Not
entirely. I certainly hope it will be a beginning." The King's voice was
soft yet clear and strong.
"Why
did you keep the manner of Naneth's death a secret from me all these years? Did
I not deserve to know the truth?" Legolas's voice was anything but soft.
It was louder than normal and tinged with anger.
"As I
told you last evening, I did it to protect you."
"And,
I told you that keeping secrets was not the way to protect me." Legolas
stared straight into his father's blue-gray eyes so like his own.
Guilt and
regret may have dominated Thranduil's emotions, but he did not flinch from his
son's stern gaze. He was a king and never backed away from any situation, no
matter how unpleasant.
"Tell
me, Legolas, how would knowing the manner of your Naneth's death have done you
any good? Would knowing the truth have allowed you to sleep better at night?
Would it have made your remembrances of her fonder?" Thranduil did not
want to be harsh in what he said, but it was the only thing that he knew to say
to try and get his son to understand his motives.
Legolas
shook his head. "No. It would not. Yet, you have always taught us that
truth is its own reason for being and that truth, in the end, transcends any
sadness or heartache that it may cause. You did not trust me to handle the
truth. Why did you not follow your own teachings?"
"Believe
me, Legolas, it was never a matter of trust. In this circumstance, I let my
heart rule my head. I love you more than you can possibly imagine, and I had
hoped to spare you such heartache. I admitted last evening that I was wrong,
and I admit it again right now." It was only now that the sorrow Thranduil
felt in his heart could be read in his expression.
Legolas
felt for his father. He truly did, but there was one more thing he had to know.
"Did my brothers and sisters know the truth?"
"Yes."
Thranduil paused, and it was then that Legolas recognized that the word ‘yes’
that his father had just said sounded so much like the ‘yes’ Estel had said
earlier, when he had admitted to Legolas that he had been feeling guilty,
because he felt his decision in the forest had led to Mordraug's attack. If not
for the difference in the voices themselves, Legolas wouldn't have been able to
tell which one had spoken.
With a
small start, Legolas realized that his father had continued with the
explanation. "They were much older. You were but a young elfling."
"And,
the secret could easily be kept from me."
A nod
confirmed Legolas's reasoning. In his own defense, Thranduil said, "I did
try to tell you several times, when you were older, but I never could bring
myself to do it. I just wanted to forget the horror of it and remember her the
way she had been during our life together. It is hard to let one event, no
matter how deeply wrenching, ruin the memory of so many centuries of happiness.
For you it was different. You had only a little time with her. I did not want
the few memories you held tainted with the horror of what happened. I would do
it differently today, but I cannot change the past." This explanation was
the best way Thranduil knew to express his reasons for what he had done.
Tears
sprang to Thranduil's eyes then, but he refused to let them fall. The one thing
he did not want to do was let his tears sway Legolas. His son had to forgive
him or not based on Legolas's feelings about what his father had just told him
and not on emotional display, however unwanted and unintended it was.
The elder
Wood elf watched Legolas's face closely and saw the various emotions playing
across his handsome features. He thought, as he often did, of how beautiful
Legolas was, even among a race of beautiful beings. He also marveled again that
his Little One had a heart and soul to match.
Thranduil
knew how upsetting it would be if this precious child that he had raised and
loved with all his heart could never forgive him. He tried so hard not to think
that a foolish, though well-intentioned, decision he had made so very many
years ago could come back to break his heart now. He waited, almost afraid to
hear what Legolas would say.
Legolas had
listened to everything his father had said. He also watched the King's face and
body language very closely. Thranduil was basically honest and straightforward.
However, as a king, he had found that on occasion it was prudent to be less
than forthright in some of his dealings with those from other realms. It was a
necessary game that Thranduil felt he was sometimes forced to play to protect
Mirkwood. After thousands of years of doing it, he had become quite good at it.
Legolas
knew his father very well. He was one of the few who could tell when Thranduil
was being genuine and when he had what Legolas called his ‘Kingly Mask' in
place. It was a mask Thranduil virtually never used when dealing with his own
people. One thing Legolas knew for certain: no matter what game Thranduil
played, once he had given his word, he kept it.
Legolas saw
no deception in the elder elf before him. His father had truly spoken from his
heart. He also hadn't missed the misty eyes his father had tried so hard to
hide. Without a word being spoken, Legolas reached out and wrapped his arms
around his father’s shoulders. "I love you, Ada, and I forgive what you
did."
Thranduil
returned the embrace. It was only then that the elven King let the tears roll
down his cheeks. His son had forgiven him. Nothing in all the world right then
could have given him more joy. There would be many that knew the King of
Mirkwood as temperamental, difficult and fierce, who would be very surprised,
if they could have see him at that moment.
After a
moment spent in the silence, Legolas pulled away. He made no remark about the
tears he saw on his father's face. "Let us go down to breakfast together."
"I
would like nothing better," Thranduil said with a large smile.
Legolas got
up from the sofa and started toward the door. He paused when his father said,
"I have to put on a robe a little more formal than this." He swept
his hand down the front of his clothing. "Wait for me in the hall. I will
join you shortly."
The young
elf smiled. His father was already wearing a robe fine enough to impress most
people, but it did not satisfy Thranduil. Legolas knew that his father also
needed to dry his tear-stained face. He nodded and left the room.
Legolas
walked out into the hall and stood and waited for his father to join him. He
had forgiven Thranduil and had no intention of dwelling on what he considered a
closed subject. He couldn't keep a smile from crossing his face. It felt good
to get that settled. In truth, it would have broken his heart, as well, to be
at odds with his Ada much longer.
Such were
his thoughts, when unbidden, the dream and the snake's attack sprang to the
forefront of his mind. Most times he was good at forcing unpleasant thoughts
from his consciousness and ignoring them for as long as he needed to. This
wasn't going to one of those times. It was just too traumatic to stay hidden
for long. The settling of the difficulty between himself and his father had
allowed for the more intense thoughts to spring forward.
As if
triggered by the memory, a searing, white hot pain exploded through his whole
body. It was so sudden that his knees buckled and it forced the air from his
lungs.
He soon
found himself on his hands and knees, head hanging down, panting for breath.
During his long life, he had sustained wounds, burns, broken bones, animal
bites and other types of injuries, all of which had been painful. However, this
pain was unlike any he had ever experienced before. Agony had blasted through
every fiber of his being all at once. Every nerve in his body was screaming. It
felt as if he was being consumed by flames.
Chapter
Seventeen
Legolas
would have screamed, if he had had the breath to do so. He was certain that the
flames were devouring his flesh. He almost laughed when he found himself
wondering if he was going to set the house on fire. What strange things the
mind contemplates, when the body is dying.
Aragorn was
just walking out of Legolas's room when he almost ran straight into Elrond,
Elladan and Elrohir. He pulled up short and stared at each of them, obviously a
little startled.
Before he
could speak, Elrohir said, “We wanted to check with you about Legolas, but
since you were not in your room, we decided you must be here.”
“How is
Legolas?” Elrond asked. His tone was neutral, though his face reflected an
expression of deep concern. Of the four present, he was the only one that knew
the full truth about the poison in Legolas's body.
“He’s with
Thranduil, trying to sort things out between them.” There was a tone in Estel’s
voice that indicated he wanted to say more. It was clear to his father and
brothers that he was agitated.
His son
hadn’t really answered the question asked, so Lord Elrond just raised his
eyebrows. Estel knew very well what that gesture meant. He had certainly seen
it often enough, so he continued, saying what he had started to say before.
“Legolas had a dream and relived everything that happened in the forest. It was
horrible, and he now knows it all.”
Down at the
other end of the hall, Legolas's name was shouted out. The three elves and the
human were startled and looked toward the sound. They saw Legolas in the middle
of the corridor on his hands and knees. Thranduil was rushing to his side. They
all took off at a dead run toward the two blond-haired wood elves.
Suddenly,
Legolas heard his name echoing from somewhere above him. He felt hands gripping
him. Why would someone risk burning themselves by touching him? His eyes were
tightly shut of their own accord, so he couldn’t see who it was. He then felt
himself pulled over onto strong arms, lifted up and carried. In seconds---or
was it hours?---he was laid out on something soft. Had whoever picked him up
put out the flames? It didn’t feel like it.
He then
heard more voices, talking excitedly. He couldn’t make out a single word that
was being spoken. The sounds were vague, like those being whipped around by a
strong wind.
He became
aware that he was thrashing and tossing, trying to escape the pain. But, he
knew there was no where to go to get away from it. His mind hadn’t told his
body to move. It was the burning agony that was driving the movements, giving
his body commands of their own.
Elrond
looked toward Elladan and Elrohir, who were on the opposite side of the bed and
trying to hold their elven friend still. They were only marginally successful.
The elf Lord put his hand on Legolas's forehead, knowing exactly what he would
find. “He is burning up,” he stated with concern.
Legolas
nodded. There it was. Confirmation that he really was burning. He felt his
charred flesh being pulled from his bones every time he moved under the hands
that were holding him. But, he could not stop. The horrid thought came to him
that if this continued, soon there would be nothing left of him. *Put out the
flames. Please, put out the flames!* he begged, though he couldn't be
sure, if he had spoken out loud or not.
The pain
was excruciating, yet Legolas's mind still functioned somewhat clearly. How was
that possible? He was being burned alive, wasn‘t he? Surely his mind would soon
fly away with no body left for it to inhabit.
“He was
fine a moment ago,” Thranduil said, his voice betraying his near panic. “We embraced.
He had no fever. Nothing was wrong. I would have known.” He looked worriedly at
Elrond. There was also a knowing look in his eyes, and that look was pleading
for the elf Lord to tell him that what he knew to be true really wasn‘t.
The look
was not missed by Aragorn. “You know something.” He tried to keep an accusatory
tone from his voice. It wasn’t easy. He was aware Thranduil and his father knew
more than they let on, and he was desperate to find out what it was.
The flames
were suddenly gone. They hadn‘t died down, they had just vanished. *Thank the
Valar.* Legolas's gratitude was short-lived as cold fingers of ice began to
creep through his body. It now felt like icy mountain water was flowing through
his veins. Right behind the cold came the numbness, and he realized that he was
shivering violently. Elves didn’t shiver, because they didn’t get cold. Not
like this. So, why was this happening to him? He didn’t understand. But,
understand or not, it could not be denied. It was a totally new sensation for
him, and he didn’t like it.
All eyes
turned to Legolas then, as the elf‘s body shook with the reaction to the cold
that had now gripped his body. It seemed as if mere seconds had passed, when
his skin began to take on a bluish hue.
It was
Aragorn this time who felt of the elf’s forehead. Legolas's skin was soft, but
it otherwise felt like a piece of marble that had been left out in the snow. It
felt like...death. Aragorn shook his head to banish that word from his mind. He
didn’t know what was happening, but he refused to believe that his friend was
dying. Not Legolas.
Aragorn
grabbed for the bedcovers to wrap around Legolas's shivering form. “He’s
freezing.”
Elrond
stayed his hands. “That will not help, Estel. The cold comes from the inside.”
The ranger
looked at this father. “What is happening to him? How can he be burning up one
minute and freezing the next? It makes no sense,” he wailed in desperation.
“Yes,
Estel, it does,” Elrond replied. “Fire and ice. Remember I told you last
night.”
“It is Mordraug,”
Thranduil declared angrily, his eyes never leaving Legolas's face. “He is doing
this to my son.”
Aragorn
looked again from one elder elf to the other. He was totally bewildered. How
could Mordraug possibly be in control of what was now happening to Legolas? He
was many miles away. He looked at his twin brothers, but they wore expressions
as bewildered as his own.
Legolas
began gasping for air. He knew his lungs were ceasing to function because of
the cold. They, along with every other vital organ in his body, was freezing
into a silent stillness. He was completely aware of his impending death, as his
physical being continued its advancement toward oblivion.
He mentally
smiled, thinking that soon he would be with his Naneth again, this time in the
Halls of Mandos. The thought was comforting, thought it was mixed with regret
that he wold be leaving all those he loved here in Middle-earth.
Suddenly,
the archer’s body went still, and before anyone could react to the fear that he
had died, he moaned. All eyes remained on the elf, as they waited. When he
slowly opened his eyes, he saw the face of his father leaning close to him, a
frightened expression on his face.
"Ada."
Thranduil's
expression remained one of deep worry. He put his hand on Legolas's left cheek.
It was cool but beginning to warm up. "Ion nin." <My son>
Legolas
realized then that he was in a bed, propped up on large, soft pillows. He
looked around him and also saw the faces of Estel, Elrond and the twins. They
were all looking back at him, as if he had suddenly come back from the dead.
Had he? He remembered the burning heat and then the numbing cold. He had been
dying. He was sure of it.
The blond
archer closed his eyes and took stock of how his body felt now. It was no
longer giving him any pain nor was it numb, but he felt drained and weak. His
body felt as if a great weight was pressing down on him, keeping him from
moving.
Legolas
looked back at his father, and it took a moment for him to realize that
Thranduil had not shown any sign of surprise by the sudden attack he had just
suffered. There was worry and fear, yes, but not surprise. He searched his
father's face, looking for answers. "Ada, you know what just happened to
me, do you not?"
Without
hesitation, Thranduil nodded and said, "Aye, Legolas, I do." There
was now a look on the elven king's face that said he was profoundly sorry for
that fact. He knew he would have to tell his son what was behind the attack,
but he would rather face a Nazgûl unarmed than have to reveal what he knew.
Elrond put
his hand on Thranduil’s arm. “I can do it,“ he said, indicating that he was
willing to be the one to tell Legolas what the young elf needed to hear.
The elven
king shook his head. “Thank you , Elrond, but I must do this.” He knew that
Elrond was there to add support, but he would have to do most of the
explaining. Thranduil sighed and looked at his son. "I must first tell you
what Mordraug did to you."
"I
know what he did to me, Ada. I dreamed of it last night. I relived every detail
of it just as it happened to me." Legolas's voice was soft, as he spoke.
He had already told the detailed version of the story to Estel, and he didn't
want to relive every bit of it once more. He simply told everyone in several
short sentences what had taken place. The shortened version was horrific
enough---to tell and to hear.
Even though
he had known about the snake, hearing the story of what his son had gone
through broke Thranduil's heart. An especially close emotional attachment to
his children had always caused him to suffer, whenever any of them were hurt.
The woodland king was always careful to see that none of them ever knew how bad
it sometimes got. Once Thranduil had needed to spend several days isolated in
his private rooms in Mirkwood to recover after both of his youngest sons had
nearly died from multiple spider bites.
Legolas
watched his father's face and was sure there was more that Thranduil knew than
just what Mordraug had done. "Tell me, Ada,” Legolas pleaded. “What just
happened to me?"
Thranduil
moved his right hand from his son's cheek and grasped his hand, all the while
looking into the younger elf’s eyes. "Legolas, the venom that Mordraug's
serpent injected into you is still in your body. It is my opinion, and I am
sure that of Elrond also, that he has just activated it to bring great hurt to
you. It is his way of trying once again to get to me."
Legolas
just stared at his father. The shock had not completely worn off, when he found
his voice. "I thought the poison had finally left my body, and that is
what allowed me to wake up."
"That
is not what brought you back. I believe it was Estel. I never cared for humans,
as you well know. I never fully approved of your friendship with him, though I
have accepted him, because you wanted me to. I have found out, since being
here, just what he went through to give you back to us."
Thranduil
spoke as if Aragorn were not even in the room, much less right beside him. The
ranger was not offended. He hadn’t really expected anything different from the
woodland king. However, he was pleased to hear Thranduil concede what the man
had done for his son.
Despite
Legolas's current shock, he managed to spare a smile. "I always told you
he was worthy of my friendship, or anyone else’s, for that matter."
As strong
as his feelings about Estel were, the young elf couldn't keep his thoughts from
turning back to the venom he now knew was a living part of him. He turned to
Elrond. "Can you not rid me of this poison?"
With all
the sadness in the world, the Lord of Imladris shook his head. "I am
sorry, Legolas. I know of no way to remove it from your system. Mordraug
controls the poison. As long as he desires it so, he can use it against
you."
Legolas's
eyes went wide in realization. "You mean that he can do this to me any
time he chooses?" He was looking at his father, as he asked the question.
Thranduil’s
face crumpled. "I..."
Legolas put
his free hand on his father's shoulder. "You do not have to say it, Ada. I
know that you cannot turn Mirkwood over to someone like Mordraug. Those of our
people he did not kill, he would turn into his slaves."
"It
pains me more than you can ever imagine to know that I can do nothing. I cannot
rid you of the poison, and I cannot give Mordraug what he wants to free
you." Thranduil came close to breaking down at having to say those words.
He was, in essence, giving his youngest child a declaration of doom.
"Ada,
you know that he would never free me. Even if you readily turned Mirkwood over
to him, he would never let any of the royal family live, even down to my little
nieces and nephews. He would always fear someone in the family would someday
rise up against him. And, they probably would---in time."
"I
love you so much, ion nin, it kills me to know what Mordraug has done to you.
But..."
“But, I am
right.” It was a firm statement. Legolas now knew for certain that he would
die, and it would be pain far beyond what he had just endured. As a warrior,
death had never frightened him, however, the manner of that death sometime
did...like now. Yet, it was the thought that his entire family was the target
of an evil, renegade elf that frightened him the most. If at all possible, he
would use what remaining time he had to try and destroy the one who wanted to
destroy them and thereby save not only his family, but Mirkwood itself.
A plan
began to form in his head.
Chapter
Eighteen
For a long
time no one spoke. Both of the elder elves were greatly saddened by what they
had just revealed to their children. It was devastating news. How could it not
be?
Thranduil,
especially, was almost beyond consoling. He was going to lose his son. It was a
decision that Thranduil, the King, had to make while pushing Thranduil, the
father, to the side. He would have given his own life in an instant to change
the outcome. But, Legolas was the one who had the poison in his system, so that
choice had been taken away from the elven King. He also had to admit to himself
that Legolas had been right, Mordraug would never set him free no matter what
Thranduil did. That knowledge did nothing to make him feel any better.
Elrond felt
as totally helpless now as he had all those centuries ago, when Mordraug had
first shown up. *No,* he thought. *I feel worse, because I have come to love
Legolas, as much as if he were my own.* But, he too, knew that Legolas was
beyond salvation, a thought that made his heart ache. As strong-willed as
Elrond was, at that moment, the elf Lord couldn’t bring himself to meet the
eyes of Legolas, Thranduil or any of his own children.
“I can’t
believe this!” Aragorn shouted. “You are all just sitting here talking about
Legolas's death and saying nothing about how to prevent it from happening.”
“Estel...”
Legolas began.
“No,
Legolas. You are not going to die. I won’t allow that to happen. There
has to be a way to stop Mordraug and save you, and I intend on finding out what
it is.” Aragorn was so distraught and angry that he was shaking. He looked to
his brothers for support.
Elrohir
ventured a suggestion. “We could all go to find Mordraug. If we are fully armed
and have a large contingent of warriors with us, there is no way he could get
us all.”
“Elrohir, I
appreciate the offer.” Legolas said with a nod to one of his dearest friends,
“but we would be sacrificing too many brave warriors to a horrible death. I
will not let that happen just to save myself.” He looked pointedly at Aragorn,
who looked like he was about to protest. “Would you do differently, Estel, if
you were in my place?”
Aragorn
knew Legolas had effectively silenced him, because he knew he would not do it
any differently in the same circumstance. He couldn’t bring himself to voice
the negative answer, so he just hung his head and stared down at the
gold-colored bedspread.
As much as
Elladan wanted to agree with his twin, he had to disagree by bringing up
another important point. “Even if we killed Mordraug and his snake, how
could we stop the poison? We do not even know if there is an antidote to
neutralize it. We could kill the dark elf and still not be able to...” He
stopped short of saying ‘save Legolas‘.
Legolas,
who had been sitting up since the pain had left his body, put his hands on
either side of his head and closed his eyes. His head had started to
hurt...bad. He knew immediately that it wasn’t the poison this time. It was
just a normal headache, though he hadn’t had one in many years.
“Legolas,”
his father said fearfully. “Has the pain returned?” He reached out and put his
hand over one of the young elf’s. He didn’t know if he could stand watching his
son suffer another vicious attack.
“No, Ada.
It is only a headache. I think I need to rest. I feel very tired.”
Thranduil,
as well as all the others in the room, were surprised that the stubborn young
elf would admit that. It did not bode well for how he must really be feeling,
since any pain he had was usually ten times worse than whatever he admitted to.
“Lie back
down, ion nin,” Thranduil encouraged. “Try to sleep. I will watch over you.” He
briefly thought back to the times he had done that for Legolas, the elfling.
Legolas was
about to protest when he saw the look in his father’s eyes. He also noted the
same look in Estel’s. He knew that neither one would be able to conduct
activities as usual while they were concerned about him. That went for Elrond
and the twins, as well. He hated people worrying on his account, but under the
circumstances, there was nothing he could do about it. He did understand,
because if any of them had been in his place, he wouldn’t have left their side
for anything. He nodded at his father‘s suggestion.
He tried
very hard to keep his eyes open, so there would be no more concern than there
already was, but he just couldn’t do it. As soon as he settled back down on the
pillows, his eyes slowly closed. Everyone else present was immediately aware of
the significance of Legolas's closed eyes, and their worry increased.
Elrond
motioned the twins away from the bed. The Lord of Imladris walked over to the
door, and his elven sons followed. In a low voice, he said to them, “I think we
need to leave them alone for now. Perhaps, we can go to my library and see if
there is something we missed that could help.”
He led his
sons out of the room. All three knew that any such search through Elrond’s
books and scrolls would be as useless as those searches had been all during the
time of Legolas's coma. But, they had to do something besides sit and think too
hard on what had happened to the Mirkwood prince and what the twins found out
about the poison in their friend.
Behind them
Thranduil and Aragorn sat on the bed and stared at Legolas. Both of their minds
were filled with sorrow and helplessness.
Aragorn
still wasn’t ready to give up on his best friend. He would never give
up---never---not as long as the elf drew breath, and that was something that
the man was determined to see continue to happen.
Thranduil,
who had known the truth about the venom, had already surrendered all hope. All
he wanted to do now was spend as much time with his son as he could. He
mentally cursed Mordraug and his maniacal idea that he was the rightful ruler
of Mirkwood. There was no truth to it, but because of that false belief in the
mind of an insane elf, Thranduil was to lose his youngest child. He put his
right hand over his eyes and sobbed silently and bitterly.
Aragorn was
so full of anger, he could barely keep himself still. He watched Legolas sleep,
not knowing if any second the archer would have another cruel attack. The
thought that Mordraug could do this to his friend as often as he wished until
he received what he wanted infuriated the ranger. To Aragorn’s way of thinking,
no elf deserved to suffer the way the elves all those years ago had, but none
deserved it less than this elf.
The elven
king and the human ranger spoke little for the rest of the day. Legolas slept
soundly, and they kept their vigil. The twins brought two food trays to the
room for their brother and the king at lunchtime, but neither felt like eating
anything. The trays were left.
When asked
by Aragorn if anything had been found in Elrond‘s library, Elladan shook his
head. The man hadn’t really expected the answer to be any different.
~*~*~
Just as the
sun was sinking below the western horizon, Legolas woke up. He smiled when he
saw his father and best friend by his side. The smile remained, even after the
joy in his heart faded. He felt far worse for them and what he knew they
felt than he did for his own impending death. He would have given anything to
spare them what they would go through when he finally passed into the Halls of
Mandos. He also felt bad that his father would have to return to Mirkwood with
his body and explain to his brothers and sisters that their little brother had
suffered the same fate as their naneth had. Still, he was glad it was him and neither
Thranduil nor Estel that would be leaving this life. He held on to the belief
that they would recover in time.
It was then
that Aragorn noticed the elf’s eyes were open. “Legolas.”
At the
sound of his son’s name, Thranduil turned his head to face the young elf. “Ion
nin. you are awake. How do you fare?”
“I am all
right, Ada. My head no longer pains me.” He gave his father and then Aragorn a
reassuring nod. He was glad that he spoke the truth. The headache had indeed
disappeared.
The young
elf noticed that the sun had set and soft globes of light from candles were lit
around the room.
“Neither of
you have eaten all day, have you?” He didn’t need to see the untouched food
trays to know that. “You both must not worry so. I have accepted my fate.” He
looked at his father and saw that he had, as well. The look on the ranger’s
face was far different. “I wish you would, Estel.”
“No, I
won’t, and I can’t believe that you would give up on yourself.” He tried to
keep the anger out of his voice, but it was there despite the effort.
“I have
never been one to give up. You know that, Estel. But I also have never held on
to false hope, when all genuine hope is gone.”
“More of
your elven logic.”
“I am a
logical elf, “ Legolas replied. There was no need to mention that he could be a
very emotional one, as well. “Do not fight against reality, Estel. It will only
cause you heartache.”
“And, you
think your death won’t?”
“See? You
have finally accepted the inevitable.”
Aragorn
took a deep breath and let it out slowly. He did not want to spend time arguing
with Legolas. He’d be crushed if the argument somehow triggered another attack.
“You are too stubborn for you own good.”
“So, I have
been told,” Legolas said with mild amusement, looking at both his friend and
his father.
The king
had been privy to many such exchanges between his son and the human. It still
confused Thranduil, but he had never been able to turn Legolas from his chosen
path of having this man for a friend. Now, he found himself glad that he had
not.
“Ada, I wish
to go back to my own room. I want to be alone for a while before the evening
meal. I am all right, and I promise that I will seek help if anything happens.”
That remark
didn’t ease Thranduil’s concerns any, since an attack would leave his son
totally helpless and unable to do anything to aid himself. But, the last thing
he wanted was to waste time arguing with his son. He nodded. “We will eat
together.”
“Later
tonight, please. I am not hungry now.”
Again
Thranduil nodded.
Both
Thranduil and Aragorn stood up and moved so that Legolas could get out of the
bed. The elf was surprised and happy that he felt neither pain nor dizziness.
"Until later." He gave his father a quick embrace. He wanted to hold
him tight and tell him goodbye, but he knew he couldn't let Thranduil suspect
what he was planning. He simply smiled, turning quickly so no one would see the
look in his eyes. He left the room.
Legolas
hadn't turned quickly enough. There was something in Legolas's eyes as he left
that stirred a feeling of foreboding in the man's heart. He knew that look. He
turned to Thranduil. "I will see that he arrives at his room in good
order." With no further words, he followed his friend out of the room and
down the hall.
When
Legolas reached his room, he opened the door and started inside. Before he
could close it, Aragorn was standing there. He pushed himself past the elf and
entered the room without asking for permission. His voice was angry as he
turned on his friend and asked, “Just when were you planning to leave? While we
were all at dinner? Or, did you intend on sneaking out in the middle of the
night?””
“I do not
know what you mean.”
“You know
exactly what I mean. I know you too well, Legolas. You intend on going to find
Mordraug and try to destroy him by yourself.” He moved closer to the elf.
“That’s true, isn’t it?” His question was accusatory and harsh.
Legolas
sighed. Estel did know him too well. It was a waste of time to deny it. “I
must,” was his only reply.
“Why? Don’t
you know he’ll kill you.”
Legolas put
his hand on Aragorn’s shoulder and looked evenly into his eyes. In a soft
voice, he said, “He already has, Estel. Deep down you know this as surely as I
do.”
“I know no
such thing. I will never let you just resign yourself to death. I told you
there has to be an answer.”
“There is,
but you do not wish to hear it.” Legolas's voice was calm, and it seemed to
rouse Aragorn’s anger even more.
“I will
never accept that, you infuriating elf! You are not going to die. Not in
my lifetime. You are immortal, and you must live until it‘s time for you to
sail to the West.”
“Not all
elves reach Valinor.”
Aragorn‘s
shoulders slumped just the tiniest bit. “You aren’t going to change your mind,
are you?”
“No.”
“Then, I’m
going with you. The two of us have a better chance anyway.”
The entire
time Aragorn was making his declaration, Legolas was shaking his head.. “I must
do this alone.”
“Why?”
Legolas
brushed past the ranger and walked over to his bed. Aragorn followed. He held
his arms out in front of him with his palms up in a pleading gesture. “Just
tell me why.”
The elf
stepped around Aragorn. The maneuver forced the man to turn until his back was
to the bed. When Legolas had the ranger positioned exactly where he wanted him,
he said, “Because, you have not been poisoned. I have.”
In a
lightning fast move, Legolas clenched his fist, pulled his arm back and swung
it forward, hitting the ranger on the jaw---hard. Aragorn saw it coming but
could do nothing in time to stop it. He fell back limply onto the bed.
Legolas
lifted his friend up and carefully laid him down lengthwise on the bed. He
gently rested Estel’s head on the large pillow. When he stood, he looked down
at the man’s face. “Please forgive me for this, Estel. It was necessary.” With
a sigh, he turned and walked out onto the balcony for the last time.
The elf
stood and looked out over the garden. How beautiful it was in the silvery glow
of the full moon, which had now risen above the treetops. How he would miss
this scene that had given him so much pleasure. He started to turn back, when a
breeze brought to him the scent of his favorite blue flowers in the wooden box
at the left end of the balcony. A smile touched his lips.
He walked
over and bent down, holding two of the flowers in the cupped palms of each
hand. He released the one in his left hand and slid his right hand a couple of
inches down the stem of the other one. With a quick twist, he snapped it
neatly. He put the flower under his nose and breathed in deeply, closing his
eyes and relishing the strong fragrance. It soothed his Silvan soul.
He turned
and went back into the room and sat down at the small desk near the doorway.
There was a lit candle in a crystal globe near the edge, and he pulled it
closer as he opened a drawer and pulled out a pen, ink bottle and two pieces of
parchment. With little hesitation, he began to write.
Before
long, he laid the pen down and swiftly glanced over what he had written on both
sheets of paper before nodding and signing his name to each. Once he was sure
all the ink was dry, Legolas carefully folded the papers separately and wrote a
name on the outside of them.
The elf
stood up, picking up the papers and the flower. He walked over to where Aragorn
lay. He lifted the man’s left arm and set the papers next to each other on the
bed with the flower on top of one of them. He lowered Aragorn’s arm so that his
hand rested on the papers and his fingers encircled the blue flower. Then, he
walked over to where his quiver rested on a table next to one wall. He took out
one of the green-fletched arrows that he had lovingly made himself, as he had
all of his arrows. He went back and laid it down next to Estel.
He leaned
over and placed the palm of his hand on Estel‘s chest over his heart. “Namarie,
mellon nin.” <Farewell, my friend.>
Legolas
gathered his weapons. With one last look around the room and then at his
friend, the elf silently slipped out of the room.
Chapter
Nineteen
Aragorn
woke up and found himself staring up at the flickering candle light, as it
danced on the ceiling above him. Why was he lying in a bed? One glance around
told him he was still in Legolas's room. What had happened between himself and
the elf came back to him. “He hit me,” the ranger said aloud, remembering the
elven fist that had come smashing into his face. He hadn’t been able to stop
it. Aragorn sat up and gently rubbed the tender spot on his jaw, knowing by the
pain of it that it was bruised.
Aragorn
then became aware of something under his left hand. It felt cool and soft
against his fingers. He looked down and saw a blue flower cradled under his
left hand. He gently picked it up and stared down at its simple beauty. Without
even sniffing, the fragrance reached his nose. *Oh, Legolas.*
He looked
down again and spotted the folded papers. He saw that one had the word Estel
written in Westron in the center. With hands that were shaking slightly, he
unfolded the parchment. Inside he found a letter written in Sindarin in the
neat, precise hand of his friend. He began to read.
Dearest
Estel,
By the time
you find this, I will be gone. I regret that I had to leave you behind. Please
do not be angry with me. I would love to have had you by my side one more time
on the last journey of my life. But, it could not be.
You are a
great man, Estel, and one day, all of Middle-earth will know it also. I believe
that your destiny will be one of legend. Mine is to try and see that such a
thing will take place.
You have
been a light in my life. Never would I have thought, all those years ago, that
a human child would grow up to become so dear to me. Your heart has been true
and your actions noble and honorable. Keep it so, and do not despair, even in the
darkest of hours, for the light will always return, and you must be ready to
greet it.
Thank you,
Estel, for all the devotion and companionship you have given me through the
years. It has been one of the greatest joys of my life to have called you my friend.
My wish for
you is a heart full of happiness, always.
Legolas
Aragorn
just sat and stared at the letter, rereading it over and over. Soon, the tears
in his eyes blurred his vision until the page was no longer readable. It didn’t
matter, for he had already committed every word to memory. He folded the paper
and laid it down next to the flower.
The second
paper had Thranduil’s name on the front. The man dreaded the thought of having
to give this letter to the woodland King. He knew it would cause a pain even
greater than his own.
Aragorn
picked up the arrow that lay beside him. He ran his fingers along the smooth,
almost polished surface of the wooden shaft. The arrowhead was of a design that
Legolas had created himself, when he had become a warrior. The green fletchings
were perfectly formed and attached to the shaft with great care. Even an
inexperienced eye could see that this arrow would fly far and true. In the
talented hands of the youngest Prince of Mirkwood, it would never have missed
its mark.
Aragorn
clutched the arrow to his chest and closed his eyes, believing, at that moment,
that he would never see his best friend again.
Chapter
Twenty
In Elrond’s
library, the Lord of Imladris and his two elven sons were deep in their search
for answers. Elrond himself wasn’t sure why they were really there. He had gone
over and over everything that could even remotely be associated with what had
happened to Legolas, and there was precious little of it.
He had done
extensive research on snakes in general and unusual ones in particular once he
had realized that Legolas's condition was due to Mordraug. There was nothing
that resembled the snake the dark elf was using as a weapon. It seemed that the
snake and his abilities were unique in all of Middle-earth, at least as far as
he was able to tell. The snake had been embedded in an amber stone. There was
no way to know how long it had been there. He doubted that even Mordraug knew
its origins, not that he probably cared over much. It did his bidding, and that
was surely all the dark elf was interested in.
Elrond and
his sons had been there for close to an hour, when Glorfindel knocked on the
door. At Elrond’s invitation, he entered the library. “Could you use some
help?”
“We would
appreciate it,” Elrond said, smiling at his old friend.
“I just
talked to Thranduil,” Glorfindel stated. When all eyes turned to him in
surprise, he shrugged. “I know he and I do not exactly see eye to eye most of
the time, but I am concerned about Legolas. He told me, just now, everything
that happened to Legolas in the forest, as well as the cruel attack he just
suffered. All of it is dreadful beyond words. I still cannot believe that what
Mordraug did almost a thousand years ago is happening all over again.”
Elrond
sighed. “I have a hard time believing that also, except I saw with my own eyes
what Mordraug just did to Legolas. We need to find something that will help
him.” His words were determined, but his tone held little hope.
Glorfindel
sat down on the sofa next to Elladan and picked up a book. He was sure that he
had read that same book recently, but maybe there was something he hadn’t
noticed before that would stand out now. It was unlikely, but he would read the
book upside down and backwards, if it meant he might find something to help the
young Wood elf.
The four
elves turned their attention to the research. The only sound in the room was
the occasional rustling of a page, as it was turned. From time to time one or
another of the elves would go to a shelf and choose another book, replacing it
with the one already studied. The spirits of all four gradually grew
increasingly frustrated.
“This is a
waste of time!” Elrohir said after a while, as he slammed a book shut. “There
is nothing in any of these books,” he swept his arm around to encompass the
whole room, “that will tell us how to fight the venom. I think we all know that
by now.”
Elrond
understood his son’s despair, but it was Elladan that spoke first. “We have to
keep trying. I do not think any of us want to give up on Legolas.”
“That is
not what I meant,” Elrohir said defensively. “The answer we seek is not to be
found in anything here. We must look elsewhere.”
Elladan
looked at his twin. “And, just where is ‘elsewhere‘?”
Elrohir
hesitated before continuing. “I still think we should go after Mordraug.” He
held his hand up. “I know what you are going to say. Legolas will not let us
risk any of our warriors. So, why do we not just go ourselves and take our
chances?
“Legolas
would not let us do that, either,” Elladan replied. “I cannot blame him. I
would not let any of you do it for me were I in his place.”
“So, we
just let him die?” Elrohir didn’t mean to sound so harsh. He just couldn’t
stand doing nothing useful. He knew full well that Estel would not give up, as
he had already stated quite firmly. “There is more at stake here than just the
life of a dear friend. Many more elves will surely fall, as well, if Mordraug
is not stopped, and there does not seem to be anyone else to do it.”
Before
anyone could remark on Elrohir’s comment, Estel came bursting into the room.
One look at his tear-stained face frightened them all. The man didn’t notice
the startled expressions that soon turned to ones of fear. He blurted out,
“Legolas is gone!”
Each and
every elf in the library immediately assumed that Legolas had had another
attack, and that Estel was telling them that the young Wood elf had died as a
result of it. The sorrow that suddenly permeated the room was so thick it was
palpable.
At first no
one moved. Even Aragorn was rooted to the spot, as he seemed to be waiting for
someone to say something. Elrond quickly rose, walked around his desk and
enfolded Estel in his arms. “I am so sorry, my son. I know how you cherished
Legolas. He was a friend beyond measure to you---to all of us.”
It took
Estel a moment to realize what his father meant by his words. He pulled back
from Elrond’s embrace. “No. No, Ada. You don’t understand. Legolas isn’t dead.
By ‘gone’ I meant he’s left Rivendell. He went after Mordraug. He believes he’s
already doomed, so he thinks going alone is the only way to save his family, as
well as Mirkwood.” He looked around at the faces in the room. Their expressions
were a mixture of both relief and anguish.
Elrond,
whose overriding emotion was one of relief, put his hand under Estel’s chin and
turned his head to the right, studying the left side of his son’s face. He
closely studied the bruised jaw. “He knocked you out, so that you could not
stop him from going alone.” It was a flat statement born of Elrond’s countless
years of quickly gathering facts and making correct suppositions.
“Yes,
that’s exactly what he did. I saw it coming, but elves are fast.” He tenderly
touched his jaw. “They hit hard, too.“ There was no mirth in the remarks. He
shook his head out of Elrond’s grasp. “We have to go after him, Ada.”
“Are you
saying Legolas has gone after Mordraug?” came a voice from behind Aragorn.
Standing in the doorway and looking decidedly distraught was Thranduil.
Aragorn turned
and looked into the concerned blue-gray eyes of the elven King and then nodded.
“You know that Mordraug will not hesitate to kill him.”
Thranduil
was shaking his head. “Mordraug will not kill my son before I arrive. I am sure
of that. How long ago did Legolas leave?” Thranduil’s tone had taken on that of
someone who had decided to take action and was gathering information before
doing so.
“Judging by
the moon, I’d say almost an hour. He has a big head start on us, but we can
catch him, if we leave right now.” Aragorn wasn’t really sure if anyone could
catch Legolas. His elven stallion was incredibly swift, and Legolas would be
moving without much rest to get to Mordraug and at the same time outrun any
possible pursuit. He wasn’t going to mention that last little fact, though he
doubted he needed to.
Elrohir did
it for him. “We will never catch him now. He will not slow down, except to rest
his horse, until he reaches that valley forest. You know he knows some of us
are going to follow, and we will have to rest our horses, as well.”
Elrond
seemed to be the only one to pick up on the fact that Elrohir had said the
’will’ of certainty and not the ’would’ of doubt about following the young
Mirkwood elf. His eldest son began speaking before he could make a comment.
Elladan
quickly agreed with his twin, when he added, “He will want to finish the whole
affair before any of us can reach the forest. He is determined to protect us,
no matter what it costs him.”
“He thinks
he’s already dead,” Aragorn said sadly, the argument with Legolas still fresh
in his mind. A touch of anger resurfaced, as his mind added, *infuriating elf*,
echoing what he had called Legolas earlier.
Elrond
looked directly at the Mirkwood King. “You cannot go, Thranduil. You must stay
far away from Mordraug. If you saw him harming Legolas, you might become
overwhelmed emotionally and give in to his demands in order to save your son.
It would be more than any father could be expected to endure.”
“Thank you
for your concern, Elrond, but I have been the ruler of my kingdom for several
millennia, so I am quite strong enough to do what I must to protect it,”
Thranduil declared firmly. “I have to go.” His determination not to be swayed
was evident. He seemed to have forgotten his earlier belief that the dark elf
would not spare Legolas no matter what he did. He also seemed to forget that
the poison was irreversible. In truth, he had forgotten none of it. But, now
that he was faced with his son dying alone, far from him and his home he could
not just sit and do nothing. At the least, he may be able to help Legolas
destroy the dark elf once and for all before.... HIs mind refused to form the
thought. If he should also fall against the dark elf, he knew his eldest son
would carry on as a capable ruler for their people. He also knew that the rest
of his family would fight for Mirkwood’s freedom to the last drop of their
blood against all comers.
Aragorn
seemed to realize in what direction Thranduil’s thoughts were aimed, as he
watched the Wood elf’s face. “You and I will go,” he declared to the King.
Thranduil
nodded and turned to go. When Aragorn began to follow, Elrond grabbed the man’s
arm. “No, Estel. You are not part of this.” He steeled himself for an argument.
He was not disappointed.
Estel
looked back at his father with wide eyes. “Not part of this? How can you
say that, Ada? Legolas is as much a part of me as any blood kin ever could be.
We were together in the valley forest. I took care of him when he was
unconscious. He is my best friend, my brother in spirit. I am standing here
right now, because he has saved my life countless times during our friendship.
Oh yes, I am very much a part of this, and I will go after him, like it or
not.” Estel was sorry to speak to his father this way, but he was not about to
be denied. He would go after Legolas.
“We will
go, as well,” came Elladan’s voice. He and Elrohir had already indicated that
they would follow their elven friend, but now the eldest of Elrond’s twins was
clearly declaring it. He knew his father would not be pleased about all three
of his sons heading out into danger, but he and Elrohir weren’t going to be
denied, either. He didn’t even have to look at Elrohir to know he agreed
completely.
When Elrond
looked toward the twins, he saw that Elrohir was nodding. “There is no way we
are letting Estel and Thranduil go alone. Besides, Legolas is our friend, too.”
Elrohir stared back at his father. “You love him, too, Ada. You know he is
doing this for all of us.”
Elrond
sighed. He had no more arguments left. He knew it was true. He also knew that
he really couldn’t stop any of his sons from going. They were all grown and had
been making their own decisions for a long time. It was just his father’s heart
that wanted to keep them safe in Rivendell.
“I will go
with them,” Glorfindel said, coming into the debate for the first time. He
hoped that his offer would not be construed as him wanting to go to protect the
three sons of Elrond. He truly thought he could be of help. “I suffered
watching the horror of what Mordraug did all those years ago, and I would like
nothing better than to share in the revenge.” His eyes glinted with
anticipation.
Elrond
looked around at all the faces in the room with him. He could do nothing to
prevent what was to come. “I will go with you, also. I was part of the
beginning of it, and I will be part of what I hope will be the end of it.”
Somewhat to
his own surprise, Elrond felt himself becoming eager to confront Mordraug.
Normally, the elf Lord did not engage in retribution, but this was different.
Elrohir was right. Mordraug needed to be stopped. Elrond’s only regret was that
Legolas couldn’t be saved in the process.
Aragorn
hadn’t wanted to interfere with the debate going on, as each elf made their own
decision on what they would do. However, he had now reached a state of extreme
impatience. “Then, come on. We must prepare and get started. Every moment of
delay takes Legolas that much farther ahead of us. We must find him before he
finds Mordraug.”
The man
turned and headed out of the door, saying, “Meet at the stables in fifteen
minutes.” Then, he was running down the hallway toward the stairs that led to
the floor above where his room was located.
It wasn’t
until he reached his room to gather his gear for the journey that Aragorn
remembered the letter Legolas had left for Thranduil. He grabbed it off of the
bed and put it in an inside pocket. He would decide later when the time was
right to give it to the elven King. He knew the heartache it would bring, but
Legolas had written it for his father, and had left it for the ranger to
deliver. Estel could not, in good conscience, refuse to do so. He only hoped
that the goodbye he was sure it contained would be an unnecessary one.
In exactly
fifteen minutes, all the group was assembled at the stables. Elrond and
Glorfindel had discarded their robes and in their place wore the clothes
befitting warriors. It was a sight that the younger members of the group had
rarely seen, since the warrior days of both were long behind them. Almost, it
seemed.
They all
stood together just outside the doors, as stable hands brought their horses out
to them. Each member of the group began to load their packs and extra weapons
onto their mounts.
The moon
shone down on the group of five elves and one human, as they headed south down
the road that each believed would take them to a harrowing encounter with evil.
Chapter
Twenty One
Legolas
rode through the night. The long strands of his golden hair that normally fell
down the front of his shoulders, now flew out behind him as he leaned low over
his stallion's neck. The horse, Elenblaith , <Starspirit> ate up the
miles, as his hooves flew rhythmically down the road. The elf tried hard not to
think about what he had done back in Rivendell, but he could not keep the
thoughts at bay for long.
He had
slugged his best friend and left him lying unconscious. Now, the last sight
Estel would have of him alive was one of violence and betrayal. *It was
necessary*, the archer told himself. It was the right thing to do to save his
friend from following him to his own doom. Legolas would rather Estel hate him
for the rest of his life than to see the man killed. He meant what he had said
in the letter he had left. Estel was destined for legend. It would not be only
among men but among all the races of Middle-earth. Even the elves who would
later sail to Valinor would speak of him with awe and respect. The archer had
no doubts about that.
Legolas was
hoping that Estel would become so angry with him for punching him out that he
would just turn his back and leave the elf to his fate. But, he knew better. He
would never have had such feelings toward the ranger, if their roles were
reversed. Estel had already demonstrated the depth of his brotherly love for
Legolas so many times, including this last event with Mordraug, that the elf
knew his friend would stop at nothing to come after him, alone if necessary.
But, more than likely others would come, as well. It frightened him to think
that Thranduil would also follow, as would the twins.
Spurred on
by his fears for his father and his friends, Legolas unconsciously urged his
horse even faster. He could not let these people that he loved face Mordraug.
Even if the dark elf was somehow defeated, he could still inflict death and
destruction on them all before he died. That was not acceptable in the elf’s
mind.
The moon
rose to its zenith and began its descent below the horizon. Finally, Legolas
slowed down. He couldn't let his fears force him to run his horse into the
ground, though he knew that to please his master Elenblaith would run until he
dropped. The elf loved the stallion too much to risk his life, too. Also, on a
purely practical note, he couldn't afford to end up on foot.
Legolas
stopped as he reached a narrow stream that ran through a small group of
stunted-looking trees a few miles from the Misty Mountains. There would be few
trees ahead of him, as he rode south near the base of the mountains. The next
true forest he would encounter would be in the valley he sought.
The elf
dismounted and let the stallion drink his fill. The archer likewise drank what
he needed. In his opinion, nothing beat cold, clear mountain water to refresh a
body. He also filled a small water skin that he had not taken the time to fill
before hastily leaving Rivendell. He ate a piece of lembas to keep his strength
up. He would need all of it to face Mordraug.
Then, while
his horse grazed nearby, Legolas swung himself up into the largest of the
trees. It provided little in the way of shelter, as the branches were sparse,
though the leaves had done their best to festoon what branches there were in
springtime greenery. However, it was not shelter that Legolas was seeking.
The elf lay
back against the squat trunk and gazed upward. He smiled, glad that the night
sky was clear. Sitting in a tree, watching the stars sparkle like diamonds in
the inky darkness of the heavens was soothing to his soul. Right then, and just
for a few moments, he felt free of all the earthly cares that lay upon him.
Mordraug, the poison in his body, the fear for his family, his home and his
friends all faded into the background. He was a wood elf, and this was where he
belonged. It mattered not that this wasn't his home. It mattered not that this
was probably the last time he would ever find himself in this position. It
mattered not that this particular tree would be little more than a sapling in
Mirkwood. It mattered only that it was a tree, and the elf could find peace in
its comforting presence.
For its
part, the tree was happy just to have an elf resting in its branches. It had
been many centuries since, as a strong, young tree, it had sheltered one of the
Firstborn. Now, that its time in Middle-earth was almost spent, the
long-forgotten memory was reawakened. The tree took as much pleasure in the
presence of the elf, as the elf did sitting in the tree.
It seemed
like only a few moments later that the eastern sky above the dark mountain tops
began to lighten, causing the stars to begin to fade. Several seemed to wink
out of existence as Legolas watched. He took a deep breath, as if he could
inhale and absorb the splendor he had witnessed before it surrendered to the
light of a new day.
With a
sigh, Legolas jumped soundlessly to the ground and whistled for Elenblaith, who
came to him and nickered softy, as the elf rubbed the stallion's velvety nose.
His oneness with the tree and the stars was over. Now, he had to go back to
concentrating on his self-imposed mission. Nothing else mattered now, least of
all his own comfort.
The blond
archer leaped gracefully onto Elenblaith's back, and the two turned once again
down the road leading south toward the valley forest.
~*~*~
The group
that had left Rivendell a little over an hour after Legolas was making good
time. Yet, as hard as they were pushing their mounts, none of them believed
that they were gaining much on the Mirkwood prince.
"We
cannot keep this pace up much longer," Elladan felt compelled to say at
last. "We must rest our horses, as I am sure Legolas has done." It
irked him that they could not continue uninterrupted. Had they been able to do
so, they would have had a much better chance to catch the woodland elf.
Unknown to
them, Legolas had just resumed his journey and what little advantage they had
gained while he rested would now be lost when they did likewise.
Even
Thranduil and Aragorn saw the logic in Elladan's words. Reluctantly, they came
to a halt. Neither one wanted to harm their mounts. And, like Legolas, they
knew they could not afford to end up on foot. If that happened, the main
purpose for their pursuit would be in vain, and even Aragorn believed that his
friend would then be lost to them forever.
The group
moved off of the road and walked toward a patch of grass near a group of large
rocks that seemed to sprout up out of the ground. There were several trees
scattered nearby.
Thranduil
stood by his horse and gazed down the road so intensely that it was as if he
was trying to spot his son riding along near the base of the mountains. *Where
are you, Little One?*
He had not
changed his thinking regarding Legolas's ultimate fate. It would have given him
much strength, courage and joy to think he might be able to save his son. Even
knowing he could not didn't dampen his determination to reach Legolas and do
what he could to make his journey to the Halls of Mandos as easy as possible.
Thranduil
knew that seeing his youngest child suffer the same agonizing death as his wife
would scar his own soul far beyond anything he had experienced in his over five
thousand years of life. He had been in shock when his wife had died. In a way
that had, at the time, clouded his mind to the full horror of it on a personal
level. Even seeing the other elves die by Mordraug's command had been in a
swirl of disbelief. There would be no such shock or disbelief now, and the
knowledge of what was to happen to Legolas ate at him mercilessly.
He had
believed he had destroyed the dark elf all those years ago. Why hadn't he made
sure? Thranduil couldn't help but believe his lack of thoroughness then was now
allowing the current situation to take place. He shook his head. *Forgive me,
ion nin.* It was a pitiful plea he knew, but there was nothing he could do to
alter what was going to happen. He had been present when Legolas was born, and
his sole intent now was to be with Legolas in his last moments of life, no matter
how soul-wrenching it would prove to be. *I failed you before, Legolas, but I
will not let you die alone.*
Thranduil's
thoughts of Legolas's fate were currently going through Aragorn's head, as
well. The only difference was that the ranger was still fully expecting to save
his friend. No one was going to talk him out of that idea. Legolas had gone
through too much to die now, and Aragorn had gone through too much to let him.
He was a practical man and often had to engage in compromises, but when it came
to his best friend, his mind would not allow him to accept anything that might
take the archer from those that loved him. That was not going to happen.
Aragorn
hesitated only briefly before walking up beside Thranduil and putting his hand
on the King's arm. Ordinarily, he would never have even considered doing such a
thing. Ordinarily, the King would not have allowed it. Now, the two stood side
by side, bonded, for a while at least, in a common goal. "We will save
him," Aragorn said softly.
Thranduil
didn't argue. He knew the human would not accept the inevitable, and trying to
convince him to do so was an exercise in futility. There was no way of knowing
exactly how things would play out, when they finally reached the valley forest.
Perhaps, if the man still thought he was saving his friend, he would fight
harder against the dark elf. *No,* the King thought, *he would fight hard to
help rid Middle-earth of Mordraug and his evil snake even if my son was not
involved.* It was a concession that surprised Thranduil. He realized he had not
only fully accepted the human as a part of his son's life but was glad for it.
Yet, this change of attitude had come too late and at much too high a price.
Aragorn was
startled a bit, when a hand touched his own arm. He spun his head around to see
Elrohir standing on the other side of him, offering him some water. He hadn't
realized he was so thirsty until he looked down at the water skin. He smiled at
his elven brother. Lifting the skin to his lips, he took several long swallows.
He then offered it to Thranduil.
The wood
elf shook his head, at first, and then changed his mind and took it. Denying
himself the refreshing liquid he needed wasn't going to help the situation in
any way. He, also, took several swallows. "Hannon le," he said to
both Aragorn and Elrohir.
"Ada
says we will be here for a little while yet. We have to rest the horses long
enough to do them some good, or all hope of catching Legolas will be
lost." Elrohir had a moment's stab of guilt at saying that, especially in
front of Thranduil. However, they all understood the situation well enough to
know it had gone far beyond needing to be delicate with their words.
Thranduil
nodded and handed the water skin back to the dark-haired elf, who took it and
headed toward the rocks where his twin brother sat. The elven king then turned
his attention back toward the road. There was no thought of resting himself. He
was an elf and could go farther on less rest than mortal man or horse. He stood
silent and unmoving.
Aragorn saw
that there would be no more conversation coming from Thranduil. He wondered
briefly if this was the right time to give Legolas's letter to the woodland
king. He sighed. Yes, it had to be now. There might not be another chance. With
reluctance, Aragorn reached inside his tunic and pulled out the letter. He
handed it to the elf. "Legolas left this for me to give to you."
Without another word, he turned and walked away.
The man sat
down next to the twins, noting that Elrond and Glorfindel were sitting nearby,
talking quietly. Aragorn lay back on the grass. He pushed all thoughts from his
mind. It was the only way he knew to attain the rest he needed. Continuing to
think about Legolas and Mordraug would only lead to more tension and turmoil.
He deliberately did not look in Thranduil`s direction. Seeing the elf king's
reaction to the letter would be more than Aragorn could handle right then. He
closed his eyes.
Thranduil
stared down at the piece of parchment. He slowly unfolded it and immediately
recognized his son's handwriting. He knew what the letter meant without having
to read a single word, yet there was no way he could avoid doing so. With a
feeling of impending heartache, he began to read.
Dearest
Ada.
There is so
much I wish to say to you that I hardly know where to begin. I could write from
now until dawn and not say everything to you that is in my heart.
First of
all, please forgive me for what I am about to do. You know as well as anyone
that there is no hope for me to survive this encounter with Mordraug. If I must
sacrifice my life, I wish it to be for a cause that will allow you, my family
and my friends to continue with your lives.
I want you
to know that you have been the most important person in my life, since I first
became aware of my own existence. You have loved and nurtured me, teaching me
right from wrong. You taught me to be honorable when dealing with those I
encountered, even other races. You encouraged me to seek knowledge and to use
that knowledge to the betterment of myself and our people. You made me learn.
Even when you scolded me for some misadventure or wrong I had done, you
tempered it with love. You gave me my independence when I know you would have
preferred to keep me safe at home. The driving force of my life has been to
make you proud of me. You have always made me feel that I succeeded.
I remember
the first time you took me hunting with you, the first time you let me ride a
horse by myself, the first time you put a bow in my hands. All of these events
gave me great joy. Yet, my fondest memory is of the many times I sat on your
lap as an elfling with your arms around me, singing softly to me until I fell
asleep. You have always---always---been there for me. Now, it is finally my
turn to be there for you.
Please tell
my brothers and sisters that I love them dearly. It saddens me that I will
never get the chance to see them again or tell them goodbye. Give each of my
nieces and nephews a kiss for me and tell them that their Uncle Legolas loved
them.
I know you
will grieve for me, as I would for you. But, I pray that you find comfort in
knowing that I will spend eternity in the Halls of Mandos with Naneth.
I love you,
Ada, with all my heart. Had I been able to choose a father for myself, I would
have chosen none other.
Your loving
son,
Legolas
Thranduil
carefully refolded the paper and slipped it into his pocket. He walked away
toward a lone tree several yards from where the others in the group rested. He
climbed up into its branches and settled himself. Leaning his back against the
tree's sturdy trunk, the King of Mirkwood cried.
Chapter
Twenty Two
Legolas was
forced to stop and rest both himself and Elenblaith several more times along
the way. Even his elven endurance needed a break from the relentless pace he was
setting. Happily for him, the nights remained clear and the stars shone as
brightly as ever. However, there were no more trees to climb just as Legolas
had believed. He saw them in the distance but couldn’t take the time to detour
toward them. He kept his focus southward.
The elf was
sure that his father, Estel and whoever of the others had come after him were
forced to mirror his own movements and stop at least as often as he did.
Believing this made him feel a little more comfortable. They wouldn’t be able
to gain any time or distance on him that way. But, just to make sure, he
intended on pushing as hard as he dared.
He knew it
would take at least another full day to reach the secluded valley where
Mordraug awaited. And, there was no doubt in the archer’s mind that the dark
elf was waiting. Of course, Legolas knew that Mordraug was really expecting
that Thranduil would be the one to show up, and that the attack on him in
Rivendell had been merely a nudge in an effort to force the elven King to come
to him.
The
Mirkwood Prince dismounted and began to lead Elenblaith. The elf glanced back
over his shoulder down the road he had just traveled. *Please, Ada, do not
follow me. We both know what awaits, and I would have you safe,* he thought
with grim determination. He shook his head, knowing full well that the plea was
in vain, because Thranduil was most assuredly behind him and trying hard to
catch up.
He idly
wondered if Estel had given Thranduil his letter yet. He knew the reading of it
would be harder than the writing of it had been. Yet, he thought that, in time,
the letter would be a comfort to his father. At least, he hoped so.
In a little
over an hour Legolas, who had remounted and was riding swiftly again, left the road
and started cross country to the southeast. The road bypassed the valley by
many miles and while it had afforded him smooth going until now, continuing on
it any longer would take him too far from his destination.
He and
Elenblaith would now be moving across ground that was broken and strewn with
rocks. both large and small. He would have to slow his pace. In Legolas's mind,
the only good thing about it was that those following would need to do the
same. As long as they did, he could keep ahead of them.
Elenbllaith
was making better time than Legolas had dared hope. The gray stallion picked
his way among the rocks and up and down the little hills and valleys of the
broken land and still managed to keep to a gallop most of the time. It brought
a smile to the elf’s face. He was letting the horse choose his own path and
speed, and he was being rewarded by seeing the scenery move past him fairly
rapidly.
Legolas
rode into the night and once again stopped to take a break. As he himself
rested, he thought of Estel. He missed having the ranger with him. So many
times they had left either Rivendell or Mirkwood together to go hunting, or to
track down the details of some mystery that had intrigued them. More than once,
Elrond had sent them, sometimes with the twins, to gather information of some
kind. Often they had just wanted to be in each other’s company for a while.
There were a whole myriad of reasons that the two friends had gone adventuring
together. Now, those times had come to an end, all because of Mordraug’s
ambition to rule Mirkwood.
Unwilling
to continue his dark thoughts of what lay ahead, Legolas wanted to lighten the
mood in his mind. So, he searched through his memories for one of the more
humorous moments of the journeys he and Estel had made. As if to give him a
helping hand with his search, thunder began to rumble over the mountains where
dark clouds had moved in, though they didn’t seem to be threatening th elf’s
location, which remained clear. The wind was blowing them to the north.
However, it served to remind him of an incident that happened several years
ago.
***
Estel had
gone to the woodland realm in the hopes of getting Legolas so they could go
hunting. Thranduil had not been pleased to see the human show up. His first
thought had been to tell Aragorn that Legolas was too busy with his patrols to
go off on a vacation. Legolas had known his father’s thoughts simply because he
knew his father. Legolas came close to telling Thranduil that his trips with
Estel were often too harrowing to be called vacations. Real life was the
vacation. He had thought better of mentioning that little comment,
knowing that doing so would surely end all hope of leaving with his friend.
Legolas
kept his mouth shut except to ask for permission to go. He was full grown, but
he was also a subject of the King, as well as one of the realm’s most valuable
warriors, so Thranduil would have to temporarily release him from his duties.
Legolas was actually due a leave, as all warriors received every three months,
from the stresses of the constant dangers that were spreading inside of
Mirkwood.
“Why does
it always have to be something involving that human,* Thranduil had thought at
the time. In the end, the King, to please his son, had given his permission,
with the stipulation that Legolas return in no more than eight days. He was
determined that his son would spend a few quiet days of his leave with his
family. Legolas had happily agreed.
The elf and
the ranger rode through the forest of Mirkwood until they finally broke out of
the trees and headed for the Anduin. They rode along the river’s eastern shore,
passing closer to Dol Guldûr than they would have liked. However, they soon
left the evil place behind them without even a hint of trouble. That fact alone
should have given them cause to worry about what might yet happen.
Before the
two friends could reach their intended choice of hunting grounds, it started
raining. It rained, and it rained, and it rained. For three days it rained
relentlessly. There was not a single patch of skin or cloth on either of them
that wasn’t soaked through. Even their horses were finding the torrential
downpour exceedingly unpleasant.
Estel had
the hood of his cloak pulled done low over his face, but it did noting to keep
the man‘s head dry. Water constantly dripped down along the edges of the
fabric. He felt like he was standing behind a waterfall.
Legolas
normally wasn’t bothered too much by rain, but even an elf got tired of being
exposed for three days to the torrents that were assaulting him. He couldn’t
believe that there could be that much water in the low gray clouds that seemed
to hang just above their heads. *The rest of Middle-earth must be exceedingly
dry,* he mused.
As much as
he loved Nature, Legolas had finally had enough of this particular part of it
and pulled the hood of his own cloak over his head. He soon found himself
behind the twin of the waterfall that plagued his human companion.
As bad luck
would have it, the particular stretch of land they were passing through was
flat and there was no shelter to be found anywhere near. They would have to
keep moving to reach the caves that littered the high ridges above the river
several miles south. At least, they had hope. Shelter wasn’t too far away.
“I’ve never
seen it rain this hard for this long,” the ranger said to his elven friend,
riding close beside him. “I think the Valar is against us.” He chuckled to
himself, then added, “I think your father pleaded his case to them so you’d
return to Mirkwood much sooner than you planned.” Aragorn made a sound that
closely resembled a growl. “This is ridiculous.”
Legolas
laughed. “You sure do get grumpy when you get wet.”
“This goes
beyond just wet,” Aragorn grumbled. “I think my bones are soaked.”
Legolas
laughed even harder. It may have been a musical sound in ordinary
circumstances, but it came at the wrong time, because right then it greatly
irritated the man. Aragorn glared at his friend. “Impossible elf,” he muttered.
The
‘impossible elf’ shook his head. He mumbled something, but not having the same
elven hearing that his friend had, Aragorn couldn‘t make out what was being
said. Under the circumstances, he could well imagine it wasn’t a compliment.
Finally,
after several more hours, they entered hilly terrain and Legolas soon led the
way to a small cave in the closest ridge to them. It wasn’t deep or overly
high, but it was large enough to fit the two companions and both of their
horses into. There was even room to turn around inside---barely.
Water
dripped down from several fissures in the stone ceiling, and formed little
puddles in various places on the cave floor. The water that dripped from their
hair and clothes added to the puddles. They could not start a fire, since all
potential fuel was soaked as badly as they were. There would be no warmth in
the chilly cave and no hot meal. Having to sit in drenched clothes, with no way
to dry them, served to add to their misery.
All of
those things were wearing their nerves thin. It didn’t take long for tempers to
flare.
“There are
other caves around here,” Aragorn complained morosely. “Couldn’t you have found
one a bit larger? I keep getting hit in the face by a long tail.” The man
swatted at his horse’s tail for what seemed like the dozenth time, trying to
get it out of his mouth where several long strands had stuck. He couldn’t move
far enough to get away from the water that dropped down on him from above. He
also couldn’t put his feet anywhere that was not in a puddle of water.
Legolas
just stared at the human. “I found us shelter, which I noticed you were eager
enough to enter a few moments ago. Besides, you are a ranger. Could you not
have been the one to locate sufficient shelter?”
“I seem to
recall you saying, ‘I know just the place.’ I merely followed you, thinking,
erroneously it appears, that you would lead us to a cave we could actually fit
into. After all, you are the one who lives on this side of the mountains.”
“What does
that have to do with anything?” the elf asked with irritation in his voice. “I
repeat. You are the ranger here, always traveling far and wide. You act like
you have never been around here before. I was simply trying to find the
first place that offered us a chance to get in out of the rain. I certainly
would not have stopped you from pointing out another cave that would have been
more suitable, if you had bothered to do so.” Anger flashed in the elf’s
blue-gray eyes.
Legolas
turned around and tried to set his pack down in a corner of the cave. It kept
falling over, which didn‘t improve his mood any. “You are the one that is
always telling me how good you are at finding things.” He mumbled the words,
almost to himself, but Aragorn heard them well enough.
Legolas sat
down in a move that little resembled elven grace. He had finally stuffed his
pack into a small crevice and stared at it, seemingly daring it to fall out.
“Maybe, it
would have been better if your father had kept you in Mirkwood on
patrol. It couldn’t have soured your mood any worse than the rain has,” Aragorn
declared petulantly.
“The rain
has not soured my mood. It is the company I am keeping.” A measure of familiar
arrogance had crept into the elf’s voice.
The two
glared at each other. Legolas narrowed his eyes. Most people would have been
forced to look away from that stare. Aragorn was not fazed by it in the least.
Not only had he seen it numerous times on Legolas's face, but he had also grown
up seeing that same look on Lord Elrond‘s face, who Estel decided was the only
one he knew who could outstare the Mirkwood prince.
Since
neither of the companions could move far from the other, they just turned away
with their backs to each other. Both refused to say another word, preferring to
stew in silence.
After only
a few moments Aragorn began to laugh. Legolas turned his head and glanced
sideways at his friend and then joined in the laughter. The two turned to face
each other. “We are acting like children,” the elf said, almost sheepishly.
“I know,”
Aragorn admitted, equally as sheepish. “It’s only water. We shouldn’t let it
ruin our friendship.”
“Ruin our
friendship? That is a little dramatic, is it not?”
Aragorn
grinned. “A little, I guess. All right, ruin is a bit overstated,” he
admitted.
The two
companions then moved closer to each other. Aragorn dug into his pack and
pulled out two pieces of dried meat, which were a bit on the soggy side.
“Hungry?” he asked, as he handed one of the pieces to the elf.
Legolas
nodded and took the offering. He wrinkled his nose at the slightly spongy piece
of meat, then shrugged and took a bite. He didn’t care for the damp texture,
but it tasted fine.
“I’m just
glad there were no witnesses to the display of our lack of maturity,” the
ranger said with obvious relief.
“There were
two,” the elf said, pointing at the two stallions standing almost on top of
them. Both companions could have sworn that their horses were grinning at them.
The
laughter of ranger and archer was soon bouncing around the walls of the small
cave.
“Shall we
look for larger quarters?” Aragorn asked.
“We might
as well,” Legolas replied. “We certainly cannot get any wetter in the attempt.”
***
That memory
was only a tiny moment in all the vast collection of them that the two friends
had shared, but it was one that now put a smile on the elf’s face. There were
so very many moments to remember that Legolas hoped that, in time, Estel would
think of them and be as glad that he had known the elf, as Legolas was that he
had known the ranger.
Still
smiling, Legolas watched the stars until it was time to resume the journey.
By
midmorning of the next day, Legolas was again resting Elenblaith by walking for
a time. The horse followed close behind his elven master.
When the
two rounded an outcropping of high rocks, Legolas stopped in his tracks, causing
the gray stallion to bump into the elf’s back. Legolas took no notice, because
no more than two miles ahead of him rose the cliffs that surrounded the valley
forest.
To the
casual observer the cliffs looked solid, more like a mountain with the top flattened
out. No one who didn’t know would even guess that those cliffs contained a
valley covered by a lush, though dark, forest.
Luckily,
Aragorn had explained to him how to find the hidden entrance when they had
approached from the opposite end three weeks earlier. Since he had been
unconscious when they had left this end of the valley, Legolas hadn’t seen it
for himself. Yet, he was sure Estel’s detailed description would prove quite
accurate.
Legolas
stared at the spot in the rock facing where he believed the gap that would take
him toward Mordraug was located. With a sigh, he mounted Elenblaith and headed
directly toward it.
Chapter
Twenty Three
Thunder
continued to rumble over the Misty Mountains, as the group from Rivendell moved
over the same broken ground that Legolas had crossed an hour before. The clouds
were still staying above the rocky peaks and right at that moment it looked
like they were dumping a torrent of rain on the eastern slopes. However, the
sun was still shining above the travelers, and they all fervently hoped it
stayed that way.
The memory
of Legolas's fist smashing into his face kept coming back to Aragorn. There was
not the slightest hint of anger at the elf for doing it. If anything, he felt
anger at himself for not figuring out what Legolas had planned to do. He was no
mind reader, but he knew his friend as well as he knew himself. He should have
realized that the elf would do something to try and protect those he loved.
Elladan and
Elrohir rode up beside their foster brother, as they were all forced to slow
their pace over this stretch of the rocky ground. They looked at Estel and then
looked across at each other. Elladan shook his head, then said, “Why do you
always feel guilty whenever you find that you cannot control a situation?”
Aragorn was
not surprised that his thoughts had been read so easily in the expression on
his face. “I should have known he was planning something like this,” the ranger
replied softly, looking at first one twin and then the other. Then he looked
down and shook his head.
“Why is
that?” Elrohir asked.
“I know
him. He would do anything to protect his father and his friends---us---from
harm. I should have been more alert to his elven tricks.”
“I repeat.
Why is that?”
“Because,
he’s done it before.”
Once again
the twins looked at each other. This time there was a look of disbelief on
their faces.
Elladan
recovered first. “He has hit you before? I never heard that. When did this
happen?”
“And why?”
Elrohir added. He was as intrigued as his twin brother to hear that tale. This
incident in Rivendell was the first time he had heard of either friend hitting
the other outside of a playful cuff after one had given the other some kind of
insult.
“We were on
our way to Lorien. It was about five years ago, I think. There had been reports
of orcs riding wargs in the area where we were, so we decided to travel close
to the Anduin, hoping we could avoid them in the open stretches beyond the
treeline.
“The orcs
decided to do the same thing. It didn’t take long for us to run right into
three of them. They didn’t see us at first. Then, I slipped in some mud, fell
and hurt both my left leg and my right arm, as I rolled over some rocks. They
spotted us then and headed our way. I couldn’t walk or draw my sword or an
arrow. Legolas quickly dragged me into the brush, and I protested rather
vehemently. I even tried to crawl out of the brush and follow him. He didn’t
want me trying to fight off the wargs and their riders in my condition, so
without saying a word, he came back to me and just punched me and knocked me
out. He had never done that before, and I was totally unprepared for it, just
as I was unprepared this last time.”
Elrohir,
though sorry his brother had been hurt, was much more interested in the outcome
of the warg fight. “What happened?” he asked rather anxiously.
"When
I finally came to and dragged myself out of the brush, I saw that there were
two warg bodies by the river and three dead orcs nearby. According to Legolas,
he ran the last warg off with an arrow in its neck. I doubt it made it very
far. Legolas was sitting on the ground, because, of course, he ended up getting
himself injured worse than I was, though luckily, not too seriously. It
happened because he was protecting me." The ranger shook his head.
"He's so stubborn."
“He is not
the only one,” Elladan remarked. “You have a stubborn streak, too, when it
comes to feeling guilty. You always seem so determined to take the blame for
the bad things that happen, even if you are in no way at fault.”
Aragorn
looked indignant. “I only feel guilty about things that are my fault,”
he declared defensively, a big frown on his face. He had spoken so seriously
that despite the fact the statement sounded almost comical, neither twin could
bring themselves to laugh.
“Of
course,” was all Elrohir said, though it was a little on the sarcastic side.
Elladan
looked at Aragorn with something approaching sympathy. “You said yourself you
could not use a sword or a bow. If you had been out in the middle of the fight,
you would have had only a knife for defense and then Legolas would have had to
worry about you, as well as the wargs and orcs. Then, he could have been very
badly hurt---or killed. Think about it, Estel.”
Elrohir raised
his eyebrows in a gesture that all but dared the man to argue with his twin’s
logic.
Elladan
didn’t give Estel a chance to agree or disagree with what he had said, when he
quickly returned to the original point that was being discussed. “You say you know
Legolas so well. Then, you know he would have found some way to accomplish his
goal. You could not have stopped him, Estel, whether you suspected some trick
or not.”
“I could
have hit him first,” the ranger suggested, “then tied him up.”
Elrohir
laughed. “I imagine you would have tried that very thing, if it had occurred to
you to do so. But, you still are not to blame for what happened. Legolas has a
mind of his own, as we all know quite well, and will do whatever he sees fit to
do.” He had no intention of mentioning the poison that was firmly ingrained in
Legolas's body. It would serve no purpose but to cause more distress for the
human.
There was
no sense in arguing with his brothers about this, so Aragorn just took a deep
breath and let it out slowly. Then, he saw the land in front of him flatten out
and quickly urged his horse forward at a run. The twins were right behind him,
and the rest of the group soon followed.
Thranduil
was in the rear, having been unusually quiet since reading Legolas's letter. It
took only a moment for him to pass both Elrond and Glorfindel. He was not going
to be the last one to reach his son.
~*~*~
It didn’t
take long for Legolas to reach the spot where he believed the hidden gap in the
cliffs was located. Even close up, the opening was cleverly concealed. There
was not the slightest hint of a trail or pathway that would give the opening’s
existence away. The slightly sandy ground looked undisturbed, probably swept
clean of any tracks there might have been by the almost constant wind that blew
down from the mountains.
It was only
when close up and moving at a slight angle that the elf could discern the
subtle shift in the look of the uneven cliff face. The gap in the rock would
appear non-existent to anyone who didn’t know to look for it.
He headed
into the gap.
The opening
and beyond allowed for only the width of a horse with barely three feet more
than that to spare. Legolas turned left and moved down a dirt trail between
stone that soared several hundred feet above his head, ending in a narrow
opening overhead that was the only thing keeping the pathway from becoming a
true tunnel. The sun had to be directly above the opening before sunlight could
shine down to the ground. At present, Legolas was in deep shadow.
After going
a few yards, the trail turned back on itself and he found himself going in the
opposite direction. A few more yards and it turned back again. This zig-zagging
continued for several more turns and then suddenly opened out onto the canopied
forest he well remembered. Looking at it, he felt the same foreboding he had
felt, when he and Estel had been here before. Now, however, he knew what the
foreboding warned him of. That knowledge didn’t ease his mind any. If anything,
it increased his fear. He couldn’t keep his body from shuddering.
Mordraug
could not have picked a better place to hide out, if indeed this was where he
called home. He could go undiscovered and undisturbed for ages and evidently
had, because until the attack on Legolas almost three weeks ago, no one had
caught sight of the dark elf in close to two millennia. Or perhaps, it was just
that no one had lived to tell about the encounter.
Elenblaith
stamped nervously. The stallion evidently felt the darkness that permeated the
forest just ahead of him, as acutely as he had the last time he had been there.
He was also very attuned to the uneasy feelings of his master.
Legolas
bent forward and stroked Elenblaith’s neck, speaking soothing elvish words to
calm the horse. The elf could feel the tense muscles beneath him. He realized
that his own muscles were taut, as well. There was no way staying here and
staring into the trees would get anything accomplished, so he started forward
cautiously.
In less
than two minutes, the trees closed in over Legolas's head. The forest looked
just as it had previously. If he hadn’t known any different, he would have
believed that he was again moving into the forest from the opposite end, so
alike did everything look from this end to that.
Legolas
started down the right hand trail. Unlike the first time he was here, he now
knew it didn’t really matter which one he took. Mordraug would make his
presence known, when he was ready.
The archer
wondered if the dark elf was aware that it was Mirkwood’s prince and not its
king that had entered the forest. He didn’t know how keen Mordraug’s powers
were. He was no wizard or magician of any kind, so there was a question as to
what kind of powers the snake could have given him, if any. It was possible
that the snake possessed all the power and Mordraug only gave the commands.
For all
Legolas knew, Mordraug could be watching him at this very moment. If the
prickling on the back of his neck was any indication, he probably was.
The young
elven archer moved deeper into the trees, now clearly feeling eyes upon him. He
wondered how long it would be before Mordraug confronted him. Knowing he had
only an hour’s leeway, Legolas decided that if Mordraug didn’t reveal himself
soon, he would have to force the issue.
Five
minutes later, Mordraug left the trees and walked out onto the pathway in front
of Legolas. His look was grim, and his eyes flashed in anger. He was plainly
not happy to be seeing Legolas instead of Thranduil.
Legolas
couldn’t stop himself from smiling at the dark elf‘s displeasure. The time had
definitely come to settle matters.
Chapter
Twenty Four
Mordraug
glared up at the blond elf, sitting straight and proud atop his gray stallion.
"Why are you here?" he demanded with a snarl. A scowl graced
his face, and it was easy to believe it belonged there.
"I
came to settle matters with you once and for all," Legolas replied,
pretending that he hadn‘t noticed the emphasis on the word ‘you’. He had been
planning this confrontation since the attack he had suffered in Rivendell, yet
now that he was actually face to face with this evil elf again, he found he had
to work at keeping his composure, and that included forcing the memories of
what had happened in this place back into the recesses of his mind. How well
that was going to work would not take long to discover.
Mordraug's
irritated voice instantly brought Legolas back from his thoughts to full
awareness. "Thranduil is supposed to be here, not you." The dark
elf's attitude, as he spoke the last two words, was more than just anger. It
was almost dismissive of the elf before him.
"There
was no need for my father to come," Legolas answered more calmly than he
felt. "He is not going to give you what you want. Mirkwood will never be
yours,” he declared emphatically. “I should think that you would know that by
now." There was no mistaking the defiance in Legolas's words and
condescending tone.
"So,
the great king of the wood elves sends his youngest son to face death in his
place. I am not surprised. I have always known that he is a coward at heart,
also being descended from cowards." A sneer crossed Mordraug's face. He
wanted to aggravate this young elf, and he was sure that insulting his father
and his heritage was the easiest way to do it. He was wrong.
Legolas
remembered declaring in his previous encounter with Mordraug that his father
was no coward. It was a waste of time to declare it again. Defending his
heritage was also a waste of time. He knew Mordraug was trying to provoke him
into perhaps revealing some secret information or making some kind of mistake,
and he was not going to fall into that trap. "No one sent me,” he said
finally. “This is between you and me now. I am the one that you attacked.
Therefore, it is logical that I am the one to face you now."
The sneer
on Mordraug's face broadened, as another thought struck him. He wondered if
Legolas had been told that the poison in his body could not be removed or
neutralized. If not, it would give him a great deal of pleasure to reveal it.
With that in mind, he said, "Do you know that the venom that is running
through your veins is irreversible---and fatal?"
Legolas
looked straight into Mordraug’s dark eyes. "I am well aware of that fact.
I know what awaits me."
Mordraug
frowned. *Elrond,* he thought with a bitter growl. *That insufferable,
meddling....* He was too angry to finish the thought. The elf believed that no
one else held the knowledge about the venom, and so it was likely that Elrond
was the one who revealed his impending death to this prince. Mordraug wasn't
sure which he hated more, at that moment, Thranduil or Elrond. Still, there was
a definite positive to Elrond‘s meddling. Knowing that this wood elf had surely
spent time pondering the inevitable loss of his immortality and the painful
manner by which it would occur was a good thing, a very good thing.
Now,
Mordraug was smiling. He bent his left arm at the elbow and held it up in front
of him.
Despite his
best efforts, Legolas could not keep his eyes from moving down to the slender
black snake that was wrapped around the extended arm. The memories could not be
held at bay any longer, and a tingling sensation made its way down his spine,
ending in a shiver.
Feeling the
elf's intense stare, the snake, who had been still and quiet until then, slowly
lifted its head almost a foot above the arm it curled around. With a
mesmerizing seductiveness it began to undulate slowly side to side in the same
way it had done the first time Legolas had seen it. The elf’s' blue-gray eyes
followed every move, unable to turn away. His heart began to pound harder,
sounding like thunder in his ears. His breathing became quick and shallow.
The memory
of the snake's needle-sharp fangs sinking into the soft flesh inside his mouth
and injecting its venom made him visibly shudder. His mouth began to ache. Or,
was it just those memories in his mind making him think so? He felt his fear
rising, and he swallowed hard. He then chided himself for his weakness. It
didn't occur to him that even the bravest warrior in Middle-earth, who found
himself in that same situation, would have been equally as fearful. To him this
fear was a flaw, and he hated acknowledging that fact to himself.
He believed
that being bitten again would do him no more damage than had already been done.
Yet, his fear continued unabated. Legolas's face reflected his grim
determination not to appear helpless in front of this evil being, vowing to
keep his courage strong. He had betrayed his best friend, likely broken his
father’s heart and come too far to let these emotions cripple him now. He knew
he needed to do something before his fear turned to panic and immobilized him.
Without
warning, Legolas drew the twin knives that he had put in his belt. His bow and
quiver were strapped on Elenblaith. He had known that, even as swift as he was
with a bow, he would probably only have had one shot at Mordraug, and he felt
there would have been little chance of hitting his target. Mordraug was also a
swift elf, after all. and Legolas had never, in all his long life, fired an
arrow at another elf. So, more than likely, if he had even attempted to shoot
Mordraug, the elf would have simply avoided the arrow and disappeared back into
the trees.
Legolas
swung his right leg over Elenblaith’s neck and slid down from the horse's back,
all the while facing forward and keeping his eyes on the Avari before him.
"Now, it is time to finish it," he declared.
Mordraug
stared at the half-crouching elf, whose blades were now moving back and forth
in front of him. The dark elf laughed. "You seem very eager to engage in
combat with me. Why do you wish to hasten your death?"
Legolas
wasn't about to answer that question. Mordraug could not find out that
Thranduil, Estel, and possibly others, were not only on their way there but
would be arriving before long. Instead, he said, "Why are you not in a
hurry to see that happen? I would think that watching me die would be a
distinct pleasure for you."
"Indeed,
it will be. But, I do not want it to happen too quickly. I wish to savor your
fear first," Mordraug replied, stating the last sentence with the same
relish he would have done, if referring to the enjoyment of a juicy piece of
meat.
However,
Mordraug's own questions had begun to make him suspicious. Why, he wasn't sure,
since it was actually logical for the silvan elf to want to try and kill him
and his pet as soon as possible. Or was it? Wouldn't he want to play this scene
out as long as possible to try and find a weakness in the dark elf's defenses?
Wouldn't he want to question and probe until he found something he could try
and exploit? No, there was a definite reason the prince was trying to finish
this quickly, even if he knew his own death was at the end of it.
Mordraug
decided that he needed to get away and give himself more time to figure out
what this clever young elf was up to. There was too much at risk to rush into
anything. He had to stall. A smile came to Mordraug’s face, as he thought of
the perfect place to go to think. It was also the perfect place for his
eventual revenge.
He knew
that as soon as he turned his back, Legolas would take that opportunity to try
and drive both long knives into his retreating back. That, of course, would
never do. Mordraug held his left arm straight out to the side, as he turned his
back on Legolas and started walking away.
The snake
looked toward Legolas, and then his eyes flashed with that same inner red glow
it had displayed before it had bitten the archer previously. A searing pain
exploded through Legolas's body. It wasn't quite as bad as the attack at
Rivendell, but it was bad enough to knock him to his knees and stop him from
using his knives, which was all that Mordraug wanted for now.
Mordraug
didn't have to turn around to see what had happened. He laughed when he heard
the involuntary cry of pain that escaped Legolas's lips. *Another weakness,*
the woodland elf thought unhappily, as he panted for breath.
When
Legolas was finally able, he looked up and saw that Mordraug was no where in
sight. It took a few moments for the pain to subside enough for the elf to get
to his feet. He swayed precariously but didn't lose his balance. It took
several attempts to make his muscles obey his commands. His whole body hurt,
but the fire that had swept through him was gone. His head felt a little woozy,
yet his vision remained focused.
"Who
is the coward now?" he managed to shout, although the sound was not as
harsh as he intended nor as strong as he wanted. Still, he was sure it was
heard quite clearly.
Legolas
realized that he still clutched both of his knives in his hands. He put them
back in his belt and started off, rather unsteadily at first, after the dark
elf.
Elenblaith
began to follow. The archer turned and held his hand up, stopping the horse’s
advance. He rubbed the stallion's forehead and told him to go into the trees
but to stay near the trail. He believed that when the final confrontation was
over, the horse would be found. He would be taken home, possibly bearing his
master's body. Legolas sighed. There was no time to think about that now.
He watched
as the horse disappeared into the trees to the right of the path before he
turned and headed once again toward where his keen senses told him Mordraug had
gone. The evil that the Avari and the snake radiated was as easy for an elf to
follow as a physical trail left by clumsy, heavy-footed orcs.
Orcs.
Legolas suddenly remembered that two orcs had held him while the snake bit him.
He shivered again at the memory of their rough hands holding him immobile. He
also remembered their laughter at his fears. A surge of hatred swept through
him. He despised those foul creatures. Legolas forced his mind to calm itself.
Where were
the orcs now? The elf nodded in sudden understanding. The overly thick canopy
of trees made the forest naturally a little gloomy, and it was easy to forget
that there was bright sunshine outside of these woods. However, the low light
did not quite make the forest dark enough for orcs to be comfortable. Wherever
they were, they would be hiding until nightfall. That, at least, was an
advantage for Legolas, though Mordraug evidently didn't think he needed their
help. *Ego precedes a fall,* Legolas thought, remembering the phrase from one
of his school masters, during a warrior training lesson on teamwork. *Perhaps,
I can take advantage of Mordraug’s monumental ego.*
A good
hundred yards farther down the trail, Legolas saw that Mordraug had moved into
the trees. He had no idea where the dark elf was going, but it didn’t matter.
Legolas was going to keep following him until he stopped. And, stop he would,
because the blond warrior knew that Mordraug was leading him somewhere in
particular.
A few
moments later, Legolas began to feel a tugging on the edges of his mind. His
body had now recovered, but there was definitely something nagging at him that
he couldn’t quite grasp. He looked around him but didn’t detect anything that
might be the source of his mental discomfort.
Then
suddenly, he knew what the feeling was trying to tell him, as he realized that
his surroundings were becoming familiar. Legolas now knew where Mordraug was
leading him, so he picked up his pace.
~*~*~
Mordraug
had been thinking hard during his walk through the forest. He kept asking why
the Mirkwood prince would want to hasten his own death. The obvious thought
kept coming back to him that the young elf had come here alone to face him.
Why? Was there more to it than his declaration that it should be him, because
he was the one who had been attacked. There had to be more.
Over and
over he mulled the puzzle until, all at once, it hit him. Alone. Of course.
The wood elf had seemingly come alone. But, had he really?
Mordraug
may have been in virtual exile for almost two millennia, but he had not been totally
unaware of events in the world outside of this forest. He had often sent his
orc slaves out to spy on the goings on in Mirkwood. Many had been killed by the
elven warriors of that realm, but enough had made it back to keep him informed
of current events. He knew for instance, about the close friendship that
Mirkwood’s youngest prince had formed with the human ranger. He also knew of
his close ties with Elrond’s twin sons. Then, of course, there was his father,
Thranduil.
Mordraug
realized that none of them would have let this young archer make this journey
by himself. So, he was now sure that those others were also coming. That had to
be it. Perhaps, they were planning on entering from the other end of the
valley. Perhaps, they were already in the forest, and Legolas was just a
diversion until they reached their intended target---him.
Mordraug
found it hard to believe that anyone could enter this forest, and he wouldn’t
be aware of it. Mordraug was convinced that they hadn’t arrived quite yet, and
that this silvan elf was, at present, truly alone. That still did not explain
why Legolas was in such a hurry to combat Mordraug before his ‘help’ arrived.
Well,
whatever they had planned wasn’t going to work. He and his pet had faced the
Lords of Mirkwood, Rivendell and Lothlorien along with almost a dozen elven
warriors all those years ago---and won. He didn’t think that there would be any
warrior guards with them now. He believed that they, with their own egos, would
want to defeat him without any outside help. He found himself eagerly awaiting
their arrival. The prince he could easily control until they showed up.
Legolas
stopped when he saw Mordraug standing in the center of the same clearing where
he had been attacked and bitten by the snake. He had been right about where
Mordraug had been heading.
The Avari
had his back to Legolas, who was just about to make his presence known, when he
heard Mordraug say challengingly, “Come, Thranduil. I cannot wait until you
arrive to try and save your son. I hope you are coming, too, Elrond. And, I
welcome whoever else you are bringing with you. None of you will escape. This
time, you will all die.”
Legolas
froze, and a knot formed in his stomach. *He knows!* he thought in dismay. *He
knows they are coming.*
Chapter
Twenty Five
A cold
chill shot through Legolas’s heart, as he heard Mordraug speak those
challenging words. He couldn’t be sure if they were spoken in anger solely
toward his father and Elrond, or if he knew that Legolas was listening, and the
words were meant for him to hear. Either way, he was dismayed to learn that the
dark elf knew that others would soon be arriving.
The elven
prince was forced to take slow, measured breaths to calm himself. He had to
think rationally. That would have been fine, he told himself, if he had all the
time in the world to get this matter settled with Mordraug. But, he did not. He
had to finish it before his father and Estel arrived. At the same time,
irrational thoughts and worse yet, actions, would not accomplish anything. He
had to find something in the middle.
The blond
archer slowly raised his head a few inches to see if Mordraug was still facing
away from him. He was. His demeanor was almost relaxed. In fact, he had the air
of someone who hadn’t a care in the world. Perhaps, in Mordraug’s mind, he
didn’t. He was certainly confident he would win the upcoming battle with little
trouble. Legolas was determined that that would not be the case.
Legolas
couldn’t see the snake, since Mordraug held it in front of him. He knew,
however, that the black serpent didn’t need to be anywhere near him to bring
about an attack. He had learned that painful lesson all too well in Rivendell.
Legolas
made up his mind what he would do and instantly acted upon it. There was
neither need nor time to ponder that decision once it had been made. The elf
drew his knives once again and prepared to throw one at Mordraug‘s back. He
felt no compunction at making this kind of sneak attack. He much preferred
facing an opponent, but Mordraug did not fight with honor, and Legolas had
already realized that, in this case, he could not afford that luxury, either.
If his honor was sacrificed in order to defeat Mordraug, so be it.
Mordraug,
with his keen elven hearing, was aware of the movement behind him, recognizing
it instantly for what it was. He whirled around, and ducked just a second
before the knife would have buried itself in his flesh. The blade flew past and
landed in the brush on the far side of the clearing, very near where the dead
rabbit had lain.
Legolas was
dismayed to see that Mordraug had deftly avoided the blade. There was only one
thing left to do. With his one remaining knife, he sprang from the brush and
charged the dark elf, rapidly closing the distance between them. He hoped that
Mordraug wouldn’t be expecting a frontal assault this early in the battle.
Legolas was
right. Mordraug was actually expecting another knife to come his way. With this
in mind, he kept his eyes on the knife Legolas was now switching to his right
hand.
Legolas
sprinted the last few feet toward the dark elf. He refused to consider that
this surprise attack might be the only advantage over the Avari that he would
ever have
The charge
quickly turned out to be no advantage at all. Mordraug waited until the last second
and then sidestepped Legolas just before he could be impaled on the long knife
the young elf held out in front of him.
Legolas
heard a hiss in his ear, as his momentum carried him past Mordraug. He then
felt a sharp pain on the left side of his head. He knew immediately that it was
not the strike of a snake. Out of the corner of his eye, Legolas saw the dark
elf’s fist move past his head.
Mordraug
had reacted with anger, when he saw Legolas coming at him with long knife in
hand. After stepping aside, he had balled his right hand into a fist and swung
it at the charging elf’s head. It was an instinctive move, and he didn’t know
if the blow would connect or not. He smiled when his fist landed solidly above
Legolas’s left ear.
Legolas was
not expecting to be hit with a fist, and thus did not move from his straight
line charge. The pain from the blow was intense but did not deter him from his
purpose.
Fortunately
for him, Legolas did not fall or lose his balance. Instead, he whirled around
and charged Mordraug again. Despite the blow Mordraug had given him, Legolas’s
knife had remained level. He had decided that another quick charge was the best
plan of attack, at this point. But, this time rather than trying to strike
Mordraug, he took a swipe at the snake’s head.
The snake’s
response was a swift one. Angered, the serpent did not wait for a command from
Mordraug. It immediately rose up and struck at the fair elf. Legolas had raised
his hand up in a defensive move, and the snake’s lowered fangs met with the
flat blade of Legolas’s knife. The wood elf couldn’t believe his good luck.
The snake
was enraged, but before it could strike again, Mordraug had put a restraining
hand around the snake’s neck. “Stay your anger, my pet,” he said soothingly, as
he began to stroke the black head. “For now, I wish him merely immobilized.”
Legolas had
no time to prepare for what he knew was about to happen. The small yellow eyes
that were now very close to his face flashed red and fire once again exploded
through the elf’s body. For the second time in less than half an hour, the
prince found himself on his knees, panting more from the shock to his system
than loss of breath, though that was certainly part of it. He stared down at
his knife, which was now lying harmlessly on the ground. He hadn’t remembered
dropping it.
His mind
was screaming at him to do something. He tried reaching for the knife,
but his arm barely moved, refusing to obey his command. He felt the same way he
had one time years ago, when he was caught in a strong river current, and he
had tried to reach out for a nearby log to keep himself from being swept over a
waterfall. The current had effectively kept his arm from moving forward.
There was
only air between his hand and his knife now, yet he might as well have been
fighting against the river current for all the success he was having. He
reminded himself grimly that he had never been able to grab the log, either.
His oldest brother had rescued him then. He laughed bitterly to think that he
was actually wishing no one would show up to rescue him now. If he died at the
same moment Mordraug did, this whole mission would be a success and he could go
to the Halls of Mandos in peace. If only that would come to pass.
Mordraug
stood and laughed down at him. “What is wrong, little one? Can you not pick up
your own knife?”
Legolas’s
head came up slowly, eyes narrowed, and he glared in pure hatred at the Avari.
“Do not call me that,” he ground out between clenched teeth, trying to use his
anger to ignore the pain that lanced through him. That was the name his father
had called him when he was an elfling and more recently in Rivendell, and he
didn’t want it sullied by coming from this evil elf’s mouth.
Mordraug
laughed harder. He didn’t know why being called ‘little one’ irritated the
young elf so much, but it amused him to know that it did. Perhaps, it held bad
memories for the prince. It didn‘t really matter, as anger again flared in the
dark elf. “I will call you whatever I wish, whenever I wish it. You will learn
that before you die.” Mordraug raised his hand and started to take a step
forward, intending to hit Legolas for his perceived insubordination.
“Leave...him...alone!”
came a fiercely demanding voice from across the clearing.
Mordraug
never took that first step, as he stared into the furious face of Thranduil,
whose blue-gray eyes were now as dark and menacing as a thunderstorm. If it had
been physically possible, the intensity of his glare would have ignited
Mordraug where he stood.
The black
eyes of Mordraug reflected his unbridled shock at the fair elf’s sudden
appearance. Then, he quickly and effectively hooded his emotions. “I have been
waiting for you, Thranduil,” Mordraug replied icily. He looked around to see
who else had accompanied the woodland king.
Standing in
a semicircle behind Mordraug were the Rivendell elves, Elrond being more to the
side. Estel stood transfixed behind and slightly to the left side of Thranduil.
Elrond
stood silently and gave Mordraug his own considerable glare. He had not drawn a
weapon. However, Glorfindel and Elrond’s twin sons had their arrows pointed
straight at the dark elf‘s head. They dared not fire, though, because they did
not know whether or not this accursed excuse for an elf had the knowledge to
cure Legolas of the venom’s poison. They could not risk killing what might
prove to be their friend’s only chance of survival. That fact, however, did not
cause them to lower their bows a single inch.
Ignoring
the standoff that electrified the air around him as affectively as any nearby
lightning strike could have done, Aragorn had now run up to Legolas and knelt
in front of him. He locked eyes with his elven friend. The pain the ranger saw
there caused his chest to constrict. He reached out to put his hands on the
elf‘s shoulders, when Mordraug yelled, “Do not touch him, or I will kill him
right now!” Aragorn jerked his hands back. He would have defied Mordraug in an
instant, if the threat had been against him. But, he was not willing to risk
further pain to his friend. His eyes reflected the regret he felt at not being
able to offer Legolas any comfort.
Legolas
nodded slightly in understanding. There was also a silent plea to Estel that he
should not risk turning Mordraug’s wrath on himself.
Though it
didn’t seem possible, the fury in Thranduil’s eyes intensified even more. “You
will deal with me now that I am here. Leave my son out of this.” He began to
advance on the dark elf. He stopped only when the snake raised its head again
and hissed menacingly. As much as the elf king wanted to put his bare hands
around Mordraug’s neck and squeeze until the life was gone out of him, he was
no fool. He could not risk being bitten. It would do no one, including Legolas,
any good.
With a
smirk at Thranduil‘s forced restraint, Mordraug nodded in Legolas‘s direction.
“As long as I have your son in my power, you dare not attempt any hostile moves
against me.” He looked around him. “That goes for the rest of you, which I am
sure you know quite well. You would have shot me by now, if you believed
otherwise.”
The
arrogance the dark elf showed was almost more than the other elves could bear.
“Just so that you understand I mean what I say...” There was no need to finish
the sentence, because just as those words left Mordraug’s mouth, Legolas arched
his back and screamed.
The sound
of Legolas’s torment tore at Thranduil’s heart, as it did them all, but he
could not afford to turn his back or even his head from Mordraug or the snake.
He also knew that no matter what he had told Elrond about the strength he
possessed to protect Mirkwood, he dare not look at his son, or his resolve
might well crumble.
Aragorn
hadn’t been able to hold back a groan of frustration at not being able to help
his friend. He sat on his knees and clenched both hands into fists. His face
betrayed his emotional pain at his helplessness.
Elrond
finally motioned for Elladan, Elrohir and Glorfindel to lower their bows. The
look he gave Mordraug was almost as fierce as that of Thranduil, but he knew
that if Legolas was to be spared further pain, his sons and his friend would
need to refrain from showing any kind of threat for the time being, at least.
Keeping their aim on him might push Mordraug to follow through on his threat to
kill Legolas right then. It galled him to feel as helpless as Estel felt.
Mordraug’s
laughter rang out, as he looked past Thranduil at Legolas. “Poor little one, he
came here to protect a father who does not even care enough to look at him in
his time of need. Is that how you acted when your wife was suffering? Did you
turn your back on her, as well, Thranduil?”
The elf
king had to work so hard to control himself from leaping at Mordraug that his
whole body shook. Still, his eyes never left the black eyes of the Avari. He
watched, as the snake’s eyes flashed red and a scream once again escaped
Legolas’s lips. This time, unlike in Rivendell, the fire in his body drove him
to the ground where he lay moaning, as his body jerked and writhed in agony.
This time
instead of the steady sensation of fire burning his flesh, the pain now came in
waves, each one seemingly more painful than the last. Legolas continued to
writhe and moan. The sights and sounds of the world around him faded to nothingness,
punctuated by flashes of intense white lightning that corresponded with each
wave of agony. His entire world now was reduced to the burning agony consuming
him.
Mordraug
looked past Thranduil to watch the prince’s losing battle with a pain far
beyond any he had previously known. The dark elf smiled at the results of his
‘handiwork‘. Not only was Legolas suffering but so was his father. That alone
was a great source of joy for the Avari.
Mordraug’s
joy was also a source of distraction for him.
Thranduil
took that opportunity to draw his dagger. He would have driven it into the dark
elf’s throat, if not for the fact that the snake was now watching him, and he
knew full well that he couldn‘t kill Mordraug and get his hand out of the way
of a strike from the snake. So deciding, Thranduil, in a lightning fast move,
put the sharp blade of his knife against the top of the snake’s neck about
three inches below its head. The serpent hissed angrily, but the elven king
held his knife firm.
Instantly,
Mordraug looked down and saw with horror that he no longer held the advantage.
He realized, much too late, of course, that his feeling of triumph at what he
had done to Legolas had distracted him. He had never believed what Legolas had
told him about his father putting Mirkwood ahead of his family. That failure to
believe was now costing him. Rage crossed Mordraug’s face as he looked up at
Thranduil.
“Do not try
to drop your arm and move this serpent out of the way of my blade,” Thranduil
threatened icily. “You would not like the outcome for it---or for you.”
Mordraug
knew that this was no idle threat. Even if he had not dealt with Thranduil at
all in the past to know the seriousness of the threat, seeing the wood elf’s
demeanor now would be convincing enough. A myriad of confusing thoughts swirled
through Mordraug’s mind, as he frantically began to calculate his options.
Chapter
Twenty Six
Mordraug
stood and stared at Thranduil, who was calmly holding his sharp elven dagger
against the snake’s neck. No, Mordraug amended, the elven king was not calm. He
shook with rage and a tremendous desire for revenge, but unfortunately, his
blade remained steady.
The armed
elves behind him would be held at bay as long as they believed Mordraug might
kill Legolas, so he was not overly worried about them, at the moment.
He sneered
as he considered Elrond, the great half-elven healer and son of the morning and
evening star, Eärendil. His attention had remained with Legolas, not once
attempting to draw his sword. Consequently, he was all but dismissed from
Mordraug’s mind.
None of
them seemed to know that this attack would be different from the previous ones
that had afflicted the young wood elf. This time there would be no stopping the
attack. It would progress just as the others had done all those centuries
before. The young prince was about to die horribly, and even the dark elf
himself could not stop it. Considering the hopeless way Elrond was now looking
down at Legolas, it appeared now that the Lord of Rivendell was all too aware of
that fact.
“Release my
son from the attack,” Thranduil demanded in a cold fury. “Now!”
With a
smile that he could not keep from displaying, Mordraug said, “I cannot.”
Thranduil
did not believe him. “You control the serpent. Tell it to end the attack.”
“I am so
sorry.” The dark elf uttered the words in so sarcastic a tone that it was clear
he was anything but sorry. In fact, he was intending to thoroughly enjoy
imparting his knowledge of doom to the elven king. “My pet has unleashed the
final stage of the venom. It cannot be stopped by anyone.”
At that
moment, Legolas began gasping for breath. The fire had left his body and as
before, near freezing blood began to flow through his veins, sending the frigid
liquid seeping into every fiber of his body. His lips began turning blue, as
his lungs slowly advanced toward immobility, forcing him to gasp in order to
get any air at all. “Helkh,”
<Bitter
cold)> the elf rasped barely above a whisper, not having the necessary air
to speak louder.
Legolas
began to shake violently, his body trying vainly to keep the core of itself
warm. Then to the horror of his friends, his body began to contort. His limbs
were twisting. The muscles were being stretched and pulled. The archer’s arms
crossed each other on his chest and his hands became distorted claws. The sound
of breaking bone could be heard, when first one wrist snapped and then the
other, as his hands twisted around each other. Legolas’s legs were also
contorting at unnatural angles as they bent back upon themselves. His neck
arched from the abnormal warping of the controlling muscles, throwing his head
painfully backward. Legolas’s screams rent the air. It was an unbelievable
sight.
Aragorn
looked up at Elrond with eyes reflecting a sorrowful pleading the depth of
which his father had never seen there before. “Please, do something,
Ada.”
Elrond’s
memories drifted back almost two millennia, as his mind’s eye transposed the
faces and twisted bodies of those who suffered the cruel attacks he had seen back
then onto the body he saw on the ground in front of him. He slowly shook his
head. “I can do no more now than I did then,” he said with a heart full of
anguish and an uncharacteristic tone of defeat. He clenched his fists in
frustration much as Estel had done a few moments before. The healer in him
raged at his inability to aid the young elf.
Mordraug’s
eyes moved from the young blond elf on the ground to the older blond elf in
front of him. The anguish and fury on Thranduil’s face was terrible to behold.
Th King had
reached the end of his self-control. Through clenched teeth, he said, “If what
is happening to my son does not end immediately, I will kill this black spawn
of a demon.” He glared straight into the dark elf’s black eyes. He still did
not believe that Mordraug could not end the attack on his son. It was
inconceivable to him that the dark elf would ever have admitted that he had
lost control over Legolas‘s fate, partly because of his immense ego and partly
because that would mean he could no longer hold Legolas hostage. “I mean what I
say,” Thranduil finished threateningly.
Mordraug
knew the woodland king did not believe he no longer controlled the situation.
It occurred to him suddenly that that was a good thing, because he had just
made a grave tactical blunder. As long as Thranduil believed he could stop the
attack on Legolas, he could keep the woodland elf from fulfilling his desire to
kill him and his pet. What he didn’t realize yet was that the elder wood elf
had decided that the standoff was going to end right then.
When
Mordraug finally did realize that Thranduil’s patience, never lengthy at the
best of times, had run out completely, he quickly made up his mind that he
would sacrifice the snake to spare himself. What else could he do? While
Thranduil was engaged in killing the snake, the dark elf would have a few
seconds of inattention from everyone around him. They would be watching with
gleeful pleasure as Thranduil killed the snake. Mordraug would then make his
getaway. He knew this forest better than anyone, so he believed that even a
wood elf such as Thranduil could not find him, when he wished not to be found.
Arrogantly Mordraug said, “Go ahead. Kill it. In time, I will find another such
as he to aid me.”
So
dismissive had his attitude become, that the dark elf didn't even spare a
glance at the serpent. If he had, he would have seen the dangerous look
residing in the small yellow eyes. This was no mindless reptile capable only of
being directed by another. It was a sentient being. Though its awareness was on
a primitive level, it understood exactly what Mordraug was doing. Mordraug’s
intentions infuriated the creature.
The serpent
slowly turned its head from Thranduil and swung it back to look at Mordraug. It
hissed menacingly, flicking its tongue in and out. The dark elf, whose
attention was fully on Thranduil, so he would be able to react as soon as the
king did, still refused to glance at the snake. He acted as if the black
creature now meant no more to him than dirt under his boots.
In the
lightning fast move common to all venomous snakes, it sank its fangs into the
back of Mordraug’s left hand. The dark elf let out his own scream of pain and
shock and quickly put his right hand over the wound in a reflexive move of
protection. The snake promptly bit the back of that hand, too, this time
hitting a vein and injecting venom directly into the Avari’s blood stream.
So startled
was Thranduil, that the took a step back, releasing the pressure of his blade
on the snake, who quickly uncurled is body from around Mordraug’s arm and
slipped to the ground. It could have gone after any of the elves or the human
that surrounded it. However, at that moment, it was not interested in revenge.
It wanted freedom.
As soon as
they had recovered, the twins raised their still-loaded bows and fired at the
fleeing snake, who was slithering rapidly through the grass. It was just a
little too fast, and the arrows landed short, both slamming into the earth
barely two inches from the tapered tip of the black tail. The snake was soon
lost to sight.
They
started after it, but Glorfindel called them back. “Stay here in case you are
needed. I will find that creature.” It was a vow he intended on keeping. In
seconds, the elder elf had disappeared into the trees, bow in hand.
After being
bitten, Mordraug looked down at the back of both of his hands, staring in
stunned horror at the twin puncture marks that decorated each one. His mind
reeled. He had been bitten by his own pet, the creature he had freed from the
amber stone, the creature he had given a home to. This could not be happening.
He was supposed to destroy Thranduil and Elrond. How could they be unscathed
while he was now being infused with the deadly venom? He had never even thought
to enquire of the creature, if he would be as susceptible to the poison as all
the other elves. He never dreamed that information would be needed. *There is
no antidote!* his horrified mind wailed.
Thranduil
came close to using his dagger to slit the dark elf’s throat while he stood
transfixed by what had just happened. It would have given the Mirkwood king a
great deal of satisfaction to end the dark elf’s life. But, just before he
could accomplish the feat, he pulled his hand back. Why end his miserable life
so easily? His evil heart was now pumping poisoned blood through his body. Let
him die the same way he had condemned his son to die.
A wrenching
scream from Legolas caught the king’s attention. He pointed to the twins. “Make
sure this filth...”
Before he
could finish the sentence, Mordraug turned around and began running. His mind
had finally shattered completely, throwing it into total chaos. All rational
thought ceased, as he ran blindly into the forest, screaming.
Thranduil
knew that Mordraug would be dead soon, suffering the way he was making Legolas
suffer. Had he possessed the ability, Thranduil would have greatly prolonged
that suffering. The main thing now was that he would no longer be a threat.
“Forget it,” the king told the twins. “He will get the end he deserves.” With
that he turned and hurried toward his son.
The King of
Mirkwood knew exactly what he would see. The accuracy of that knowledge tore at
his heart. Legolas was deathly pale, a tinge of blue infusing his skin. He was
barely able to get air into his freezing lungs. Thranduil knelt down and
reached for him.
Elrond
started to hold his arms out to block Thranduil from touching Legolas. His
first thought was that holding the twisting muscles and tortured bones would
cause more harm to the young elf. It was the healer in Elrond, who held that
belief. He shook his head almost imperceptibly. For Thranduil to hold his son
would do more good for them both emotionally than it would cause any further
physical distress to Legolas.
Thranduil
picked Legolas up and held him close. He could feel the chill of death in the
slender body. He wrapped his arms around Legolas, giving him his love and
whatever bit of warmth his own body could provide. He felt the movement of the
contorting muscles that lay against him.
There was a
loud crack, as Legolas’s left ankle broke, and then his body suddenly stopped
its abnormal twisting.
It was not
clear to Elrond why the contortions had ceased. In all the previous attacks,
only death had ended them. Though the young elf’s breath had now retreated to
the barest minimum for keeping his body alive, he was still alive.
Elrond
noticed that the contortions were not as pronounced in Legolas as they had been
in the elves of long ago. There was no way to know why that had happened, but
it was a relief, though much physical damage had already been done.
Thranduil
hugged Legolas to his chest, the young elf‘s golden hair spilling down over the
king’s arm. He closed his eyes and put his chin down against the side of his
son’s head.
The body he
held was gradually beginning to still. But, Thranduil’s mind tried hard to push
that thought away. If he gave it no credence, it may not come to pass.
Aragorn,
still on his knees, reached out and put a trembling hand on Legolas’s shoulder.
He sighed as he, too, felt the chill that greeted his fingers. He had believed
so strongly that his friend not only could be but would be saved.
It was inconceivable to the man that he could not. That was a realization that
was like glass shards ripping into his heart.
Legolas was
dying. To the ranger, those three words should not be allowed to exist, in
Sindarin, in Westron, in any language known in Middle-earth. He sat unmoving.
His head was bowed, eyes closed in grief, but he did not move his hand. He
would not lose physical contact with his best friend until death parted them.
The twins
had moved up close. They knelt between Thranduil and Estel. Their eyes, which
mirrored each other’s in so many of their shared emotions, stared sadly at
their friend. They were each as unbelieving as Estel. Even having heard their
father and Glorfindel tell them about the horror of what the venom could do to
an elf’s body, they still could not believe what they were seeing. They
couldn’t begin to imagine the pain it must have caused, even though the memory
of the agonized cries of the archer still rang in their ears.
Unnoticed
by anyone except Elrond, Glorfindel returned to the clearing. In his left hand
he carried his bow. In his right hand he carried an arrow. Impaled on that
arrow was the black snake. It hung limply, its body swinging loosely, as a
result of the blond elf’s movements.
The scene
he came upon was as dreadful as his thoughts told him it would be while on his
way back. He dropped bow, arrow and snake and went to kneel beside Elrond. He
knew he wouldn’t be able to give any real comfort to anyone, at this point, but
he would be there should any turn to him for aid, verbal or physical.
The solemn
silence was suddenly broken by distant screams, filtering through the trees.
There was no doubt in anyone’s mind that Mordraug was now enduring the hideous
death that he had inflicted on many of the Firstborn, including Legolas, his
last victim. The small group that heard the dark elf’s death throes were too disheartened
about Legolas to find any joy in Mordraug’s death. Thranduil didn’t appear to
register the sounds at all. Everyone else’s sole attention was also on the
young woodland elf, who lay wrapped lovingly in his father‘s embrace.
Legolas had
stopped his convulsive shaking, no longer having the strength to try and keep
warm. The frozen fingers of ice were winning the battle for the elf’s life.
Thranduil
had not opened his eyes, spoken or made any other outward sign. He simply held
Legolas close, desperately trying to cling to the belief that each of his son’s
dwindling breaths and slowed heartbeats meant his child was still with him.
***
Just as in
Rivendell, a small part of Legolas’s mind was still able to function. However,
unlike in Rivendell, this time his mind was completely detached from his body,
not able to feel or register the pain. Only the cold seemed to leap the
distance between mind and body.
Legolas
knew his body was shutting down. There was no way it could survive much longer
in the gripping cold that had engulfed it, invading every inch of him, inside
and out. One vital organ after another was succumbing to the icy invasion. This
last vestige of his mind would go soon and lastly his heart would cease. Or,
perhaps he would be aware of its last beat, its last attempt to remain viable.
He knew not, nor, he realized, did it really matter. It would all end soon
enough, and he would then begin a journey toward his eternal destiny.
The searing
heat had been awful enough with its sensation of flames and burning flesh. He
had writhed then, rolling from side to side and moaning to try and combat it.
But, somehow this helkh was worse. The cold drove him inward, forcing him to
curl around himself, seeking what warmth he could. Even his twisting muscles
had pulled his body into a ball.
He then
became aware of voices nearby but couldn’t make out what was being said. He
concentrated the best he could and soon recognized that one voice belonged to
his father. The other must belong to Mordraug. Fear entered his heart. *Please,
Ada, do not let him ensnare you. Not for my sake. I am already lost.*
The next
thing he became aware of were arms, strong and soothing, as they enveloped his
crumpled body in a cocoon of warmth. The faint smell of his father came to him.
Legolas inwardly smiled. He would die in his father’s arms. The thought
comforted him. He hoped it would offer comfort to his father, as well.
The elf
also felt a firm pressure on his shoulder and knew it was Estel, his brother in
spirit. He knew from the feel of the ranger’s hand that he was attempting to
give the elf strength and let him know he was there.
Legolas had
been right. Estel held no grudge at what the elf had done to him before he left
Rivendell. He would miss his human friend.
Despite his
current condition, Legolas sighed in contentment. He would pass beyond this
firmament in the company of those who loved him and whom he loved in return.
Legolas
felt the tickle of guilt for wanting them there as witnesses to his death,
because he knew it would be hard on them. But, he did not know if he could have
faced it with any dignity, if he had been alone. He almost laughed. Having his
body twisted and tortured into a shape he could not begin to imagine was hardly
dignified. He pushed that useless thought away, instead thinking only that his
head, though forced backward by unyielding muscles, now rested against his
father’s shoulder.
Unable to
move or make a sound, Legolas’s now drifting mind managed two thoughts. *Be
well, Estel.* *I love you, Ada.*
***
The king
spoke. “Please, Little One, you must come back to me. I cannot imagine my life
without you in it.” He shuddered to think that he would spend the rest of his
immortal life never again to see or be with his youngest child. It was then
that the unshed tears of both a last desperate hope and a crushing hopelessness
slipped down Thranduil’s cheeks.
Legolas’s
body jerked once and then went still.
Chapter
Twenty Seven
Legolas’s
spirit was soaring. He smiled broadly, feeling like an eagle must feel when
winging its way through the endless sky. In truth, he was flying like an
eagle. The clouds slipped past him, and then he broke free of their cottony
essence. The sky was a darker, richer blue than he had ever seen from the
ground. The sun shone down on his upturned face, warming his skin. The warmth
felt glorious after the freezing cold that had claimed his life.
He tried
hard not to think of the last sight he had seen, after his spirit had first
left his body. The group around him were solemn and grief-stricken, his father
and Estel in tears. He wanted so much to tell them that all would be well. That
he would be well, and they would recover from the loss they were
experiencing. But, of course, he wasn’t able to communicate with them so he
could ease their sorrow. And, his spirit could not linger, no matter how much
he desired it.
He had
glimpsed his tortured body, as he sped upwards away from the scene in the
forest clearing. He regretted that such a cruel form would be left behind to be
mourned. It would have to be shrouded completely while lying in state, as his
people offered their final respects to their fallen prince and his family to
their lost kin. He cared not for himself how he looked. He cared only how his
family would react to what they would see. Legolas sighed. There was no use
dwelling on such things, since they could not be changed. What had happened had
happened. That life and that death he had to leave behind, as he was leaving
Middle-earth behind.
Now that
Legolas was looking forward to the future, it surprised him that he had the
same sensations that a real body had, able to feel the cool, crisp air, as it
rushed past him, and the sunshine on his face. He glanced down and saw the
shape of his body as it had been before Mordraug. It was vaguely transparent,
not at all solid, but it was definitely recognizable. His thought processes
were unfettered, and his emotions as real as ever they were in life.
He turned
his head slightly and stared fully into the golden sun, as he made his way through
the pristine air. He smiled when he realized that it did not hurt his eyes to
look directly into the blazing orb above him. He was beginning to realize that
there would be no more pain in his future. Yes, all would be well with him.
Legolas was
so enthralled with the flight of his spirit that he lost all track of the time
that was passing during this journey. Had it been hours or mere seconds? Time
seemed not to matter in this after-life existence. In truth, he had never
worried much about time. He had been born into a race of immortals. Eternity
had always stretched out before him into infinity. The fact that his immortal
life could be taken had always been a possibility, especially since he was a
warrior, but he had never contemplated that fact in any great depth. The elf
had always taken precautions, however, they had been more because of those that
he was protecting rather than for himself. He certainly never worried about his
own death. Now, here he was making his way to the Halls of Mandos.
Another
smile spread across his face. He was now thinking that this journey would end
in a great adventure, and he was looking forward to experiencing it.
Though he
had left most of his family and friends behind, before long he would see his
beautiful Naneth. Her loving arms would soon enfold him the way they had when
he was an elfling. Perhaps, that was the reason he had perished, so that he
could be the one child of hers, who would spend the remaining length of
Ilúvatar’s Song with her. That thought brought joy to his heart. *Naneth, I am
coming,* he sighed happily.
~*~*~
Thranduil
knew the instant his son’s spirit left his body. It felt as if someone had
reached a cruel fist into his own chest and wrenched his heart from his body. The
weight of such a loss almost crushed him. He held Legolas as tightly as his
arms would allow. The tears continued unabated.
Estel did
not have the same connection with Legolas that his father had, but all the
same, he knew the moment that death claimed his friend. He didn’t even try to
hold back the tears that freely fell from his eyes. Death had now parted the
two friends, but still Estel could not take his hand from Legolas’s shoulder.
Instead, he squeezed it harder. Everything around him, and every thought in his
mind was swept away. All that existed for him was that Legolas was dead. Those
three words were so much worse than the three he had thought earlier. But, this
wasn’t just words. This was reality.
The
Rivendell twins were mired in their own grief. They had known Legolas since he
was a small elfling and had always thought of him like a little brother. It had
gladdened their hearts after Estel had come to live with them, and they had
watched as gradually the two, elf and human, had bonded. Now, their grief not
only weighed heavily upon their own hearts but also extended to Estel.
Elrond felt
as if he had lost an adopted son. Beside his grief lay the burden of failure.
He absently twisted Vilya, as the Ring of Air rested upon his finger. He had used
his healing abilities to help countless others of all races through the long
years. Why could he not have helped this young elf, who meant so much to him?
His
thoughts drifted back to Celebrian, his beloved wife. She had sailed West after
the tortures she had suffered at the hands of orcs, but he had been able to
save her to make that journey possible. He held dear the surety that he would
be with her one day. His heart reached out to Thranduil, who would now have
neither his wife nor his youngest child with him in Valinor. Elrond could
barely imagine such heartache.
Glorfindel’s
face reflected his sorrow. He then thought of the snake and was glad that he
had been the one to kill it. If only doing so could have saved Legolas’s life.
He hoped that, in time, the fact that the serpent had been slain would help
ease the devastated hearts around him. His own heart ached, but he forced
himself to think of the others. He wanted to be able to help them during the
hard days that stretched out before them.
Arda continued
to turn. No death, no matter how deeply mourned, could stop time from moving
forward. So finally, after many moments of quiet sorrow in the clearing,
Glorfindel roused himself and said softly, “We should prepare to leave.”
No one else
stirred.
Thranduil,
his face still laying against Legolas’s hair, murmured something. No one could
understand what he said until a strangled cry escaped his throat, and the words
“Little One” tore through the air and settled like a pall around them all. He
did not want to physically let go of his child. Deep inside his shattered
heart, he knew he must, yet he could not make himself do so. Not yet.
~*~*~
Something
was happening. At first, Legolas could not figure out what it was. All seemed
as it had been, yet something different was occurring. At first, he thought it
had to do with the flight of his spirit. This was all new to him, of course.
Perhaps, there was some sort of shift in perception that had to take place
before he reached the Halls of Mandos. He took note of the fact that he was now
headed away from the sun toward the West. That was expected, so he did not
believe that was what was disturbing him.
Then,
Legolas suddenly realized what was different. A sound was floating on the air,
faint and far away, but there. He was sure of it. The elf turned his head so
that his left ear was aimed downward to try and discern what that sound could
be. He wondered if maybe it was something he needed to know before he could
continue the journey.
He heard
the sound again. It was a voice. He turned his head this way and that but still
was not able to understand the words that were being spoken nor who it was who
uttered them.
Then, on
the very periphery of his keen elven hearing, he heard what the voice was
saying. “Little One.” He heard it clearly now. His father’s pet name for him.
The mournful sound of those two words spoken, he now knew, by his
broken-hearted father, tore at his own heart. How could his spirit, now on its
way to the Halls of Mandos, still feel such sorrow at words that he should not
even have been able to hear? It made no sense to him, and he frowned in
bewilderment.
Again the
words swirled around the elf like a soft echo. “Little One.” “Little One.”
“Little One.” Each time they were repeated, they seemed to become more somber,
more hopeless. There were desperate tears in those words and a grief beyond
measure.
Suddenly,
Legolas realized he was no longer soaring. He was no longer moving at all. His
heart lurched. He was hanging suspended in the air. It was a most disconcerting
feeling.
With a
wisdom that he could not identify, Legolas knew that he was being given a
choice: To continue his journey to the Halls of Mandos or to return to the only
world he had ever known. That same wisdom told him that he had to make up his
mind quickly, or the choice would be made for him, and he would continue
onward.
He tried to
think of what would occur with each choice. If he continued, he would enter an
existence of peace and happiness with his Naneth. If he went back... What?
Would he be condemned to spend the rest of his immortal life in a twisted body
that could never accomplish anything but to cause him endless pain? Would that
not burden his family and bring more enduring emotional pain than his death
would do? Would he return to the life he had before being bitten by the snake?
Unfortunately, he had no idea what the answers to any of those questions were.
And, there was no time left to speculate.
Again, he
heard the words “Little One” spoken in a tone of pleading and heartache. His
choice was made. “Goodbye, Naneth,” he whispered, believing that if she was
aware of this journey he had undertaken, she would understand his decision.
With no
warning, he found himself not just falling but plummeting backwards. The clouds
soon surrounded him and then flew upward away from him. Instantly, he found
himself heading face first toward the earth. An odd thought came to him: Is
this the way a falcon feels when it lays his wings along its body and dives at
an incredible speed straight down toward its unsuspecting prey? It was both
exhilarating and frightening. He stared mesmerized as the earth below moved up
to meet him with terrifying speed.
He saw the
forest spread before him in various shades of green. Then, the clearing came
sharply into view. He didn’t even have time to think about the people that were
gathered there before his spirit crashed into his deformed body.
Bitter cold
swallowed him, and all awareness fled.
Chapter
Twenty Eight
The jolt
that went through Legolas’s body, as his spirit slammed back into it, startled
everyone, to say the least. They all stared at the young elf. Was this a final
death throe, one last convulsion before death made its final claim on the
prince’s earthly remains? Or, could it be the unimaginable, life renewing
itself in the elven body?
No one knew
for sure what the answers to those questions were. Each one literally held
their breath, waiting to see if there would be another such movement. For what
seemed like an eternity, there was none. Hope was on the fringes of being
abandoned.
Elrohir,
still stunned and staring, found his voice first. “I know we did not imagine
that.”
Elladan
shook his head. “No, we did not,” he confirmed. He couldn’t see Legolas’s face
from his vantage point, but what he could see told him there had been no change
in the wood elf’s features. He looked to his father, but the Lord of
Rivendell’s face was an unreadable mask.
Thranduil’s
heart skipped a beat and then began pounding so hard it filled his ears with
the sound of it. He wanted so badly to believe that life was truly stirring
within his son, yet he was afraid to, afraid that if he did, and he was wrong,
his heart would be shattered beyond all hope of repair. When Legolas gave a
great gasp, followed by another, as his oxygen-starved body tried to force air
into his lungs, Thranduil knew the truth of his hope. He raised his head
slightly, so he could see his son’s face. He looked at it in wonder. “He
lives,” the king said, his voice almost breaking. “My Little One has returned
to me.” He then began to stoke Legolas‘s cheek, his forehead, his hair. Right
then, no one else existed.
If
anything, more tears began to follow each other down Aragorn’s face. His hand
opened and closed continually, squeezing Legolas’s shoulder in sheer
overwhelming elation. He offered a silent thank you to Eru for bringing his
friend back. How and even why it had happened could be explored later. At this
point, he was too overcome to try and figure anything out. Legolas was alive!
Those were the three words that meant more to him than his own life. They
brought boundless joy back into his grief-stricken heart.
The twins
were simply grinning ear to ear, unable to say another word. It had taken a
miracle to accomplish that feat.
Glorfindel
knew more than anyone what coming back to life felt like, though the
circumstances of his return to the land of the living had been quite different.
A smile played about his lips. Could this kind of incredible event really be
happening again? He happily answered his own question, as his smile broadened.
After the
first convulsive movement, Elrond had been about to make the comment that none
of them should get their hopes up. He knew how devastating it would be for
everyone to think Legolas was reviving only to find out that he was not.
Thranduil, he knew, would never fully recover from such a cruel blow. But, when
Legolas gasped and then began to breathe, Elrond’s doubts were swept away. His
own eyes confirmed the miracle. The essence of the young elf was indeed back among
them.
Elrond had
to temper his own joy with caution. He reached across Legolas and put his hand
on Thranduil’s shoulder. “Thranduil, Legolas may be alive, which is a wondrous
and joyful miracle, but that does not necessarily mean all is well.” The elf
lord hated to utter those words. Yet, he knew they needed to be heard.
Thranduil
looked up and stared evenly into Elrond’s eyes. At first, there was a puzzled
look on his fair face. His youngest child was alive, back with those that loved
him, back to resume his life. Why was Elrond casting such doubts about
Legolas’s future? Then, it suddenly dawned on the elf king what Elrond meant.
He looked down at Legolas again, taking in his cold twisted body.
Elrond
continued softly. “Legolas’s spirit has returned, but you see the cruelty his
body is still enduring. There is no guarantee that the poison that took his
life just moments ago, will not force this condition to remain as you see it.”
When Thranduil opened his mouth, and it looked like he was going to protest,
Elrond held his hand up. “I think I know what it is you wish to say, Thranduil.
I, too, have hope that all will be well, yet we must all be aware that whatever
recovery Legolas attains will be won only after a long, hard road.” He was
making it clear that there may not be a full recovery.
Aragorn,
like Thranduil, wanted desperately to believe that a full recovery was the only
outcome that could possibly take place. He decided not to voice his thoughts,
not wanting to hear his father’s arguments on the matter. He knew Elrond was
just being the practical healer he was. Instead, he asked, “Ada, what can we do
to change what the venom has done to him?” His voice was husky from the intense
range of emotions he had just experienced.
The Lord of
Rivendell did not want to admit that he was not sure what, if anything, could
be done for Legolas, at this point. He was not worried about appearing
fallible. He had already demonstrated that shortcoming all too well. He
was determined that from now on, any negative thoughts he may have would be
kept to himself. Those around him had suffered enough. Also, not knowing for
sure if Legolas could hear what was being said, he decided that only positive
thoughts should reach the young elf‘s mind. Total honesty could be sidestepped
for the time being.
It was
Aragorn that first saw a change in Legolas. Anyone taking in the elf’s total
appearance would probably not have noticed it. The ranger had been staring at
the elf’s hands, more as just a place to look, while his emotions swirled,
rather than as an actual observation. The elf’s hands were still painfully
twisted around each other, yet the man was suddenly sure that Legolas’s fingers
were not quite as clawed as they had been before. Was it just wishful thinking,
or had there been some kind of movement? He saw it then. The fingers were
definitely moving. It was very subtle, but it was real. “Ada, Legolas’s fingers
are straightening out.”
Elrond’s
first thought was that Estel was just seeing what he wanted to see. However, he
was not going to dismiss his son’s words out of hand. The elf lord frowned in
concentration, as he, too, stared at the archer’s fingers. “You are right,
Estel. Legolas’s muscles appear to be trying to move back into their original
positions.” Since this was the first time anyone had not only survived the
venom but was trying to reverse its effects, Elrond found himself in totally
unknown territory.
Six pairs
of eyes were now staring intently at Legolas’s fingers.
“Elrohir,”
Elrond said. “Go get two blankets. No,” he corrected looking at Legolas, who
had now begun to shiver. “Get three of them.”
Elrohir
jumped up and ran toward where they had left their horses grazing on the sparse
grass that existed on the dark forest floor. He reached into the travel pack on
his horse and pulled out his blanket. He then turned to Elladan’s horse and
retrieved his brother’s blanket. He started to get the one belonging to Estel
but hesitated, knowing that the human, who was more susceptible to a chill, may
be in need of it later on. He then chose the blanket belonging to Glorfindel,
sure the elder elf would not mind. It had taken Elrohir only a moment to
complete the task. With all three blankets in hand, he ran back to the
clearing.
He handed
one blanket to Elrond, who spread it out between himself and the two wood
elves. “Thranduil,” Elrond said, “we must put Legolas down on the blanket.”
The elven
king was reluctant to let go of his son, but he trusted Elrond in this. Knowing
what he did about Mordraug, he held no grudge against the healer for not being
able to stop what had happened. All he cared about now was getting his son back
the way he had been. That was an idea that Thranduil would not let go of. He
refused to believe that there may be permanent damage done to his son in body
or spirit. Legolas would recover to full health. His father’s heart would
accept nothing less for his child.
Because of
Legolas’s physical condition, especially the way his head had been forced
backward, it was impossible to lay him on his back. “We must put him on his
side,” Elrond informed Thranduil.
The two
elves gently rolled Legolas onto his right side, facing Elrond and Estel. The
elf lord then covered the archer with the two remaining blankets that he took
from Elrohir’s hands. “Do not touch him,” Elrond instructed, his voice tinged
with a note of sternness that was aimed at both Thranduil and Estel. “Even the
slightest touch could cause him both harm and more pain.” He had decided to err
on the side of caution.
The bitter
cold that had gripped Legolas’s body was slowly being replaced with a warmth
that was spreading throughout his body. It took several moments before the
young elf stopped shivering. However, movement did not stop. There was a
continual jerking and twitching that was relatively mild yet easy to observe
through the two blankets.
Estel asked
his father, “How long will it take?”
“It will
take much longer for the muscles to reposition themselves than it did to get
into this position to begin with. We must wait several hours, I would assume.”
He didn’t really know, because, as he had noted earlier, no one had ever
recovered from the venom’s poison before. The elf lord was still amazed at that
stunning occurrence.
Legolas
began to moan and occasionally cry out. No one doubted the pain that wracked
the elven body, as the muscles twisted back the other way.
The one
thing that Elrond feared more than anything was that both of Legolas’s wrists,
his left ankle and possibly some of his ribs, that had been broken by being
wrenched one way, could now result in more severe damage while twisting back to
where they belonged. How ironic that the very act of recovery may bring about
more harm.
Aragorn,
who had been on his knees this whole time, sat down cross-legged, determined
not to move until Legolas woke up. He still held the belief that once the elf’s
body had returned to its natural form, he would awaken and have no more wrong
with him than a few broken bones, which Elrond, aided by Legolas’s elven
healing ability, would quickly and easily take care of. Legolas had already
faced up to his fears of Mordraug and the snake after the dream that had
revealed the horror of what had been done to him, so the ranger did not believe
the elf would have lingering fears about that. Besides, Mordraug was now dead
and could never hurt anyone again.
Aragorn si